Well my goodness a lot has happened in the last 6 months. For starters my girls came back for their pretrial and it went well and then they stayed. My son well from excellent behaviour to disgusting is how I would put it. And then he was rewarded again by his grandmother(Long Story) I had to move out of a crisis accomadation because I stood up for wat i beleived in so they found watever they could to get me out. November I had plane tickets to take my daughter to south Australia to c her family and meet her dads new life partner. She is great I mean it she is GREAT I know I might sound weird but I am best friends with my exes and their new loves.  Y not the kids r a lot happier than I was as a kid having my father run down to me everyday. But anyways I finally got a house on the day I was leaving on the plane to S.A. Typical hey. But alls good I am now in the house with my 6 kidlets and our pup Chelsey. Life is great and my kids now say "we want to stay home mummy" NOT "Can we please go to daddys house"

 

The kids r doing great and I dont know wat I done but my 14 soon to be 15 year old son has done am total 180 degree turn in attitude. He is now so loving so respectful and so helpful. His brothers and sisters even enjoy having him back in their lives now. And no this didnt just happen it started about 3 weeks ago. He was calling me by my first name swearing at me whenever I spoke to him or asked him to do something. And treating his siblings like garbage. I caught him at 3.15am sneaking pas the back door with all his belongings and well did i go off said things i shouldn't have said and was even threatened with the police. I rang the police myself and was happily told that they couldnt do anything to me I am his mother but if hewas to walk out the door I could have him returned each and every time until he is 16. Well we continued arguing and by the time the sun came up we were both in tears realising that we both needed each other. I had to realise this myself as well due to the fact that he had bee poisoned against me and i have aklways been told to treat him like his my brother not my son(long story). But since that night I cant even move without my son saying what do u need mum I will get it for u. LOLI now say Wow i have a teenage son its great and wonderful. We couldnt be happier and neither could the rest of the family after everything the poor little buggars were put through listening to us at each others throats all the time. after 32 years of anger my son has mellowed me as i have helped him realise that he is loved. asta lavista

Well life is getting better. It has been a month or more now since my last blog. I have recently moved out of the family home and into a womens refuge awaiting approval of a house any house or a housing commission here in QLD. I have my 5 children with me and well we r happy I have finally got my 2 youngest boys to like wearig clothes at all times and all teeth are finally being cleaned. Now to get over the stress of not having the stability in the kids lives for a while that they r so used to. They had to change schools and are slowly making new friends. They say they r happy but u can tell they miss everything we had. We will get it all back upon finding suitable accomadation which is proving to be very hard for a single mother with 5 kids only a centrelink payment. Well I am off for now time for afternoon snackaroonies so bye 4 noiw until next time asta lavista

I havent been able to write on here for a while I have been spending quite a bit of time playing lately and been stuffed by night time. So heres a Hello and how are u all??????? Until next time asta lavista

Time to celebrate. Dont get me wrong I am not a religious type or go to to church or anything like that but i do beleive their is a god and I do sit down and explain to my kids what today and sunday are all about. It actually made me think about a few things myself and I decided today to forgive all of the family members that have lied about me and tried to make my life hell. As not only r they living with wat they have done they have also made me a stronger woman and I definately wont give up. i am going to live life strong and loving and my children will never have to go through wat i did if i can help it. My kids will know that i am their mum and no matter wat i will be there for them not against them. I will not look at wat they have and say wow i want that and try and take it from them. well better go we r blowing eggs today and painting them so asta lavista

Well the weekend is over. My birthday is now gone again for another year. Well i heard from my mum and dad and my ex husband and the girls. my sister also wrote me an email. thats cool hey its all over now and time to get on with things. The kidlets are great and this morning we have to start looking for a keycard that was dropped on friday. All our money is in there for shopping and we dont know where the keycard is,LOL, oh well we will get there we always do find a way through. Heres hopin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways i am off to get the kidlets ready for school and then clean up then i will be back asta lavista

Well today I turned 32 and it was great to spend the day with my man who came home from work this morning. The kids cooked me a cake this afternoon and it looks beautiful i must say. My ex husband rang me and my dad and step mum. My kids were more excited about my birthday than me i think. my man is right now cooking me my birthday dinner then we are going to have a great night watching movies and then a great night with my man so asta lavista for now until next time

I actually spoke to my sister yesterday. It has been a while but thats ok better late than never. She is doing great she is pregnant with her second baby. And she finally realises why i dont feel happy speaking to or having anything to do with our biological mother and my other 2 sisters. Because they (meaning the three of them) think that noone is better than they are they make up stories about their own family to get attention. I should have seen it a long time ago but no i was blind to the fact that i was being used by my own family. I was run down called fat and worthless. Anyway off that subject b4 i get to far into it  then there will be no keys on the keyboard anymore. We have certain words in our house that r swearwords like FAT,UGLY, HATE, OH MY GODetc  they r not to be used in my house i cant stand the words and especially not out of a childs mouth. my children constantly have to repeat after  me they r beautiful or handsome and they dislike things not hate and oh my goodness sounds much better. Well when u think about it because of my biological mother doing such a bad job I have done the opposite i aint perfect but i do have morals and my children wont ever be put down by me or anyone in our family.gotta go but will be back byebye

My family used to be so close that my cousins i thought were my brothers and sisters. I found a foto album that has fotos in it that i have never ever seen b4. Obviously some were of family that were gone b4 i was born as well. I would love to know who they all are. I hope I can keep my family closer than what the family of the past is. My goodness noone talks anymore. My kids are not going to be like that i hope no way will i stand back and accept pettiness and stupid excuses for family not speaking because as far as i am concerned family should talk no matter what. If there is something that gets on ur nelly talk about it.There is no excuse for family going out of their way to not speak to the other. Just CRAP.

These are great. They are part of our history. They are my most treasured possessions. The one in the middle is my nanna and my grandma. The one to the left are people that i have no clue about and the one to the right was taken probably b4 i was born but on the farm that i grew up on the farm i still dream about. I hope i can have this sort of history for my children to look back on.

I could not ask for better kids. They have been so good lately that I really dont know wat I done to make this change. their rooms stay clean and when I am doing some housework even my 2 year old asks to help WHAT DID I DO? Well I must admit I have been stressing a lot lately due to family and friends that knew that I was a pushover and alos that it was very easy to get wat ever they could from me. I didnt actually realise that my children were suffering as well. I dont want them to grow up like me and always being the last one to know or being put down and talked about in hearing range. OMG I am telling my life story anyways My man is only the father to my last 2 but he is my last 4 childrens daddy as well. He took on so much when he met me.*(he also put up with a lot of pushing away and testing to see how far i could push him)My children are happy when I am!!!!!My goodness i hope i stay this way.