Not too much fun. I swear I am going to have at least 3 weeks holidays at Christmas time as I really don't enjoy shipping my kids around. But on a good note we had a public holiday this weekend gone and Nik and I went to my parents for a couple of days. Kieron had been saving up to go to the show with his mates and he bought so much showbags and won a huge teddy and had a great time. He is at Silver Trowel this holidays for his course part so he doesn't have as long days. He actually gets home before me most days. Mark is going back to his dad tomorrow and Nik will have to go with him on the bus as I won't get back in time for his cricket. This is what I hate. They will stay with there dad for a couple days at least but he is working too.
Nik is not moving in with his dad now next term so I must think of a plan for next term. He will be 15 then so he may be able to go to silver trowel too. I am not too keen on him going to school. His dad said it would be too much for him and that I should seriously consider changing my hours to be there for Nik. In other words I should not be working like we don't need a roof over our head. It doesn't go down too well when it comes from him as I am very bitter. I feel bad enough about it myself but I won't take it from him. He makes me so mad. I never got one bit of help from him when the kids were younger. I try not to say bad things of him as he is at least trying to get his act together now and help with the kids but he is still so selfish and I guess my memory is longer then his. Anyway that is as far as I go with this blog as I am feeling very sorry for myself tonight. I don't know if I will ever see a light in this tunnel. I want to be able to see the good and just be happy. I should be grateful for all I have. Maybe I should start a gratefulness diary. I saw it on Oprah once and it really changed peoples lives. Just write 2 things that you are grateful for in the day. Let"s see....
1. Mark and Nik cleared the table and cooked the meat tonight.
2. I got up so early this morning I had time to wash and vaccuum the car and have a capaccino at McDonalds before work.
I am very thankful for this. Wow. You should try it. I do actually feel better that I saw the good things. Sometimes the good things pass me by. Must thank my boys now as I am quick to tell them when they do something to annoy me yet I had to think to see what was it they did good. LOL. Must get off to bed.