I for the first time since having children no longer have to breastfeed or fill a bottle for a child again.Ashley is now off the bottle and thank goodness for that. He has asked twice for it then forgotten about it. He goes to sleep without it and sleeps all night. He has a drink of milk in a cup b4 bed and he is content with that. I am so blessed. I did buy him a timmee toppee cup with a sucking thing on it that didnt feel anything like a teat and well he threw his old bottle in the bin and then didnt end up liking the new one so that was $7 well spent. He throws it. No screaming and kicking for a bottle just straight to sleep and now Thomas no longer has a bottle to sneak off under a bed with. LOL Well thats all the news i would like to blog for today OH no thats not it today we got approved for a house loan I am so excited and cant wait to sign on the dotted line. oh well until next time cza

I am starting to get used to a normal family this is great.  My man and I, our kids and our parents. I am starting to feel a lot happier within myself and that also makes a more stressfree in the home. The kids are feeling great they r able to do a lot more things they love art time.  i am enjoying the colouring in to. Now we have a cat named tiger and the kids love him. selling my car i think buying a newy. life could not be better. I love my baby so much. He treats me like a queen now. I love him more than ever. We are starting to do things as a family a proper family well its about time i felt like this it only took 31 years but i made it. yayyayayayayayayayayayay. Had a great time getting to where i am today.

Lately I have been going through everything throwing out the old so we can get the new. And whilst I have been doing this I have found all my fotos well not all of them yet but getting there. This time I am putting them all on the pc and on my msn and on my webshots so forever they r kept. Weekends are the time for us as a family to do things together and Rob took all the kids to the park while I went through the kids things to get rid of. U know while the kids couldn't see what was going even though they dont remember they have them but if they were to see them it would be "no mum not that" well what they dont know wont hurt them hey. They obviously had a great time at the park Rob got 87 photos. so long for now until next time asta lavista

Not so long ago my youngest daughter came and told me that one of my eldest daughters said that she had been touched by a very(what we thought) trusted family friend.Not only has he dragged this out but has also done this to his own daughter. On the 23rd of this month Myself and My partner and the mans ex wife whom i have recently become friends with have to attend court. I am crapping myself!!!!!!!!!!! I hate court rooms and not only that I HATE HIM!!!!!! My daughter fortunately does not have to attend her statement is enough.  My nerves I dont think will hold out that long!!!! but I have to do this for my daughter and every other daughter he might befriend. I have had a hard time dealing with this and my daughter a harder time. My daughters refused to come back to mackay and went to live in melbourne with their dad who hopefully can protect them better then i did.  writing this poem was another way of me coming to terms with what he has done. even though it all is still surreal to me. A Nightmare

When a little girl is beside him
What is going through his head
Who gave him the right to touch her
Why the hell was he near her bed

The way he got her to trust him
and beleive every word that he said
She would have done anything for him
Now she wishes that he were dead

not old enough to understand
Not young enough to forget
And not being there to protect her
Is the one thing I will forever regret

its not him who wants to try and forget
as I am sure he loves to remember
Just how he ruined a little girls life
Not only for now but forever

Tracey Lee-Ann Lochran

Copyright ©2007 Tracey Lee-Ann Lochran

Life could not be better. The kids had to stay home from school today due to the heavy rainfall in our area. So what we r going to do is get one of the kiddies spare school books each and do some home schooling the way we can. Nothing major but because they love school work so much we going to make it a teacher student game. even i am looking forward to this I think i might make rob the teacher so i can do some to (MEMORIES)Now elvis is singing in my head!LOL But anyways I am going to go and have some fun see u later aligator