the surgary went well they burnt off more endometriosis ans found 2 cysts one on each ovary and also took a biopsy which i won'tget the results until January 2009 i am feeling a bit better in myself take care everyone and i wish you all a happy joyous safe christmas and new yaer i better get back to studying now take care and god bless

if dealing with everything wasn't bad enough i am now going in for surgary again soon for my endometriosis i was supposed to go to the hospital the other day because the pain is keeping me awake and i'm suffering but i keep chickening out i am scared because i want mum to be there holding my hand when i awake i know she's here in spirit though but i'm still scared my family and partner are worried i have had to take this week off work because it's been so bad and even though i was in pain i sat my exam and got a credit for the 2nd time which i am very proud of but i am in a lot of pain does anyone else suffer this condition?

i am being so strong for those i love but it's making it hard for me to be able to let go and

let it out i have had a lot of time to think when i take the 1 day off a week to my self but it still feels like it's not enough i am  going back for surgary for the 3rd time this year and i am petrified bacause my mummy used to always be there when i awoke and now she wont be i am so torn plus i have so much stressing me out i feel like falling in a heap and just giving up if only it was that easy.

Been a rough day crying and just feeling so bad i can't sleep and i miss my family soo much i just wish i could wake up and it wouldv'e been a dream, i just want to thank everyone for their help and support and say i will be ok thank you again.

I am feeling ok i can't deal with all of this but i have to be strong for my daddy and my mummy would want me to continue with things which i have i think i'm wearing myself out! i go to work come home have dinner and shower go to uni and get home sleep get up go to work then tafe and it's the same everyday except weekends where i try to go out but i'm usually so tired because i do so much i have to keep busy so my mind doesn't wonder i'm so scared and lost.