Thought that I would write about my first day at work just so I could understand my own feelings anyway about my whole situation. You see I have been assigned to a beautiful family and they have a 15 year old daughter who is severely disabled. She can communicate but she does need to be fed and put on the toilet and bottom wiped and I am so inexperienced with this that I am doubting my ability plus don't know if I can or should stick this out. My first day was good. I braided her hair plus we went to the hospital to visit her mum and new baby and she nursed the baby. After all the dramas I am going through with my own 15 year old and how sorry I have been feeling for myself and how low I have been lately all I wanted to do when I got home on Thursday was hug him and not let him go as things could be so much worse. However I find a note on the table, "gone to Joels mum can you pick me up later." How funny is that?

Anyway so many more things happened this week. I just got back from the movies. We watched Bourne Ultimatum. Much like all the rest but still good so trying to get tired to go to bed. The boys played basketball today and then dropped them to there dads so went out with James and his kids. I have been tired all day but now can't sleep. Go figure! On Wednesday went to see the principal about Nik's bad attendance. We got to see the school psyche together  then separately. I spilled all my problems to them, you know box of tissue style, but Nik not giving them much but now I feel for nothing as Nik has decided he wants to move in with his dad. He is talking to him now so he doesn't think I will be picking him up from the train. I think he is running away from something and don't know if these break ins are coincidental or not. I know it is terrible to say but I have my  reasons and that is why I am searching for some help for him.