Well its been a while since I've been properly on minti! Richard downloaded a game off the internet and I think he crashed our computer so I haven't been able to get on the net. Damnit! I'm now 11 weeks pregnant and going for my 1st scan next Friday. Unfortunately Richard can't be there as he has just started a new job in the city and has a meeting that day, but oh well! At least my mother in law can mind the kids while I go.

I have been so unsure of this pregnancy. I actually convinced myself so much that I wasn't pregnant that I stopped getting pregnancy symptoms! The dr made me get a blood test to check my hormone levels and yep, I'm pregnant. Funny though, as soon as I discovered that, I started getting the symptoms again!

Well, at my inlaws for tea, so I had better go socialise instead of sitting my bum on their computer!

I seriously have, I have gone off so many foods that I'm struggling to find things I'll actually eat! I have lost weight, not gained it. I used to be the girl who loved hot and spicy. The more exotic, the more I liked it. My husband jokes that I'd put Tabasco on icecream if I could. But now that I'm pregnant, I can barely even look at the stuff!

Other things off the list are olives (and I just love them), salsa, tomato based pasta sauces, sausages, chicken and in fact, virtually all meats. I really hope this doesn't last the whole pregnancy, as the only things I am craving are cheese, dry biscuits, plain pasta and potato chips. I can barely cook dinner of a night because I just can't decide on something that would make the whole family happy. If I had my way, I'd be eating pasta with cheese on it every night. The sight of raw meat makes me gag so meat preparation duties have all gone to my husband.

The joys of being pregnant!

I have been stressing over the past week. Why? Because I have been slightly spotting and having slight pain. For days. Today, I'm approximately 7 weeks, 3 days pregnant. I have kind of taken it for granted that this pregnancy would progress and I would be holding a baby in my arms in November. I have told a few people, and now I regret it. My mother in law has been telling everyone we are expecting our 3rd baby. And now this is happening. I just read another woman's experience with a miscarriage and a lot of things she described have been happening to me. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at around 10am, but it seems so far away...

My other 2 pregnancies were a breeze, apart from getting obstetric cholestasis in my 1st and being induced both times. I have never suffered a miscarriage before. When you have the luck I have had with pregnancies, its hard not to take another pregnancy for granted, you just think everything will be fine. I will find out tomorrow if everything is ok, I guess.

I went shopping with my mum, sisters and grandmother yesterday. We went to a massive Westfield shopping centre, from 10am - 3pm. Mum and Grandma gave me some money to spend on myself, as they know all our money goes on bills, food, or the kids. Even when I do get money, I tend to buy something for the kids! They are better dressed than I am! But did I buy myself anything? NO! I just couldn't decide on anything, and had to be kept away from children's clothing stores (as I probably would've bought them something instead). So I came home with some money that I promised to use to buy myself some clothes with. I tried to hide the money (I know, how nasty lol), but my husband snooped in my bag and found it! Now he wants me to use the money to pay off bills! I feel so selfish for wanting to spend it on myself now...

Well, better go hang up the 4th load of washing for the day, I was naughty and didn't do any this weekend! Was so nice to go out with my family yesterday. I took Liam while hubby had a day with Ava. I think they had a good day together too, he reckons Ava would rather be an only child as she behaved like an angel (very rare with my crazy little girl)!

I have had a horrible morning. I told my husband to put our washing into our bedroom, but he obviously thought opening the door was too much of a hassle so he left it all just outside. I had asked him to put it inside and shut the door because our kitten has a habit of peeing all over the clothes lying around. So what did I smell when I went down the hallway? Cat wee. Where was it? All throughout the clothes. So this means not only do I have to wash them again, I will probably have to wash them twice cos the smell is still there after one. I'm so angry!! Because I am pregnant, I can't change the kitty litter. So that job is now up to Richard. I went downstairs this morning to put some of the cat wee frangranced washing on and has he changed the litter like I asked him to do last night? NOPE.

Trying to potty train Ava... STILL! She's 2.5yrs old and still too scared to wee on the potty. I don't know why she's so afraid, I have tried everything from making it a fun thing to do, to bribes, to begging! She chucked a bit of a tanty this morning so I put her into her room. After a couple of minutes I go to get her and she's wee'd all over the bedroom floor. She hasn't had a nappy on all morning, I just had the potty in the lounge room and she decided it was better to wee on the floor than in the potty (even though she gets rewarded when she wee's in the potty ).

There are crumbs all over the floor. Yes, I can use  a broom (as hubby tells me to do, like I have nothing else better to do in a day). But I have been using a broom for a month now because our vacuum died, so have had to sweep almost every floor, every day, then sweep it into a dustpan. Hubby told me he would get the vacuum fixed. A month has gone by and still no sign of it being taken to get fixed. MEN! You can't get them to do anything unless you nag, and they wonder why we do?!

I have a major headache today to top it all off and Liam is constantly begging for attention and Ava is chasing the cat around the house, screaming and yelling at the top of her lungs. Geez, I don't know how I'm going to cope with 3!!!!

Thats my vent, and I actually feel a bit better about things now, amazing the therapy of writing down your feelings huh!