I just realised every one alse is asleep. It's realy creepy. Normaly someones awake while I'm awake. We have strange sleeping patterns. Well realy Sirah and Stewart have. Sirah was awake at 3am this morning  and weant to bed around 8pm. Stewert went to sleep at 9am this morning, having been awake since 2pm yesterday. ( he's now back asleep as hs'e not well )  Antony and I sleep around this. Stewert's always had a weard sleep routeen, infact I'd go as far as saying he has no desernable sleep pattern at all.

Sirah's started aprox. 4 months ago. She's gone back to sleep walking, so it helps to have someone around while she's asleep. as she can do very strange things. once or twice she's started to make somthing to eat or a hot drink. we have to double lock the frount door. She's not safe. so it looks like it's my turn to stay up tonight. Teatch me to get useto Stewert being awake. I know somewere in her subconcuse somthing is bothering her but she keeps reasuring me everythins ok. Earlyer  this year we had a brush with the pysiologist dept. who was trying to diagnose her with, Borderline Personality Dissorder / Schizophrenia. Psycotic. Which to tell you the truth frightened the hell out of us.  I can go along with B.P.D but the rest left us with a bad feeling in side . She has Petit Mal (apsences) which are not improving with treatment in fact , although she has less attacks (10-15)  they are worse, she looses the whole 10 minets it takes to recover. these attacks also give her a lot of the symptoms of Schizophernia. And as we have an alternate view of things which the psciologist calls psycotic?  We managed to convince them she knew were to find them if she needed help, but she was copeing with her own 'self help' regime. At one point she had herself convinced every one wanted to lock her away.

Sirah also has a obsseve personality ( due to her 3 years of neglagence before she came to us) Every thing she does she does to the extream. And every thing she has has it's own space and never moves or she is agittated. She has started doing contourtisum exercises to help with her Hypermobility / Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. ( see photos page)  And changed her diet to vegan. She seams more her bubby self. Pluss she has joined face book & my space and made friends who are not judging her,

I know this has been an epic but I needed to get it off my chest so to speek. Thanks for listing.   

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ehlers-Danlos_Syndrome

Wokeup this morning expecting snow, but found it beautifuly sunny, the birds were already waiting for their morning feed. I know from the news some parts of England have had it bad So living in the Midlands I expect it any time now. 

  To cut a long story short I have an apple and a Pear tree in my bedroom waiting for the frosts to go so we can plant them out. The apple tree is in full leaf having bloomed last month. The kittens are eating the flowers and leaves, pluss using them as their own exersise play gruond. They are going to miss them once their out side. (we have indoor cats) so we will have to find an altrenative. My whole room smells like spring.

I have just been diagnosed with C.F.S. (Chronic fatigue syndrome)  This is the first time a doctor has taken me seriuosly, useuly thay have made me feel like a mallingerer. My symptoms started at 21 after the brith of my son. It seams every time I have a sever stress shock I slide down to a nother plato. This last slide , triggered by problems we had at the begining of this year, has now plattoed out leaving me with extra pains at the base of my neck, right shoulder and down the back of my right hand. Making it difficult todo every day stuff. I'll add a web sits here to bring attention to how different symptoms can come together under C.F.S.

http://hcd2.bupa.co.uk/fact_sheets/html/chronic_fatigue_syndrome2.html

My other motto.

" May I do unto others as I would that they should do unto me "  Plato.

Then I found this web sight. and wanted to shair it with you all.

http://www.religioustolerance.org/reciproc.htm

Wish me luck this will be the third time I'have tried to stop.

Well it's economics realy that finally decided me to try again. Sirah's lap top needs replacing , it's been 'playing up' for awhile , And as she uses it for her exersise routine she needs  one that dosen't keep switching it's self off every time she asks it to do more than one thing at a time . So we are going  to use the money we would have spent on smoking on a new lap top.

This has been the first time I've been able to get on the computer for ages. Since we have a new one everyones been trying all the stuff that the old one useto bulk at. So now it's my turn.

Sirah and I had a good birthday. Mom and Dad picked us up at 11.30am, went into Stourport to the Witherspoons by the river to have a coffe. Once we had sat down Mom handed me a large star covered bisciut tin , when I opened it it was full of all her old button collection . It may sound a funny gift but I'd spent many a happy hour playing with those buttons. I am smiling at the moment thinking of them. Mother of pearl, sparkly , enamelled , coloured , I could go on. Then in the next biscuit tin her Pinking shears and Dress making sissors. I was in tears, all those things we'd cut out together, the hours leaning over the dining room table material and pattern at the ready.  I nearly missed my Dad slipping another parcel accross to me, he said this is your proper B'day pressie. I'd have been happy to have just what I'd already got. But very appreciative of a set of binoclours and bird vidio.   Thay had brought Sirah a sewing machine ( I can see a theam starting here )  Mom then got out a load of old family photos, I meam real old ones of my grand dad in the army, my Nan's wedding , and some of me when small. We all laught and cryed over them. I'd not seen some of them for years, some were new to me altogether.  We decided as it was such a sunny day that we'd have chips by the river instead of the pub. So as soon as I have the photos loaded then I'll put them onto my photo page. Have to end now just spotted the time and I have to be up by 6.30 tomorrow. Back a.s.a.p.