well wth one thing i was dredding has happened. Phina and Stewart's had the most awfull fall out last wenesday. and he toild her that if she was wanting to be down in london so badly that she was willing to get us all into searious trouble by not paying the bil so she had the monel, that as far as he was concerned she may as well pack her bags and go. and she did. i was too stunned to do anything at the time. i realy thought it was a called bluff and she would stay at my moms. but she's down there now with no money or place to stay, staying in some strangers ( femail ) home who she met while wandering around. None of here so called internet friends have come through for her, it's a hard lesson to learn but she wouldn't listen to us when we said, they are only internett friends which is different frome friends in the flesh.

Ant's sent her some money yesterday and i'm trying to get her to come back to mom's so she can 'get her act togther' so to speek. decide what she wants to do now. i already know she'll never come back here.

i'm sick at heart, i'm looking out of the window and everyones going about their busness as normal, it seams un real. i can't phon mom as our phone's in the frount room and rabbits have huge ears, so it would not be private. there are no bus's till tuesday but i don't have the money to catch one any how.

yes she left without leaving the house keeping money. the way it was sorted. and the only way we got this flat was because she was under 18 when we applied to the housing agancy, unfortunatly it had to go into stewarts name as she was under 18, otherwise it's realy her flat. they made a couple clame in her name as she was the most likly to get it with no hassell so all the money goes into her account. of which we have no idea what state it's in but by looking st some of here reacent letters she's not been paying some of the house hold bills, so we're expecting to hear form the gas, electric and water people soon, not to mention the phone, sky, tv linceing corp and internett as the money was set up as direct debits from her account which we have found out has been running over the overdraft since feb, so she owes them grand amounts in charges. the cataolgue is thretting court actions as well as her bank credit card.  i can see why she'd want to just go and leave all this mess behind . But if she'd let us in on it then we may have been able to sort someting out. i've also got to explain to the proventent loans that the last bounced cheque for her payment will not be covered and some how out of my money this week i've got to find mine and stewart's payments plus the second payment to the phone bill, she'd only payed half. and still try to cover the bills i'd agreed on to pay. if i can put everyone off till after the 28th when ant gets paid it could be ok.

i'm trying to stay strong, up intill early this morning stewart's been ok, last night he'd started to tidy up in her room, it's not ben tided since november... and the kittens had used somewear other than the litter box and it needed finding. unfortunatly he's read some of here writings and has not liked what he found she's been thinking of him, mostly the hurt was he'd turned into a 'money grabbing corporat suporting bastared' which is laughtable as we've not had the money to be buying anything latley. the only stuff hes brough reacently is for his app to uni this sept. for the project he's got to hand in. but that's out of the window as i don't think hes going to have the umph, as this going to uni in hearfordshire was to be able to move Phina nearer to london in the first place and to help her to find her own space, well she's already gone so he won't be wanting to follow that up now.

poor ant's stuck here for longer as we'll need his contrubution to be able to stay here. when stewart and i worked it out in november, when she said she wanted to move down to london in the first place. we worked out that with my money and him on joseekers till he found work, that we could cover the bills but not eat or eat and not cover all the bills, which is why we asked her to stay and he'd apply to uni down south and we would have more money available to help her move.we sugested that if she was inagreement, which i thought she was, that we'd budget in the money so she could go down london at least once a month,  now it looks like ant's going to have to chip in more of his wages ( he was saving to get his own place ) so in the short term his stuck here.

I think she'd been planning to just go for a while now as looking back the trips were getting closer together, three times between feb and this last one and as i said she'd distanced her self from us since november. spending all her time in her room not even joining us to watch tv or meals.

i'm just holding it together, stewart has bi-polar depression and it was getting better the ups were becomming a lot longer and the downs much shorter, so i'm having to put my feeling to one side to deal with later as, if i go under i'm not sure what the outcome would be, also i keep ontop of it as ant dosn't need me to go to peaces.

sorry to drop this in your lap but i needed an out let and i thought you'd be the most understanding....

I thought I'd share this photo Stewart took from our kitchen window, we could take a different photo every day and they would never be duplicated.

 

At approximatly 8.30am this morning i was awakened by a frantic shaking to find Stewart cowering by the side of my bed nearly shaking him self to bits. He was having the worst Hypoglycaemic attack i've witnessed to date  htpp//www.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia    .

Stewart has these attacts every now and then if he forgets to eat at regular time during the day. Mostly he/we can recognise an on comming drop in his sugar levels way before the shakes start, unfortunatly sometimes he's so absored in somthing that the first tell tail sines are missed and last  night/ early morning he had been playing WoW and forgotten to eat for 8 hours so was in full blown Hypoglycemia when he managed to crawl into my room. My first reaction was call an ambulance, but after 'nurse mode' kicked in i knew what needed to be done. www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/40001627/ 

In Stewarts case a gloocose drink, siped through a straw as the skakes and teeth chattering were too much to risk a glass to the mouth. followed by a warm 4 sugared tea. I was going to give it a nother 1/2 an hour and if it had not started subsiding by then definatly call an ambulance out. Fortunatly his shaking started to calm and he was able to talk more cohearently. So the imedate attack was passing over.  It's completly exhuasted hin and i know from the past expearences he'll sleep for ages now.

I thought i'd write up about this as most people have no idea about Hypoglycaemia, when the blood sugar level drops, more people know about Hyperglycaemia , when the blood sugar is too high , like in Diabetes ,   

www.bbc.co.uk/health/conditions/diabetes/livingdiabetes_blood.shtml

Unfortunatly when the average person in the street is confrounted by any one exibbting any of the symptions the first thoughts can not be helpfull, ie, there drunk, on drugs or even acting stupid for attention, we've had them all .

I wanted to bring this to others attention as a quick responce can mean the differance between a short controlled attack and coma.

Children and young adults can also suffer from these  blood sugar highs / lows en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia#Causes    if anyone has any worrys the best thing to do is consult a medical practioner as there may be some underlying cause. Most often this can be controled by diet.

I hope i've not frightened any one by this blog, i just wanted to shair and hopefully help spread awearness.

 

I replaced our duvets this week with ones filled with re-cycled green plastic bottles ,  yes i said green plastic bottles.  They were on sale at our local co-op   and they are 15 tog so good for this drafty old flat   The only reason i'm realy mentioning it is i'd not realised how flat my old duvet had gotten    well as i said it was old, then Fidel weed on it last week and i thought " that's the hint i need to get a new one ".   It's so big and unfortunatly stiff thay i woke this morning feeling like i'd slepted in a huge marshmallow   and i'd thought about new pillows too,  i'd have not been abole to move, it crinkles every time you move and it' s freeked the cats out so i did not have my usual continjancy of cats  

Well this got me thinking , what other things are made from re-cycled matereals ??? i was trying to find a site that showed picks of the materieals being recycled or the end duvet filling .  Never mind so far i came up with these two and thought i'd shair it with you all  ( Please note this is not a link to sell you anything i just thought you may be interested in what your recycling is being used for, i was )  I'll just have to wait untill my new duvets old then unpick a smeam to find out   If in the mean time i do find say a fvdio or site with better info then i'll stick it on my blog so you can see 

http://www.energysavingsecrets.co.uk/RecycledProducts.html

Close That Loop - Buy Recycled Putting your old newspaper or tin can into your green bin is only the first
step in the recycling process. Once the material has been collected, sorted
and sent to reprocessors, it is then recycled into new products. Making a conscious effort to seek out and buy products made from recycled materials helps to close the recycling loop. The future of recycling ultimately depends
on there being a market for the materials collected.

Recycled Products

Many of the everyday items that you buy may already contain recycled material, such as your daily newspaper. In fact 70% of the content of newspaper produced in the UK contains recycled paper! Glass bottles also contain a high proportion of recycled material, sometimes as high as 90%.

There is also a huge range of innovative and exciting products which are being made by some of the leading designers in the country, all of which contain recycled material. 

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 Black refuse sack made from    
 100% recycled material
 Cushion made from recycled 
 vintage shirts and ties
 Toilet tissue made from 100%
 recycled paper
 Kitchen work surface made 
 from recycled glass  Salt and pepper shaker made
 from recycled pool balls        Coat hanger made from 
 recycled plastic bottles   
 Back-pack made from
 recycled plastic bottles  Coffee table made from
 recycled wood chips
 Aluminium foil made from 
 recycled aluminium foil  
 Drinking glass made from 
 recycled beer bottle Garden

 

 Pro-Grow soil conditioner            
 made from recycled green
 garden waste   Garden decking made from
 recycled timber and polymers  Fashion

 

 Trainer made from reclaimed         
 jeans, surplus military jackets
 and recycled rubber                  
   Handbag made from 
 recycled leather belts  Wallet made from recycled            
 leather belts  TRAID T-shirt made from 
 second hand textiles  Fleece jacket made from 
 recycled plastic bottles  Sock made from reused 
 cotton fibres Art

 

 Glass bowl made from          
 recycled glass  Screen made from recycled
 plastic carrier bags Further Information           

For a list of suppliers please see the guides below and the Related Links.

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http://www.basingstoke.gov.uk