I have just noticed that I can have an absolutely excellent day with everything going well, when all of a sudden its like being slammed in the face with this terrible feeling of gloom and that nothing is ever going to be right again. This weekend was terrible and I am so annoyed that instead of fighting it I once again succombed to hiding under the duvet and crying and feeling sorry for myself!!
I feel so stupid again now. I want to beat depression yet I still keep giving into it!
I can't even prepare myself, it doesn't even creep up its just WHAM there it is again.
It is such a terrible terrible thing, I used to keep thinking it was all in peoples heads and they should get a life! Well now I know, i have first hand knowledge and I would not wish this on anyone.
But I'll brush myself off and start again. The dark, deep well that I keep falling in, ok so I slipped a bit, but I'll keep climbing out, maybe I'll get higher and higher each time and not slip so far one day. Wouldn't that be great.
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