I have been stressing over the past week. Why? Because I have been slightly spotting and having slight pain. For days. Today, I'm approximately 7 weeks, 3 days pregnant. I have kind of taken it for granted that this pregnancy would progress and I would be holding a baby in my arms in November. I have told a few people, and now I regret it. My mother in law has been telling everyone we are expecting our 3rd baby. And now this is happening. I just read another woman's experience with a miscarriage and a lot of things she described have been happening to me. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow at around 10am, but it seems so far away...

My other 2 pregnancies were a breeze, apart from getting obstetric cholestasis in my 1st and being induced both times. I have never suffered a miscarriage before. When you have the luck I have had with pregnancies, its hard not to take another pregnancy for granted, you just think everything will be fine. I will find out tomorrow if everything is ok, I guess.

I went shopping with my mum, sisters and grandmother yesterday. We went to a massive Westfield shopping centre, from 10am - 3pm. Mum and Grandma gave me some money to spend on myself, as they know all our money goes on bills, food, or the kids. Even when I do get money, I tend to buy something for the kids! They are better dressed than I am! But did I buy myself anything? NO! I just couldn't decide on anything, and had to be kept away from children's clothing stores (as I probably would've bought them something instead). So I came home with some money that I promised to use to buy myself some clothes with. I tried to hide the money (I know, how nasty lol), but my husband snooped in my bag and found it! Now he wants me to use the money to pay off bills! I feel so selfish for wanting to spend it on myself now...

Well, better go hang up the 4th load of washing for the day, I was naughty and didn't do any this weekend! Was so nice to go out with my family yesterday. I took Liam while hubby had a day with Ava. I think they had a good day together too, he reckons Ava would rather be an only child as she behaved like an angel (very rare with my crazy little girl)!

I have had a horrible morning. I told my husband to put our washing into our bedroom, but he obviously thought opening the door was too much of a hassle so he left it all just outside. I had asked him to put it inside and shut the door because our kitten has a habit of peeing all over the clothes lying around. So what did I smell when I went down the hallway? Cat wee. Where was it? All throughout the clothes. So this means not only do I have to wash them again, I will probably have to wash them twice cos the smell is still there after one. I'm so angry!! Because I am pregnant, I can't change the kitty litter. So that job is now up to Richard. I went downstairs this morning to put some of the cat wee frangranced washing on and has he changed the litter like I asked him to do last night? NOPE.

Trying to potty train Ava... STILL! She's 2.5yrs old and still too scared to wee on the potty. I don't know why she's so afraid, I have tried everything from making it a fun thing to do, to bribes, to begging! She chucked a bit of a tanty this morning so I put her into her room. After a couple of minutes I go to get her and she's wee'd all over the bedroom floor. She hasn't had a nappy on all morning, I just had the potty in the lounge room and she decided it was better to wee on the floor than in the potty (even though she gets rewarded when she wee's in the potty ).

There are crumbs all over the floor. Yes, I can use  a broom (as hubby tells me to do, like I have nothing else better to do in a day). But I have been using a broom for a month now because our vacuum died, so have had to sweep almost every floor, every day, then sweep it into a dustpan. Hubby told me he would get the vacuum fixed. A month has gone by and still no sign of it being taken to get fixed. MEN! You can't get them to do anything unless you nag, and they wonder why we do?!

I have a major headache today to top it all off and Liam is constantly begging for attention and Ava is chasing the cat around the house, screaming and yelling at the top of her lungs. Geez, I don't know how I'm going to cope with 3!!!!

Thats my vent, and I actually feel a bit better about things now, amazing the therapy of writing down your feelings huh!

I have written a couple of questions over the last couple of days panicking about being pregnant with my 3rd, and very unexpected, baby. Part of me doesn't believe it, my kids Ava and Liam are still so young! I spoke to my grandmother yesterday (told her before my own mother or MIL) and she was actually quite happy for me. She reckons I'm doing the right thing by having my babies so close to together (she did this with her 4 as well). I told my Mum yesterday and she was really worried for me, she doesn't think I'll cope very well, especially since she lives 2 hours away from me and my MIL ad husband are at work during the week. I think we were always going to have a 3rd, its just a lot sooner than we thought. We don't even know when or even how it happened, but I guess these things just do sometimes.

Anyway, my husband Richard is quite happy about this pregnancy, and he was the one who was so keen to leave it at 2 children. He's coping very well, and already starting to working out how we'll need to rearrange things for the new bub. At least we have already had both a girl and a boy, we still have loads of clothes, etc hoarded away in storage! We don't need to buy anything really, except a bed for Liam!

I'm seeing the doctor this afternoon. I called yesterday and they told me I couldn't see her for 2 weeks (I have a very popular female dr)!! So I called today and told them I was kind of desperate so could I see another doctor any sooner. I was in luck, my doctor had a cancellation this afternoon! I'm getting more excited at least! I know its going to be very hard work, but I'm willing to give it my best shot.