I have just realised (der!) I have 5 bosses.  Each 1 is just as demanding as the next.  Just at different stages of demand.  Sabrina is going through the phase of "u get it for me now!"  Seth is a little more emotional, Shamika justs wants her mummy CONSTANTLY!  Sasha is at the stage of just wandering around and quite content till her bottom needs changing and Sebastian is on full steam ahead (being only 10 weeks old). 

Then on top of all the constant demands I have the washing, folding, cooking(and the I dont like that), demands. 

Wow what a job us mums have.  And truely our only reward is the love at the end of the day.

i have been misdiagnosed. I do not have pnd but pms.  Although I would have to say they are almost identical. And the thing with me is I have hardly had a period in 5 years cause thats how long I've been pregnant. LOL.  Now I'm just horny as hell so hubby doesnt know what he's in for LOL. Anyway all is good and thanks to everybody that supported me through this last week of toughness.

cheers everyone

hey everyone,

Well I have had a really bad case of pnd.  Everything finally got to me.  Me getting sick with the flu, baby S getting sick and going to hospital and S#2 going to hospital to have his operation.  Such an emotional last couple of weeks.  I was on emotion overload and the top finally blew.  So for the last week I have been so angry with everyone and just yelling and screaming for no reason.  I am sure I am over the worst of it now and am coming out on top.

Hubby and I almost split up it was that bad.  The kids must of thought that mum was a physco crazy woman.  I only get pnd when i have baby boys.  Is that strange?

Everything was just out of my control, (I  think I'm a control freak, lol), the laundry was building up and no one had any folded clothes, I sat on the floor and cryed because I had to find baby S a suit to wear, the dishes kept building up and it felt like it never ended no matter how much I washed up.  S#4 got sick and started vomitting in her bed so that was more washing to do.  Hubby was not enjoying work for the week and his birthday is this Sunday and I have nothing planned and the house is a mess.  I didnt feel like I was getting any sleep even though most nights I was in bed by 9-30.  And I'm so stubborn that everytime hubby asked me to leave the house for a break I would refuse.

So I seen my mum today after having another fight with hubby and had a little cry and am feeling a little better, so I'm taking it a little at a time.

Isn't it funny how sometimes the closest person to you can try and tell you something that you know makes sense but doesnt seem to register in your brain, then somebody else can tell you the exact same thing but maybe in a different way and your whole life can change.

well seth finally had his operation to get his teeth removed. what an emotional day. on wednesday morning we got up a 5: 45am to get ready. daddy was taking seth to the hospital and i was taking the girls to school(daycare). his operation was at 8:45am. we decided that i would be there as seth asked me that morning, so i daddy and seth got a taxi to the hospital and i ran around like a chook with its head cut off getting the girls ready and oh yeah, sebastian was going to auntys for the day, so i also had to drop him off. would u believe i actually made it to the hospital on time.

then they would only let one of us in to the theater room while he went off to sleep, so  i went, wow what an experience. they gased him and i was crying my eyes out. such an emotional moment. i left, they pulled his teeth, he woke up and was all fine. not what i was expecting from my sethie at all. he is such a sook when he is sick and he handled it like a champion. so now he has four front teeth missing till he is 8 or whenever those ones come through. my brave little boy.

baby sebastian has bronchilytis. poor little bugger, luckily i got him to the hospital before it got bad so now i have the good advise so that it doesnt get bad. what a shit,crappy thing for a little 6 week old to get. as if life isnt tough enough without having to start like that.  our house is so cold, the floor boards have cracks all through the house and trying to heat it is a disaster. we have rugs all through the house and it is warmer,  but for a baby still very cold. they did admit him to hospital but i didnt want him to stay there so  i took him home. and believe me this was the better choice, he stayed admitted to hospital but gets to be taken care of in his own home surrounded by those that love him.

he is starting to gurgle now and smile, he is such a sweet boy.

anyhow i asked the fairies the other day to help me control my yelling at the kids constantly. well thats how it seems to me anyway, hubby says different, and they decided it would be funny to give me laringytis.

guess what? NOT FUNNY. you cant yell, which yeh is what i asked for help with, but i cant even be heard over Shamika crying. how do i get her to stop if she cant hear me?

so now im very frustrated with the whole situation and a friend of mine told me that hers lasted 2 weeks.  aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.

So now im getting ready for the whole kindergarten school thing next year. so much stuff to go through just to enrol your child into school. and theres still 6 months before she goes. but had to enrol her now incase she misses a spot in a public school. and sabrina being sabrina she never stops talking about big school and when she gets to go. that girl can talk under water.

Seth is going through the whole new baby at home phase so i'll do what i can to get attention. even at daycare, so he has had to have extra attention for being a good boy to take the focus of being naughty.

Shamika has the same sore throat thing that i have but unfortunately she didnt lose her voice and she crys about one thing or another every couple of minutes because she isnt well.

Sasha is coming into her own now and is such a funny little character. she is using her words much more now and asking for things with hand movements and trying to voice what she wants. such a cutie.

Sebastian is on the bottle now as i had a sore breast and he was being very fussy about feeding. he is such a beautiful child. hardly ever crys and is so easy going. all the kids adore him and are forever asking for a nurse or to kiss and cuddle him.

Hubby is at work. lately seems like that is where he lives. i hardly see him as when he comes home, im so buggered that im passed out in bed and even if he talks to me im lucky to even reliase that he is there. he must get some funny conversations from me. im guess im just miss him.

me, im doing fine other than the throat thing. had a slightly bad day on friday. i went to the post office to post some stuff and pay a bill and the lady told me the price and i said to her shocked "to post that?" forgetting that i was also paying for a bill, felt like such a dick. then i ordered a chicken ceasar from our fave restaurant and asked could they meet me out the front due to all the babies and having to get them out of the car, he said no worries that will cost you an extra $17.50 and im like sorry an extra what? he goes an extra $***  nah im only joking. holy crap was it get donna day or what. now i know im blonde but bloody hell they sure got me on friday.

cheers thanks for listening

well baby sebastian is 11/2 weeks old now and he is doing great. he is such a good baby. although i have to boast all the kids were great babies. he feeds well and very rarely cries.

i know i dont have photos for u all yet but soon.  he has dark hair which is rapidly turning blonde just like his older brother, and omg he has such big feet for such a little boy wonder what that means lol. he has lovely blue eyes also just like his brother and his daddy and when he frowns it is just so cute. ok so im biased but hey isnt every parent. lol

all the kids love him and are so good with him. Sabrina just wants to nurse him all the time and Seth sings to him and Shamika is always saying to me " show me, show me" and Sasha isnt too sure  but she still touches him very gently on the tummy and they all give him kisses and cuddles, with mummy and daddy watching on of course.

anyways he is just gorgeous and i promise i will get photos on here soon.

 

hey everybody just thought i would let u all know that im now in labour, have been for about 1/2 hour. so now im sitting up watching movies and progressing through. Guess i'll talk to ya'll in a couple of days to a week.

EVERYBODY HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEK ON ME.

hi everybody, yes im still in one peice. very over it and getting a little scared as i do not go to the doctor for regular checkups never have and never will unless there is a serious problem.  so as i get closer to the due date am getting worried that i will go over. have never had a problem before and am fairly sure will not be a problem now just anxious i guess. i still have a week to go anyway.

i cant believe how cold the weather got here so quickly, one minute it was warm and i reckon still would be if it was for the bloody wind.  Sabrina has ended up with a sore throat and is a bit sooky. our house has wooden floors and not sealed all to well so the wind blows up through the floor where there is no rugs.

anyways will keep u posted on how the baby goes over the week.

i had a great day yesterday. firstly it was my nephew's 1st birthday and dedication to which all my family attended, and then it was my brother's engagement party who is also the dad of my nephew. hubby and i got a babysitter and partied on till about 2am. i only had 1 drink, but man the looks that u get and the comments because ur pregnant, its just ridiculous. 1 guy almost had a fight with my parents because i left the club/pub to take them home and he told me i shouldnt be drinking and i told him i wasnt and to mind his own f***** business and he just kept going. it was actually quite comical but couldve been really bad cause my mum and dad both told him to back off and like a child he goes she started it. how pathetic. but i met some great people from my future sister in laws side and all in all i had a great day and night. unfortunately as i predicted though i did not go into labour so im still waiting. oh and the other thing i didnt have to worry about the type of mess i was coming home to because of the babysitter, we got a new one and she is great. yippee! anyway enough said i had a great day. chow