I have been stressing over the past week. Why? Because I have been slightly spotting and having slight pain. For days. Today, I'm approximately 7 weeks, 3 days pregnant. I have kind of taken it for granted that this pregnancy would progress and I would be holding a baby in my arms in November. I have told a few people, and now I regret it. My mother in law has been telling everyone we are expecting our 3rd baby. And now this is happening. I just read another woman's experience with a miscarriage and a lot of things she described have been happening to me. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at around 10am, but it seems so far away...
My other 2 pregnancies were a breeze, apart from getting obstetric cholestasis in my 1st and being induced both times. I have never suffered a miscarriage before. When you have the luck I have had with pregnancies, its hard not to take another pregnancy for granted, you just think everything will be fine. I will find out tomorrow if everything is ok, I guess.
I went shopping with my mum, sisters and grandmother yesterday. We went to a massive Westfield shopping centre, from 10am - 3pm. Mum and Grandma gave me some money to spend on myself, as they know all our money goes on bills, food, or the kids. Even when I do get money, I tend to buy something for the kids! They are better dressed than I am! But did I buy myself anything? NO! I just couldn't decide on anything, and had to be kept away from children's clothing stores (as I probably would've bought them something instead). So I came home with some money that I promised to use to buy myself some clothes with. I tried to hide the money (I know, how nasty lol), but my husband snooped in my bag and found it! Now he wants me to use the money to pay off bills! I feel so selfish for wanting to spend it on myself now...
Well, better go hang up the 4th load of washing for the day, I was naughty and didn't do any this weekend! Was so nice to go out with my family yesterday. I took Liam while hubby had a day with Ava. I think they had a good day together too, he reckons Ava would rather be an only child as she behaved like an angel (very rare with my crazy little girl)! |