well wth one thing i was dredding has happened. Phina and Stewart's had the most awfull fall out last wenesday. and he toild her that if she was wanting to be down in london so badly that she was willing to get us all into searious trouble by not paying the bil so she had the monel, that as far as he was concerned she may as well pack her bags and go. and she did. i was too stunned to do anything at the time. i realy thought it was a called bluff and she would stay at my moms. but she's down there now with no money or place to stay, staying in some strangers ( femail ) home who she met while wandering around. None of here so called internet friends have come through for her, it's a hard lesson to learn but she wouldn't listen to us when we said, they are only internett friends which is different frome friends in the flesh.

Ant's sent her some money yesterday and i'm trying to get her to come back to mom's so she can 'get her act togther' so to speek. decide what she wants to do now. i already know she'll never come back here.

i'm sick at heart, i'm looking out of the window and everyones going about their busness as normal, it seams un real. i can't phon mom as our phone's in the frount room and rabbits have huge ears, so it would not be private. there are no bus's till tuesday but i don't have the money to catch one any how.

yes she left without leaving the house keeping money. the way it was sorted. and the only way we got this flat was because she was under 18 when we applied to the housing agancy, unfortunatly it had to go into stewarts name as she was under 18, otherwise it's realy her flat. they made a couple clame in her name as she was the most likly to get it with no hassell so all the money goes into her account. of which we have no idea what state it's in but by looking st some of here reacent letters she's not been paying some of the house hold bills, so we're expecting to hear form the gas, electric and water people soon, not to mention the phone, sky, tv linceing corp and internett as the money was set up as direct debits from her account which we have found out has been running over the overdraft since feb, so she owes them grand amounts in charges. the cataolgue is thretting court actions as well as her bank credit card.  i can see why she'd want to just go and leave all this mess behind . But if she'd let us in on it then we may have been able to sort someting out. i've also got to explain to the proventent loans that the last bounced cheque for her payment will not be covered and some how out of my money this week i've got to find mine and stewart's payments plus the second payment to the phone bill, she'd only payed half. and still try to cover the bills i'd agreed on to pay. if i can put everyone off till after the 28th when ant gets paid it could be ok.

i'm trying to stay strong, up intill early this morning stewart's been ok, last night he'd started to tidy up in her room, it's not ben tided since november... and the kittens had used somewear other than the litter box and it needed finding. unfortunatly he's read some of here writings and has not liked what he found she's been thinking of him, mostly the hurt was he'd turned into a 'money grabbing corporat suporting bastared' which is laughtable as we've not had the money to be buying anything latley. the only stuff hes brough reacently is for his app to uni this sept. for the project he's got to hand in. but that's out of the window as i don't think hes going to have the umph, as this going to uni in hearfordshire was to be able to move Phina nearer to london in the first place and to help her to find her own space, well she's already gone so he won't be wanting to follow that up now.

poor ant's stuck here for longer as we'll need his contrubution to be able to stay here. when stewart and i worked it out in november, when she said she wanted to move down to london in the first place. we worked out that with my money and him on joseekers till he found work, that we could cover the bills but not eat or eat and not cover all the bills, which is why we asked her to stay and he'd apply to uni down south and we would have more money available to help her move.we sugested that if she was inagreement, which i thought she was, that we'd budget in the money so she could go down london at least once a month,  now it looks like ant's going to have to chip in more of his wages ( he was saving to get his own place ) so in the short term his stuck here.

I think she'd been planning to just go for a while now as looking back the trips were getting closer together, three times between feb and this last one and as i said she'd distanced her self from us since november. spending all her time in her room not even joining us to watch tv or meals.

i'm just holding it together, stewart has bi-polar depression and it was getting better the ups were becomming a lot longer and the downs much shorter, so i'm having to put my feeling to one side to deal with later as, if i go under i'm not sure what the outcome would be, also i keep ontop of it as ant dosn't need me to go to peaces.

sorry to drop this in your lap but i needed an out let and i thought you'd be the most understanding....

I thought I'd share this photo Stewart took from our kitchen window, we could take a different photo every day and they would never be duplicated.

 

At approximatly 8.30am this morning i was awakened by a frantic shaking to find Stewart cowering by the side of my bed nearly shaking him self to bits. He was having the worst Hypoglycaemic attack i've witnessed to date  htpp//www.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia    .

Stewart has these attacts every now and then if he forgets to eat at regular time during the day. Mostly he/we can recognise an on comming drop in his sugar levels way before the shakes start, unfortunatly sometimes he's so absored in somthing that the first tell tail sines are missed and last  night/ early morning he had been playing WoW and forgotten to eat for 8 hours so was in full blown Hypoglycemia when he managed to crawl into my room. My first reaction was call an ambulance, but after 'nurse mode' kicked in i knew what needed to be done. www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/40001627/ 

In Stewarts case a gloocose drink, siped through a straw as the skakes and teeth chattering were too much to risk a glass to the mouth. followed by a warm 4 sugared tea. I was going to give it a nother 1/2 an hour and if it had not started subsiding by then definatly call an ambulance out. Fortunatly his shaking started to calm and he was able to talk more cohearently. So the imedate attack was passing over.  It's completly exhuasted hin and i know from the past expearences he'll sleep for ages now.

I thought i'd write up about this as most people have no idea about Hypoglycaemia, when the blood sugar level drops, more people know about Hyperglycaemia , when the blood sugar is too high , like in Diabetes ,   

www.bbc.co.uk/health/conditions/diabetes/livingdiabetes_blood.shtml

Unfortunatly when the average person in the street is confrounted by any one exibbting any of the symptions the first thoughts can not be helpfull, ie, there drunk, on drugs or even acting stupid for attention, we've had them all .

I wanted to bring this to others attention as a quick responce can mean the differance between a short controlled attack and coma.

Children and young adults can also suffer from these  blood sugar highs / lows en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia#Causes    if anyone has any worrys the best thing to do is consult a medical practioner as there may be some underlying cause. Most often this can be controled by diet.

I hope i've not frightened any one by this blog, i just wanted to shair and hopefully help spread awearness.

 

I replaced our duvets this week with ones filled with re-cycled green plastic bottles ,  yes i said green plastic bottles.  They were on sale at our local co-op   and they are 15 tog so good for this drafty old flat   The only reason i'm realy mentioning it is i'd not realised how flat my old duvet had gotten    well as i said it was old, then Fidel weed on it last week and i thought " that's the hint i need to get a new one ".   It's so big and unfortunatly stiff thay i woke this morning feeling like i'd slepted in a huge marshmallow   and i'd thought about new pillows too,  i'd have not been abole to move, it crinkles every time you move and it' s freeked the cats out so i did not have my usual continjancy of cats  

Well this got me thinking , what other things are made from re-cycled matereals ??? i was trying to find a site that showed picks of the materieals being recycled or the end duvet filling .  Never mind so far i came up with these two and thought i'd shair it with you all  ( Please note this is not a link to sell you anything i just thought you may be interested in what your recycling is being used for, i was )  I'll just have to wait untill my new duvets old then unpick a smeam to find out   If in the mean time i do find say a fvdio or site with better info then i'll stick it on my blog so you can see 

http://www.energysavingsecrets.co.uk/RecycledProducts.html

Close That Loop - Buy Recycled Putting your old newspaper or tin can into your green bin is only the first
step in the recycling process. Once the material has been collected, sorted
and sent to reprocessors, it is then recycled into new products. Making a conscious effort to seek out and buy products made from recycled materials helps to close the recycling loop. The future of recycling ultimately depends
on there being a market for the materials collected.

Recycled Products

Many of the everyday items that you buy may already contain recycled material, such as your daily newspaper. In fact 70% of the content of newspaper produced in the UK contains recycled paper! Glass bottles also contain a high proportion of recycled material, sometimes as high as 90%.

There is also a huge range of innovative and exciting products which are being made by some of the leading designers in the country, all of which contain recycled material. 

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For a list of suppliers please see the guides below and the Related Links.

I couldn't get this to work as a link so i've cut and pasted it from

http://www.basingstoke.gov.uk 

 

Well Phina's gone down to london for the night, Antony's at work and so far Stewarts asleep, it's me and the cats even their being quiet, they miss Phina . I'm finding my self humming the start to Bork's song which starts " it's so quet.... " Other than that i'm listening to BBC Radio 4  the next best thing to reading

We had the predicted snow monday , wednesday / thursday and as usual britain was not ready for it. This happens every year, this year aparenty there not enough grit to put down

Yesterday was alittle worring though as we had the kittens booked in to be nutered, sorry guys if your reading this as i know most men when talking about this cross their eyes and legs.  Any how it was rather importent it was done as one of the kittens , Fidel, was bing intimidated by the smell when the other, Thich, weed in the litter tray and was starting to wee all over the house the last straw was the sofa we have a litter tray in every room at the moment so he had at least one freah to use but it's costing a fourtume in catlitter keeping on cleaning them out everytime Tich used one as his wee was getting realy smelly so it was time to sort them out. And i'd got to the point of thinking about tying an elastic band around the erhum bits like they do to male lambs when their born any how we managed to find a taxi service running and got there with no problem.  Picked them up at 4pm same taxi driver , we've been using them for the last 4 years, gosh have we realy been here that long   Unfortunatly the older two cats keep hissing at them as thay don't smell right Fidels taken to lying under my feet for potection, he's the smallets and my baby and is slightly down trodden by the others and he knows thay will leave him be if he hangs around me, i spoil him rotten

Fidel at the frount Thich behind

Obi at the frount Nix behind

The poor kittens were famished when thay got home but we had to feed them small amount so the would not throw it back up a reaction i can only too well sympathise with myself after anasetic

I know many of us are way from thinking about hayfever at the moment but if you have considered local honey as a help preventative, it's time to start taking it now   for those of you who do not know what i'm on about  please see my advice artical

Catch up with you all when i have more to say

Leaving loads of hugs, love and laughter on this page for everyone so help youself's

Still can't put any picks on my friends pages so not quite sorted, will have to ask my ' in home ' teck ' advisor to have another look see

So I'll say here that i've been thinking about you all here on Minti and hope life is treating you all well

 I can now get on with my tag

   this is me doing my  Charlie's Angels  pose, hence the Fara Forset-majour's hair . The photo got water damaged at some time so is a little blotchy.

This was me taken by my best friend Charol aged 14/15, messing about in my backgarden , we both had one of these floresent cossies. Her's was lime green .  Un forchantly they went seethorugh when we went to the swimming pool so were only used for poseing

This is so anoying. we have a new firewall and it seams not to be getting on with Minti, so i'm unable to put any pics up    at least i have the smilies

Well all's quiet here, Antony's back at work  ,  Phina's re-going through the untidy/smelly teenage phase   and Stewart's still on the meds + world of warcraft 18/7 the rest he's asleep   he's taken to eating up to the computer now. I'm a little worid it's getting obsessive. as soon as i'm finished here he'll be back on so i'm trying to catch-up quickly as hes gotten into a decent sleeping pattern and is waking up around 9am and i can see him at the moment agittating to be in the world,  the problem today is i have quite a few things to catch up on myself so it's going to be aprox 2 hours    till he can get his 'fix'

Phina went down to london for the day yesterday, i'll be more positive about her wish to move if she could do at least one trip without having to resort to ringing us to bail her out. The last time she went was for 4 days and we had to pay for her ticket home, the time before she'd got on the wrong train and i had to talk a very frightened 'young lady' back to calm, on a reversed phone call  and she want's to be independant, Yesterday it was "mom i've mised the train back  ( 4.50pm ) what times the next train ? " she missed that one too   she ended on the 8 something one and me having to call out a worc's taxi to pick her up and pay for it when she got back. It was lucky Ant had just given me his up-keep money so i had some to use or it would have ment getting my dad out to fetch her and that was not a prospect i'd cherrished  Thay go to bed early as they like the early mornings to walk the dogs. 

I had a few picks i wanted to post ah well never mind it will get sorted some time 

So what alse is news ? we're still wating on the snow thay keep forcasting, mom says it's too cold to snow, that it always gets a little warmer before snow, old wives storys ?  I'm getting a whole load of bird food in as the starlings like the fat balls and all birds need a alot of fat based food during the winter to keep them warm during the night.  Quite a few gardens here now have bird tables more are springing up each year,  so now i don't have to feel quite so bad if i can't afford some food for a couple of days

I'll rap this up here as i need to get on   otherwise i'll be writing an essay   I realy just wanted to let you know all well,

Sending love and laughter pluss hugs to every one and my wish to you all is all you wish your selves . " live long and prosper ", oops watched startreck last night  at least you can't see me do the spock hand from there

Lisa x x x      

ps: i realy must read through these posts before i hit save  , i've had to go to edit twice now any mor i notice will just have to remain    

it looks like i've used most of the smiles so here some   and 

i was wondering if one pick would cover both  then i thought that would be cheeting a bit  

Untortunatly i'm not getting the downloader on this page to work. Will have to get back to this, i can't even get a smily to work now. As this is not my computer and it's needed in a few mins to go out and smash, mine and other exciting things i don't think it's quite the right time to start fiddling with the controls :-)

 

I know it's a little late, but my mom always said " better late than never "

To cut a very long story as short as poss. I've gone from being a partner / soul mate to companion / soul mate. Nothings realy changed in the way we are to wards each other,i am missing those  ' things '  partners do gogether :-)  One is a lonly word when in a double bed.

Aprox. two months back, Phina anounced right out of the blue, that she'd met some one on facebook and was moving by the end of the week down to london to be nearer him. It was at this point that Stewart realized exactly how he felt about her and went to bits, he has bi-polar, With some very good pills off the doctor  we managed to perswade him not to walk out. Phina's still here as she needs to save up to move. 

The doc but me back up to 60mg of the tabs, i'd only just come down to 40mg after being on them for four years at 60mg. This week i'v gone back to taking 40mg, in a couple of months i'll be going down to 20mg then i can finaly hope to stop them altogether and start to cope without them :-) 

Antony's had the last week off as holiday from work so he and Stewart have spent nearly 24 / 7 on World of Warcraft.  It's all that's been keeping Stewart sane as he dosen't have to think of any thing alse while playing it and boy has he been playing it. if anyone knows what i mean by in the last two months his caracter has gone up to level 41.

I've now managed to get my head above water and have started swimming for shore. All in all i'm quite chipper. Actualy i've no feelings going around at all, it's the meds :-)

 26th Jan, The year of the ox, thinking of you with love and laughter, Lisa x x x

to all my friends, it's been a rough year in all and i can't see this new one being much better. I know I've not been around much, been thinking of you all. I hope everyone is doing well. As soon as i have the energy i will start dropping in more often.

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for all the support you have given me this year.  Love and best wishes, hugs and kisses, Lisa x x x