Had the worst news today......... I don't think I could get any lower emotionally or mentally.
After not hearing from the RAH for 3mths, I called them today to get this clinical uncaring woman tell me, that my appointment for my back (just to look at) is set for, wait for it...... October............. please don't fall off your chair..... 2013!
UNACCEPTABLE!
DEVASTATING!
CRUSHING!
On top of that I told her my Dr wanted to get me in sooner then that (because of the potential lose of mobility) and she said well he better have exceptional reasons to jump me ahead....... and this will make you hit the roof....1900 other people!
Thats right, thats how many people are ahead of me! The stupid pollies are arguing stupid bills about same sex marriage and euthansia and our health system is up the creek in a barb wire canoe and not a paddle in sight. They don't give a damn about those of us who want live full lives with no pain. Too function like a human being, to feel like one!!!!!!!
All I want to do is curl up and bawl my eyes out but i can't because i'm mother and student and wife and a worship leader and I have school event for my kids and christmas to think of. I just don't have the time to selfishly close up and deal with the way i feel.
I have sent a message to my Dr, he has a back door into the jumping up the queue. It's not that I want to jump ahead of other needy people, but I have done everything over the years the Dr's have told me to do and its NOT worked. I follow their guidelines, I make sure I stay off the narcotics when I don't need them. I'm responsible but this is stealing my life and stealing from my husband and children. It's about time the government got of it's fat arse and started helping it's citzens rather than building momuments to themselves.
I am so upset, words cannot express the distress and anguish I feel, but i simply don't have time to deal with it.
i hope no one minds I put this here.
Raven |