i was talking to my bestfriend last night and it was the best talk we've had in a while. shes not a real mushy person and dosent let her feelings show EVER, but last night she was so sincere and caring it made me feel so much better about deciding to keep my baby. not only that but i know that her fmaily will be there for me even if mine wont.

i know that my moms gonna be pissed at first but i think once it settles in shes gonna be so happy to be a grandma, she says all the time she cant wait for me and my brother to have kids, well she got her wish and i guess so did i. the only thing that ive ever really wanted out of life is to be a mom. i know that no matter what anyone says or how they feel, that i can do this. i have the support of my friends and their families and its more than i can ask for.

i am so freaking lost. every 10 min it seems im either telling myself im keeping it or that i dont have any other choice than to get an abortion. i wish i could talk to my mom and tell her so she could help me but she doesnt need to know unless i know for sure that im keeping it. it would just be one more thing in her life to stress her out. i think i need some professional help on this one. the thought of having a baby is SO scary, then again the thought of having an abortion is even scarier. ive been told horror stories about girls who had internal bleeding after and had to spend days in the hospital! i dont know what to do!!!! hopefully talking to a nurse lady and getting all the facts will help me make up my mind.

i found out yesterday that im pregnant. im not in a relationship and im freaking out. ive only told two people and one of them says that i have to tell him. i dont want to! i dont wanna hear what he has to say and i dont wanna see what his reaction is going to be. its my decision on whether i keep this baby or not and i dont want to have another opinion to consider.

i dont know what to do.