Last night my son was rushed to hospital in an ambulance. It was quite a dramatic time for me and my 16 year old as I had left Nik home with his mate at about 5. He had helped me put the roast on and then I had gone to pick up his brother at work. When we got home we continued on with cooking and serving. I called out to the boys dinner was ready then Kiza and I went into the other room. There was some banging going on upstairs a few times and I called out for them to quit it or I would be up there. I thought they were wrestling or something. Anyway soon I realised that something more was going on. Note that noone has bothered to call out to me for help. Obviously his mate must have been scared to get in trouble. The final thud was the last straw. I stormed toward the steps and noticed food going down the stairs. The rest was like a scene from a bad movie I wish I was not in.

I run in looking for them and see his mate on the phone and scream what is going on? He is panicing. I go in the bathroom and see my son with his eyes rolling into the back of his head and he is not with me at all. There is spew everywhere and he can't even talk to me nothing. I scream to my son to come. This is serious. I am yelling, What have you taken? He is saying no nothing but he isn't registering what I am saying. My son runs in and slaps him and his head has no support so I yell at him. He says I am ringing the cops. I am trying to keep him awake. I ring James on mobile and tell him that Nik has taken something, I don't know what to do. He says he is on the way. Anyway to make a long story short it was very traumatic. The police had to calm me down over the phone just so I could function. I am shaking just writing this. I thought he was going to die. He was vomiting so I was trying to keep him on his side. The ambulance didn't take too long but it felt like forever.

I went in the ambulance to the hospital and find out that he has been drinking. I thought drugs. I have seen people drunk but nothing like this drunk. They had got some home made wine from some other friend. I was there til midnight and he was going to have to stay there to sleep it off. I took the day off and got him in the morning and we went home to clean up and talk. Well I could definately do without this stress.

My weekend is going well. We had a quiet night Friday night, watched a movie and a glass of wine. The movie of cause was the boys choice, "Shooter" which is exactly about what it says it is about, kind of Matt Damon style in the bourne identities or die hard style you know action, action, action. My boys love it. Then on Saturday morning it is basketball and the boys had a great game and won by 2 points. Mark came over on Friday night too. His key card wasn't working so I had to get him from Perth station. Lucky he knows how to 1800mumdad as I didn't even know he was coming as it isn't his weekend. Anyway love when he comes.

After that I dropped the boys off in Perth and went shopping at Harbour town but even though I tried on a hundred things I came away with nothing. LOL. I went and got a hair cut then. It is quite short. I wonder what the boys will say. Then I met a minti mum. Yay! First time. Liz had her friend Karyn over who does scrapbooking. I had never done it before but I found some old camping photos and we jazzed them up. We may do it again so I need to dig up all my old photos that are all in suitcases under the beds. Plus I need to get myself another camera to start taking some more recent photos. My last one packed up. Anyway we had a nice time. Charli was not looking well so they may have had to take her up to the doctors. Thanks for a great afternoon Libby24 and hope to do coffee another time and meet some more minti people.

James and I went out to Box 3 for dinner after that and I had the grilled fish. Yummo. Then we came home and watched a DVD on global warming. It is called the great global warming swindle and it is about global warming being a myth. We didn't watch it all cause we were too tired but they think that the sun has more effect on the weather then carbon dioxide emissions. Today is just cleaning then I get the boys early as we are going to see Perth Wildcats hopefully win at Challenge Stadium today at 4pm. Well that is my exciting weekend. Oh and I may be moving in a couple of months. James bought a house and we are seriously talking of me moving in this year so it is a big decision and if I don't get cold feet beforehand that is looking like the plan.

I was so worried about my new job not going well but it is actually quite fun. I get to take the disabled girl out anywhere and she is a happy girl. She can watch movies and she loves shopping and I help her with her homework as I have to do the writing and she enjoys hitting the balloon back and forth. This is actually good exercise for her. The family is indian so I am learning to cook quite a few different dishes too. Her little sister is so lively and they are such good kids. It is a very loving environment and they are very happy to have me there. The mum is so grateful for my help so it makes my job so easy.
My son did come home. His dad is making him ring him every morning at 7.30 to make sure that he is going to school. He has told him he can move in with him in the holidays but right now he can go to school every day. He is now making the effort to do this. I hope this is the right thing for him. Sometimes I feel I put my job and other peoples kids before my own but I need to put food on the table and a roof over our head and that does make me feel guilty but I know that a lot of working mums feel this.

Thought that I would write about my first day at work just so I could understand my own feelings anyway about my whole situation. You see I have been assigned to a beautiful family and they have a 15 year old daughter who is severely disabled. She can communicate but she does need to be fed and put on the toilet and bottom wiped and I am so inexperienced with this that I am doubting my ability plus don't know if I can or should stick this out. My first day was good. I braided her hair plus we went to the hospital to visit her mum and new baby and she nursed the baby. After all the dramas I am going through with my own 15 year old and how sorry I have been feeling for myself and how low I have been lately all I wanted to do when I got home on Thursday was hug him and not let him go as things could be so much worse. However I find a note on the table, "gone to Joels mum can you pick me up later." How funny is that?

Anyway so many more things happened this week. I just got back from the movies. We watched Bourne Ultimatum. Much like all the rest but still good so trying to get tired to go to bed. The boys played basketball today and then dropped them to there dads so went out with James and his kids. I have been tired all day but now can't sleep. Go figure! On Wednesday went to see the principal about Nik's bad attendance. We got to see the school psyche together  then separately. I spilled all my problems to them, you know box of tissue style, but Nik not giving them much but now I feel for nothing as Nik has decided he wants to move in with his dad. He is talking to him now so he doesn't think I will be picking him up from the train. I think he is running away from something and don't know if these break ins are coincidental or not. I know it is terrible to say but I have my  reasons and that is why I am searching for some help for him.

Some good news today. I start a new job on Thursday. Sound like a lovely family on the phone and they are in need of a helping hand so have filled up my spare days. I won't have as much free time now but I need the money now the rent is increasing so it couldn't have come at a better time. So hope not to be too nervous. It does take a while to settle into a new environment but they sound so keen to have me there. Anyway just wanted to share that with someone. Will be able to say how happy I am after my first day.

The boys played a lightning carnival yesterday, all day and got into the grand finals. I don't think that I have seen Nik play so well. I was very proud of both of them.  In between games we spent in the park and couldn't have wished for a better day. Mark is playing football in the half time at Subiaco today so I got up eaarly to take him back to his dads and while I was up there I called into the markets. Nik stayed in bed. When I got home at 11am all looked well so I went outside to the dog. Thats when I noticed the garden shears mangled and they are really good ones. They have tried to cut through the dead lock distroying my door. The dog must have been the welcoming party or something. My teenager was still sleeping through it all.

Well they didn't get in so nothing is missing, though they cleaned us out last time but I was still shook up. The cops are coming soon. They still haven't fixed my window since last time and now the fence is half down too. Hate living in this place sometimes. Back onto homeswest tomorrow. They wrote me a letter saying that my rent is increasing to $160 in November. What a f*@#ing rip off!!!!!

Well this has been a very quiet day indeed. My kids went to there dads so I have spent the day pottering as they call it. I am about to go have a shower and go and spend the afternoon with James and the kids then when we drop them off later tonight we are going to see my friend in the city. We have been meaning to go see the band again for a while so thought we had better make it happen. I haven't rung my dad yet but shall very soon to check that my mum is looking after him today. Ha ha. Hope everyone is looking after there dads today.