Mental Health Support

hi everyone

iam dealing with my 18yr old son thats just been diagnosed with schizophrenia and its very scarey .he's just got out of hospital and is living with his father who also has schizophrenia too.but he says he doesnt and its PSD

since i've been here! I am dealing with the worse bout of depression i think i've ever had - going on 6 months now. Funny, blogging has really helped (as long as i limit my time - otherwise i could easily become obsessed) check it out:

http://notsobluemama.blogspot.com/

hope everyone finds something to smile about today!

j-9

 

Its so good to read that, well maybe I am not an alien from another planet, cause thats how Ive been feeling lately. I am going through depression at the moment, I am trying real hard to 'snap out of it ' but when you feel like your spiralling down the black hole, it is so hard too get up again. Well I think I am at the stage where I hit the rocks and Iam still falling down and all the rocks are cutting the shit out of me on the way down. I know with me it is circumstances, my daughter has a mild intellectual disability, but the way this effects her life and mine is anything but mild. She hates school due to bullying, lack of any social structure in the school environment (its like sending a 7yr old to high school). She wont go most of the time, so I get no breaks, I try to find ways to help her but where I live kids like her are severally underfunded. I have no family here and my partner and I are now seperating. If you can relate to any of this please contact me! At the moment I feel more alone then I ever have done before.

I don't have a mental health issue personally thou I beg to differ with the pro's! My daughter who is 7 has just been Diagnosed as having Reactive Attachment Disorder a complex psch diisorder. I have come in here as I feel as though this is where I may fit and may find hope for my daughter. I live her illness which is similar to bipolar and autism but unfortunately drugs and therapys dont work as its the neural pathways etc that have been affected. I have seen a doc as I am finding it v hard to cope just the other day it was like all day i was having an out of body experience. Doc said its just enviromental stress and depression and as the situation isn't going to change I just have to deal with it. But how - I am watching my daughter sprial outta control I have lost life as i knew it  and feel as though Iam losing my sanity. I dont know where to turn the littlest thing either sparks anger or tears I am hurting and lost dont feel as though I belong anywhere. So maybe here where i can spill the beans may help.

This has been copy and pasted from my personal diary. copywrite- me.

• D – DESPARATE  
• E - EMOTIONAL    
• P - PARANOID 
• R - RAGE 
• E - EATING     
• S - SUICIDE  
• S - SAD    
•  I - IRRATIONAL
•  O - OVERBEARING  
•  N – NO HOPE.

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           

• THIS person wants to be happy  
• THIS person wants to laugh again, but doesn’t know how 
• THIS person wants to be normal
• THIS person wants understanding  
• THIS person wants support
• THIS person wants someone to just give them a hug  
• THIS person wants a shoulder to cry on
• THIS person wants to feel needed 
• THIS person wants to love and be loved 
• THIS person doesn’t know how or feels they don’t deserve to be loved
• THIS person is sick of being fat and ugly 
•  THIS person is sick of feeling like they don’t belong 
•  THIS person is sick of being a no-body
•  THIS person is sick of feeling worthless
•  THIS person is sick of crying 
•  THIS person is sick of feeling like a mean, horrible person 
•  THIS person is sick of sleeping all the time
•  THIS person is sick of being paranoid 
•  THIS person is tired of being angry  
•  THIS person is just plain tired 
•  THIS person, most of the time just wants to quit - everything
• THIS person hates them self soooo much
•  THIS person has no self confidence
•  THIS person just wishes for a change 
•  THIS person is so forgettable that when they die, they will be on the news as an elderly person found dead in home and has been dead for ever. 
• THIS person could be anyone 
• THIS PERSON IS ME.  

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            

DON’T let the baby blues get you down.                                               Get help sooner than later.                                                                        Don’t think that you’ll be alright, I’ll get over it.                               Most people can, but a lot can’t.                                                            If not treated, it will turn into depression.                                            It will be harder to get rid of.    

Mine started out as Post Natal Depression (PND). I didn’t get the help needed. Back then (13yrs ago) there wasn’t any real help available. The doctors hardly knew anything, so treatment was limited. Now it is widely know and the help is amazing. People are really starting to give a damn. Family and friend support is essential to your healing. If you don’t have someone who can lend a sympathetic ear and a shoulder to cry on, then it will be harder for you to heal and survive. I know because when I first got PND, I had no family and friends to whom I could rely on and all I got was “it’s all in your head, you’ll get over it”. Well guess what, I didn’t. It is really hard to say “hey I need help, I can’t cope”. For you to get better, you have to ASK for help. It is way to easy to convince yourself and others that you are fine, that everything is ok, and that you’re just having “a bad day”. Everybody needs help, no one can or is expected to do everything on their own.          

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS ‘PERFECTION’. EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE HAS A FLAW. You are not a loser or a failure just because you can’t do something as good as somebody else.  

 

 

1: Get angry - yell, scream, swear and nag nag nag.

2: Get depressed 'cause I yelled, screamed and nag 'cause i fell like a bad mum.

3: Eat 'cause it's supposed to make you feel better.

4: Get depressed some more 'cause i ate and it didn't make me feel better.

5: Eat again for the sake of it.

6: Get even more depressed 'cause I feel worthless, fat ugly and paraniod cause i feel fat and ugly.

7: Eat some - why do we do that for?

8: Get angry cause i ate and shouldn't have

9: Get depressed..........and so on. It is never bloody ending.

 

Hi, just thought i would tell you how i first became one of many who have this oh so wonderful condition.

I have always been the type of person who always does everything and anything for anyone, in others words i let people take advantage of me all the time.

when I had my second child at the age of 20, i had a lot of trouble with him cause he was not a very good baby. he was very demanding and i couldn't cope. That is how I ended up having my first PND. At the time there wasn't a lot of help or understanding about depression or what a person really needs to do aout it.

My doctor put me on Zoloft, but I didn't really take it cause i had a wonderfully supporting family who turned around and told me it was all in head, just get over it. My partner was one of those who told me that and so i didn't have the support that i needed.I was always yellling at my kids - a 2yr old and a new born. Was always paranoid when my partner went out. Cried all the time, and yes thought about commiting suicide. No wonder my partner spent as little time as possible with me.

I decided then that I won't have another baby 'cause I didn't have the patients to have another.

Anyway, things got better for a little while and then i found out that i pregnant. I got so upset that we thought of getting rid of "it", even though i don't believe in abortion.Lucky for me, I didn't go through with it. I don't think I could've lived with myself if i had've. We then had another girl, who wasn't as demanding as her brother, but demanding anyway. The PND came back, but i ignored it untill life got unbearable. I went to the doctor and they put me back on Zoloft,and because i left it too long to get help, it turned into full blown depression, that i am stuck with it for the rest of my life. 

In 2005, I started work. I had never had a job before because i wasn't getting one until all my kids were in school. I ended up going through an adjustment period where i was feeling really guilty about leaving my kids. I went to see my doctor and she upped my meds.

Back in september of last year (08) I started to go down hill again and this time it was affecting my work as well as home. I realized that my meds were not working so i went to see my doctor . It was decided that instead of upping my meds ( still on Zoloft which i had been on for nearly 9 years) they chose to change them. I was really screwed up there for about 2 months and only now are they making me feel nearly normal again.They have also made me realise that I take to much crap from everybody and it's about time i took control of my life and not let everybody walk all over me.

I have my days where i yell and scream for no real reason at all and i can see in my kids faces' what the hell have i done now' and it hurts so much, but i just can' seem to stop myself when once i get started.  I get really paraniod- he's cheating on me, why are they looking at me for- I'll be eating something and i will think everybody is saying look at the fat person eat. 

I'm sick of being mistustfull all the time.I'm, sick of being paranion all the time, I'm sick of fighting and yelling, I'm sick of eating. I just want to be happy again.

 

Ok well when I was a little girl I lost my little brother since then the only real friends I have made were my pets which were usually dog's, by the time i was in year 10 I had been to 10 schools. I never really wanted to make friends because I knew I would just end up moving and lose them. So it was just better that than making em to lose em.

Anyways now im a mother and was Diagnosed with PND just after my son was born, but in the last week he just keeps doing things that annoy me and even though I dont mean to I end up hurting him, then I end up in tears because I have hurt him. My question is is this a form of Depression or is it something else??

My partner doesn't know about me accidentally hurting our son, and it hurts me to be doing these things and not knowing why?? I have also recently been having Suicidal thoughts, and have tried in the past.

Cheers Queenie xoxooxoxxo

just thought id add my story......well i actually got depression while i was pregnant which is kinda weird. i had a lot of issues/stress with Madisons dad and his family which really got me down. on top of that i got stares and diffrent comments from people because i was a "young mum" at the shops. i was 18, not too young but still not old! and because i was ive never had any self confidence it really got to me, made me paranoid that everyone was looking at me etc. Half way thru my pregnancy i got quiet sick with a condition called cholistasis, Its not sposed to effect you that bad and not until like 26 weeks, well i got it really bad and i got it at 20 weeks so not much fun for me! i was constantly at the hosp haveing blood tests, and that made me physically tired which added to my depression.

After madison was born i was diagnosed with PND. when madison was 9 days old madisons dad and his mum took me to court for reasons. but it went in my favour so thats okey. but that really got me low, and since then ive suffered from depression.

It dosent make it any easier when madisons dad rings me up on so many occasions and abuses me for all diffrent reasons. N on top of that because he called me names etc my self esteem has dropped to an all time low and has made me gain weight like crazy

But enough about me, i think all you laidies who live with depression are amazing, so many people diss depression and think they you'll just get over it, but you dont. I beleive we will always live with it, things will get better, but never perect!

Hi all.

This is a bt hard to say but here we go. I am a Mum of 4.3 living and 1 deceased. I was diagonised with PND 9 years ago after our 2nd son was born. This ended up turning into fulldlown depression. I struggle everyday but with my medication I can enjoy life. My 2 eldest children have be diagonised with ADHD ODD so some days are fun!lol  Some days are such a challange and if it wasnt for my hubby I dont think I would be able to be a mother. I could go one and on. Every day I feel guilty that i can not be a NORMAL mum. As our baby is only 7 weeks old and I am breastfeeding I wonder what I am doing to her with being on my meds. But i dont want to give up B/F> the biggest thing that worries me is if she will go through withdrawal when i finish B/F.

Anyhow I will stop boring you now. Hope to hear from someone with smilar experiences.

love n hugs

Kate