So thank god I asked to be re-evaluated. I went to my appointment today, and the Dr is finally putting me back on meds. And he gave me sleeping pills, so I can finally get a bit of rest. He said that by the time I run out of sleeping pills, the Wellbutin will have kicked in and I should be able to sleep anyway. I fought against going back on meds at first, but now I've realized that this is what I need. If it will help me to be a better mother and a happier, less anxious person, I'll take a couple pills a day.
So the next week is going to be crappy. I know these pills give me shakes for a few days, but once I get through that I hope I feel better. I just can't handle being the way I am anymore. My memory is shot, probably because of lack of sleep, and I'm really bitchy, also probably because of no sleep. But hopefully I will be back to my old, non-depressed-and-bitchy self in 2 weeks or so. Yay!
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