Hi all, ok so I'm feeling a little miserable today. Tomorrow is my birthday and we were supposed to go away for the weekend to celebrate. Now we can't due to financial difficulties. I know it really shouldn't be that big a deal because we're all healthy and together as a family but I just can't seem to snap out of it. I had my heart set on getting away and taking some time out and now it has all gone up in smoke. To top it off I'm still not pregnant. Nick has been in and out of hospital for the last four days because he got tonsilitis now we have an appointment with a specialist on the 28th to see if he needs an operation to get them out.  Thats real scary but not if you ask him, he thinks it'll be great fun. grant still hasn't found a job yet and he has been trying so hard. Everyone keeps knocking him back so we're both feeling disappointed about that. Thats all I'm gonna say for now otherwise I might not ever stop.

Hi guys, I just noticed it's been a while since my last entry. Well I did my first pregnancy test yesterday and unfortunately it was negative. I'm kinda feeling a little down now. I had hoped that it would happen straight away so I guess I should lower my expectations. It took me 7 years to fall pregnant the second time and I'm terrified it's gonna take that long again. I probab;y shouldn't worry at the moment because we've only just started trying but if anyone has any suggestions I'm all ears.

Nick and Bella mucking around on the floor last night. I'm sssoooooo glad they get along. I don't know what I would've done if they hated each other.

Hi everyone! Well Grant and I have just made a big decision yesterday. We decided we are going to try for another baby. Bella is 5.5mths old now so hopefully she will have a sibling in the next year. On another note she still isn't crawling, just seems stuck in the rocking stage but I'm sure she'll get there eventually lol. 3 weeks until school starts again so we need to start getting booklists and uniforms together now. I can't believe Nick is gonna be in grade 2 that is awesome. My birthday is coming up in 2 weeks and Grant is taking me to Airlie Beach for the weekend. I can't wait. It will be so good to get away and relax for a while. Well thats all for now so please keep your fingers crossed for us regarding a new pregnancy and have a good day.

 Hi everyone. I have since recovered from New Years Eve, hopefully everyone else has also. Poor Grant is still very seedy, I haven't seen him out of bed yet lol. Isabella is finally going to bed awake now and not crying so that is awesome. I wish she would get up and crawl already lol, am way to excited. Can't wait to start chasing her all around the house, might help me lose some of this weight lol.

Hi all, I really think new years day should be wiped. i had my first drink in 15mths last night. somehow managed to get thru half a carton of rum  I swear never again, today i feel like absolute crap. Finally got to bed at 5am and was up again by 6.30 coz bella woke up, think i'm gonna die lol.We all had a great night. I'm just glad it only comes once a year. Hope everyone elses new years was just as good. Happy Holidays all!