Just got back from the doctors again and not much has changed really so I am going to the specialist to get a biopsy to rule out any nasties hopefuuly. She asked me to take someone though for support in case I get bad news I guess so will have to ring my mum up later.

I have been feeling a bit better generally although nothing has really changed. I felt myself getting depressed last week and although I feel I do have time for myself and get to go out and do things nice with my partner when I get home and the kids come back from there dads or elsewhere the problems are still here. I took to taking the door handle off my sons room last night as I thought I could smell that he had been smoking in there as he had a friend over in the arvo. He can't be trusted with any privacy cause he abuses it time and again and now I find he is lieing also. What to do? He hasn't gone to school today cause I got the text so they are off again and tonight I will be looking for him again. I know he is smoking stuff now so will have to call in back-up. I really want my ex to have him but he wont be in it so I have to get tough myself. Any good help groups would be appreciated. I know they have tough love groups over east and just wish they would bring it over here. The school is good but it is taking a long time to get to my son as he is withdrawing and of course he was lieing so when he says he is going to participate it doesn't last for long. He has screwed up for far too long. But anyway that is my problem to deal with.