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well my mum is still hanging on but for the life of me i cant work out why as she is so so so so tired.i thought it may have been to meet her grand daughters but she finnally got to do that. i love her ever so much but wish that she would just go so as to be out of the pain and suffering that she is going through. i reckon that watching her go through all of this is going to be even harder than loosing her. i thought that loosing her would be the worst but not now. please i hope that NO ONE thinks i am being mean to my mum as im not i love her with everything i have but just hate to see her this way as it isnt really her. she needs to just go be with my nanna and auntie who have been gone for a long time.

cheers sry for raving AGAIN

kylie

                                                                                   

                                                                    THIS IS MY MUM NOW

hi all sry to annoy u all but just needed someone to talk to.  i am having so so much trouble handeling watching my mum slip away from me. there isnt really much that i can do to help myself cope anymore. i have tried everything that i can think off to deal with it all but NOTHING seems to work. she is just so so far gone but for some reasom she is just still hanging on but only by a thread. i can see why she is so tired but it is just so hard to emagine my life without her.

i will stop my raving on as i dont want to hurt anyones feelings about wat they have been through

thanks for listerning to my rot

kylie 

about me

when we grew up my mum wasnt a very good mum or very nice to us 4 kids for that matter.

but we always new we had our nan (big nanna)

we new no matter where we where or where she was she would care for us and help when she could.

i always wished she was my mum.my worst niht mare was that she would die.and that came true in 2006 2 weeks after my daughter was born and 2 days before my birthday.she died of cancer and i couldnt go to the funeral because i had a c-section 2 weeks before she died. i miss her every day we didnt have much contact in the last coup[le of years because i always thought i had loads of time she was on 63 .i thought she would be there when my kids where adults.

i regret not contacting her in the last years i regret it every day.

i also regret my kids didnt know her they will never know how wonderful there great grandma was.

i pride myself of having some of her traits and physical traits  (my big fat feet and fingers )

thanks for listening its the first time i have talked about it

stace

 hello everyone thanks for alowing me to join this group my mum is getting so much worse by the day .

i hope that i dont begin to annoy u all.

kylie

Hi

I have invited a new member to be here with us

She isn't quite a WOMAN yet but will very sadly be so soon

Whether she joins or not is up to her  but i know we will be here if need be and when she is ready

Luv Deb

Well, don't really know where to start but my Mum died last year and i can't believe it's been a year already!  I've lived away from my parents for quite a long time now (they are in NZ) and weren't all that close to them anyway.  But once they are gone their gone. I feel sad mainly for my kids that they don't have any extended family like grandparents, my husbands parents are also in NZ, i have fond memories of my Grandparents growing up.  So Dads still alive but not very good at phoning, recently i was told he was lonely and so i called him and offered support that he could phone me anytime but whether he will i don't know.

Has anyone ever thought of adopting Garandparents?  sounds crazy doesn't it but i have heard of it.. I'd like to hear more stories and how others of you cope without have Nans or mums around.  Cheers for now Julie xx

her funeral is tomorrow (thursday) and i cant cope with the fact she will no longer be here with me, why is it so hard?

i know i loved her so much but its wierd how now i love her even more and she is gone now and i will never have the chance to tell her ever again

she was my best friend and i will always miss her with my whole being and my life from that day will never be the same

To watch a video of my mum at my sister's engagement that was taken a few months before she died. At the time I was pregnant and didn't know it and I travelled to Canberra for the engagement. When I got home we found out I was pregnant, then not long after I found out it was twins. In the meantime mum was on a waiting list for a liver transplant and was very excited to be becoming a granny for the first time. She got the transplant and we were so happy because then she would be able to travel and be there when I had the twins. Then she died two weeks after the transplant.

My daughter asked me at three where my mum was, because every one else had a mum, so where was mine? So, I explained to her that she got sick and now she is an angel watching over us. And my daughter said she wanted to see her. Now my daughter is now eight years old and cries practically every time she sees a photo of my mum ( i keep them in albums to stop her from getting upset) . It's so heart breaking that she so badly wants to see her granny we have told her all about and how wonderful she was. I'm not explaining this very well, but I tell my daughter that my mum loved her very much and would think she was so beatiful...etc And my daughter just howls and says I wish I could see her, (in real life).

So my little sister brought around a video of my mum and I don't think i'm ready to watch it. I'm not sure what to do because I know if I watch the video i'll start howling and I don't think it's going to make anything better. Maybe I should get my little sister to watch it with her and i'll watch it later. That way she'll get to see her granny in real life and maybe stop being so upset looking at photos.

Sorry this is so long...I could go on for hours  Tracey xx

 

I so bnadly want to move on but ive tried and tried and i cant . Ijus want a mum to love me and my children is that too much to ask for a little love and time . When i found my dad i thought that would change my feeelings and make me hate her but the longer it is the more i really miss her i just wanted her to believe me now she hasnt spoke to me in over 3 yrs sometimes you need a mum but wen i think of my mum i jus think of all the bad shes done to me and how she dont love me .

im really sorry i never read anybody blogs til after im sorry you have all lost your mums so sadly my mum is just horrible she disowned me cos my step dad raped me and i went to the police so i am sorry once again some mums r good i wish i could give 1 of you yours back and take mine away if i could