hey everyone,

Well I have had a really bad case of pnd.  Everything finally got to me.  Me getting sick with the flu, baby S getting sick and going to hospital and S#2 going to hospital to have his operation.  Such an emotional last couple of weeks.  I was on emotion overload and the top finally blew.  So for the last week I have been so angry with everyone and just yelling and screaming for no reason.  I am sure I am over the worst of it now and am coming out on top.

Hubby and I almost split up it was that bad.  The kids must of thought that mum was a physco crazy woman.  I only get pnd when i have baby boys.  Is that strange?

Everything was just out of my control, (I  think I'm a control freak, lol), the laundry was building up and no one had any folded clothes, I sat on the floor and cryed because I had to find baby S a suit to wear, the dishes kept building up and it felt like it never ended no matter how much I washed up.  S#4 got sick and started vomitting in her bed so that was more washing to do.  Hubby was not enjoying work for the week and his birthday is this Sunday and I have nothing planned and the house is a mess.  I didnt feel like I was getting any sleep even though most nights I was in bed by 9-30.  And I'm so stubborn that everytime hubby asked me to leave the house for a break I would refuse.

So I seen my mum today after having another fight with hubby and had a little cry and am feeling a little better, so I'm taking it a little at a time.

Isn't it funny how sometimes the closest person to you can try and tell you something that you know makes sense but doesnt seem to register in your brain, then somebody else can tell you the exact same thing but maybe in a different way and your whole life can change.