Well we still haven't got our computer fixed yet, I'm really missing Minti! And I hate not knowing whats been going on with everyone too!

Anyway thought I would give an update on myself...

I am 16 weeks pregnant today, and geez its been hard. At nearly 14 weeks, I woke up one night thinking I had wet myself. Turned the light on and I was in a pool of blood (sorry maybe too much info). I freaked out and went to the toilet where I was 100% sure I had lost my baby. I obviously couldn't sleep all night. I was so scared. The next day I went to the Dr and she sent me off for an emergency scan. As I was so sure I thought I had lost bub, I didn't even look at the screen. But what a surprise when the ultrasound woman said to me. "Its good news!" turned the screen around, and there on the screen, unharmed, was my bub! I couldn't believe it. I was so relieved. Turned out I have a low lying placenta and somehow a bit of it broke off and thats what I thought was the baby (I still don't understand how it happened, no one ever explains things). I'm still losing a little blood, but this will be the case until my placenta decides to move. So now I wait until my 19 week scan in 3 weeks...

I hope everyone is well!

Well its been a while since I've been properly on minti! Richard downloaded a game off the internet and I think he crashed our computer so I haven't been able to get on the net. Damnit! I'm now 11 weeks pregnant and going for my 1st scan next Friday. Unfortunately Richard can't be there as he has just started a new job in the city and has a meeting that day, but oh well! At least my mother in law can mind the kids while I go.

I have been so unsure of this pregnancy. I actually convinced myself so much that I wasn't pregnant that I stopped getting pregnancy symptoms! The dr made me get a blood test to check my hormone levels and yep, I'm pregnant. Funny though, as soon as I discovered that, I started getting the symptoms again!

Well, at my inlaws for tea, so I had better go socialise instead of sitting my bum on their computer!

I seriously have, I have gone off so many foods that I'm struggling to find things I'll actually eat! I have lost weight, not gained it. I used to be the girl who loved hot and spicy. The more exotic, the more I liked it. My husband jokes that I'd put Tabasco on icecream if I could. But now that I'm pregnant, I can barely even look at the stuff!

Other things off the list are olives (and I just love them), salsa, tomato based pasta sauces, sausages, chicken and in fact, virtually all meats. I really hope this doesn't last the whole pregnancy, as the only things I am craving are cheese, dry biscuits, plain pasta and potato chips. I can barely cook dinner of a night because I just can't decide on something that would make the whole family happy. If I had my way, I'd be eating pasta with cheese on it every night. The sight of raw meat makes me gag so meat preparation duties have all gone to my husband.

The joys of being pregnant!

I have been stressing over the past week. Why? Because I have been slightly spotting and having slight pain. For days. Today, I'm approximately 7 weeks, 3 days pregnant. I have kind of taken it for granted that this pregnancy would progress and I would be holding a baby in my arms in November. I have told a few people, and now I regret it. My mother in law has been telling everyone we are expecting our 3rd baby. And now this is happening. I just read another woman's experience with a miscarriage and a lot of things she described have been happening to me. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at around 10am, but it seems so far away...

My other 2 pregnancies were a breeze, apart from getting obstetric cholestasis in my 1st and being induced both times. I have never suffered a miscarriage before. When you have the luck I have had with pregnancies, its hard not to take another pregnancy for granted, you just think everything will be fine. I will find out tomorrow if everything is ok, I guess.

I went shopping with my mum, sisters and grandmother yesterday. We went to a massive Westfield shopping centre, from 10am - 3pm. Mum and Grandma gave me some money to spend on myself, as they know all our money goes on bills, food, or the kids. Even when I do get money, I tend to buy something for the kids! They are better dressed than I am! But did I buy myself anything? NO! I just couldn't decide on anything, and had to be kept away from children's clothing stores (as I probably would've bought them something instead). So I came home with some money that I promised to use to buy myself some clothes with. I tried to hide the money (I know, how nasty lol), but my husband snooped in my bag and found it! Now he wants me to use the money to pay off bills! I feel so selfish for wanting to spend it on myself now...

Well, better go hang up the 4th load of washing for the day, I was naughty and didn't do any this weekend! Was so nice to go out with my family yesterday. I took Liam while hubby had a day with Ava. I think they had a good day together too, he reckons Ava would rather be an only child as she behaved like an angel (very rare with my crazy little girl)!

I have had a horrible morning. I told my husband to put our washing into our bedroom, but he obviously thought opening the door was too much of a hassle so he left it all just outside. I had asked him to put it inside and shut the door because our kitten has a habit of peeing all over the clothes lying around. So what did I smell when I went down the hallway? Cat wee. Where was it? All throughout the clothes. So this means not only do I have to wash them again, I will probably have to wash them twice cos the smell is still there after one. I'm so angry!! Because I am pregnant, I can't change the kitty litter. So that job is now up to Richard. I went downstairs this morning to put some of the cat wee frangranced washing on and has he changed the litter like I asked him to do last night? NOPE.

Trying to potty train Ava... STILL! She's 2.5yrs old and still too scared to wee on the potty. I don't know why she's so afraid, I have tried everything from making it a fun thing to do, to bribes, to begging! She chucked a bit of a tanty this morning so I put her into her room. After a couple of minutes I go to get her and she's wee'd all over the bedroom floor. She hasn't had a nappy on all morning, I just had the potty in the lounge room and she decided it was better to wee on the floor than in the potty (even though she gets rewarded when she wee's in the potty ).

There are crumbs all over the floor. Yes, I can use  a broom (as hubby tells me to do, like I have nothing else better to do in a day). But I have been using a broom for a month now because our vacuum died, so have had to sweep almost every floor, every day, then sweep it into a dustpan. Hubby told me he would get the vacuum fixed. A month has gone by and still no sign of it being taken to get fixed. MEN! You can't get them to do anything unless you nag, and they wonder why we do?!

I have a major headache today to top it all off and Liam is constantly begging for attention and Ava is chasing the cat around the house, screaming and yelling at the top of her lungs. Geez, I don't know how I'm going to cope with 3!!!!

Thats my vent, and I actually feel a bit better about things now, amazing the therapy of writing down your feelings huh!

I have written a couple of questions over the last couple of days panicking about being pregnant with my 3rd, and very unexpected, baby. Part of me doesn't believe it, my kids Ava and Liam are still so young! I spoke to my grandmother yesterday (told her before my own mother or MIL) and she was actually quite happy for me. She reckons I'm doing the right thing by having my babies so close to together (she did this with her 4 as well). I told my Mum yesterday and she was really worried for me, she doesn't think I'll cope very well, especially since she lives 2 hours away from me and my MIL ad husband are at work during the week. I think we were always going to have a 3rd, its just a lot sooner than we thought. We don't even know when or even how it happened, but I guess these things just do sometimes.

Anyway, my husband Richard is quite happy about this pregnancy, and he was the one who was so keen to leave it at 2 children. He's coping very well, and already starting to working out how we'll need to rearrange things for the new bub. At least we have already had both a girl and a boy, we still have loads of clothes, etc hoarded away in storage! We don't need to buy anything really, except a bed for Liam!

I'm seeing the doctor this afternoon. I called yesterday and they told me I couldn't see her for 2 weeks (I have a very popular female dr)!! So I called today and told them I was kind of desperate so could I see another doctor any sooner. I was in luck, my doctor had a cancellation this afternoon! I'm getting more excited at least! I know its going to be very hard work, but I'm willing to give it my best shot.

I got my hair dyed for the first time (professionally that is) in I dont even know how many years! It was so nice to have a couple of hours to sit and read old magazines while getting my hair done. I'm so happy with it too, just got 2 different coloured foils throughout my hair.

Anyway, my husband and I have been on and off the idea of having a third baby lately. Well, we've been contemplating 3 children since we had our first, its just we have been talking about it a lot lately. I come from a family of 3, so I thought I would like the same with ours. Its such a tough decision to make though. We go through the pros and cons all the time, think we've finally settled on a decision, then we change it again. I wonder how many other families go through this?! Its so frustrating.

Not the greatest pic but this is my new kitty, 'Maow' (as we have taken to calling her, my daughter calls her that), or Sooty. She already loves sitting on the computer, must be cos its warm...

I have finally got a kitten! After wanting one for years and years... I have been contemplating it for a while now, as I wasn't sure if it was the right thing to do since we have 2 young kids. But as soon as I went to view these 3 kittens nearby, I fell in love. She's part Russian Blue, part domestic. She's black with white paws and a white belly. She's just gorgeous. I called her Sooty (I know, how original, lol) after a phonecall to my mum to ask what I should call her. I don't know how my husband is going to be about it though, he didn't particulary want one, but he said if I wanted one so desperately, I could go for it. He hasn't even seen her yet, I'll take her to pick him up after work. The kids love her too, Ava won't let her leave her sight, and Liam has been saying HELLO to her and waving his hand. I haven't let him get near her yet though! If any cat owners read this, any advice you have would be great!!! I'm so excited!