I just counted all the new memberships on the activity page..... 49 in 1 hour!  How awsome is that!  A big welcome from me.

Last night was my, much looked forward to, Sunday.  Sunday nights are my favourite night of the week because hubby stays up all night with the monitor and does the feeds, the burping, the everything and I get 100% uninterupted sleep! 

However, last night I couldnt get to sleep and I tossed and turned all night long.  The reason for this is, for the first time since the baby was born 5months ago, I had something other than him to think about!  I have come up with a new design for something and Im actually going to make and sell it!  I am soooooo sure about this product that I spent all night thinking over the details.

I dont suppose it's the item itself I am excited about but the prospect of having a new purpose and goal in life.  Up until now I have been getting mighty depressed because every day is the same for me..... cooking, cleaning, looking after everyone's needs.  I was getting so scared that this was it for my life, this is what I am going to be for the rest of my life.... mopping up vomit and catering to everyone else's needs.  But now I have an interest and a mission that is all mine!

I have missed me lately.  I feel like a slave!  I had a bit of a meltdown at my husband over the weekend for not helping me more on the weekends.  He works 40hrs in 4nights every week so I am pretty much on my own with everything most of the week and I am DROWNING!  I have lost my identity and I had no idea who I was..... just this poop cleaning, dribble/vomit wiping, nagging machine that didnt have an off switch.  Access all hours.

My husband just doesnt understand that I dont get a day off.  Every single day, like many of you, I have to function.  I have to clean and feed and look after everyone, it just doesnt stop.  If I take a day off and refuse to do it, then there is double the mess the next day.  And this is ALL that occupies my life!  We live away from family and friends so it's not like I can pop over to visit anyone or ask my mum to babysit so we can go out for dinner or I can go and get my eyebrows waxed..... Im starting to look like a YETI!  So 24/7 I'M IT!

Well not anymore, I might still be IT but I now I have an outside interest that should occupy my head enough to stop me drowning in my own misery.  Wish me luck and watch this space for updates on my mystery product!

I just wrote this as a comment to someones blog and realised it was pretty good so I'm posting it in my blog aswell.

The "better than a big mac" diet for all lovers of junkfood

I dont diet, I hate it!  I dont eat fruit or vegies, I cant stand them so its hard for me to find low fat foods that I enjoy.  Im a macca's girl from way back.  I can put on weight just looking at a peice of cheese cake so here is what I do.  Hope it helps. 

• I dont eat butter or marg on my bread.  I also stopped mashing potatoe for dinner as much as it has butter and milk, I micowave them and put a little bit of marg on them, but no melted cheese like I used to.
• I now eat breakfast!  I have a bowl of special k with sultana's.  I dont eat toast so I can save on the carbs as I eat 2 sanwiches for lunch.  Breakfast is a biggie coz it actually makes your metabolism kick into gear for the day. 
• I drink water all day (another one that's good for your metabolism) and I have 1glass of  drink diet soft drink or cordial with my lunch and dinner (doesnt taste that great at first but honestly, you get used to it). 
• I have 2lunches instead of one big one, so i'l have one toasted sandwich at about 10 then another one at about 1.30, this eliminates the need to snack as much. 
• I bought those flavoured sakata crackers instead of eating packets of chips and eat them with Kraft 25%less fat french onion dip (I actually think it tastes better than the full fat one). 
• I found weight watchers friendly chocolate mousse snacks in a cup.... these are also yummy, great for when I need a chocolate fix. 
• Another good snack is those K-time fruit bars.  They are packed with carbs though so best to eat as a morning snack before you go do the groceries or something so you burn it off.
• I no longer it maccas and kfc 3-4times a week, which I could do before I had kids and never gained an ounce.  I love it though, so I eat it once on the weekends but instead of a large meal I get medium, The coke is the killer! 
• I cut the fat off my meat.  This was my favourite part of the meat but now its gone.

So I dont really diet, I just try to eat abit better, Its amazing how many litte things you can cut out of your current diet that you dont really notice, but add them all together and they equal about 5kg per yr.

I figure if its better for me than a big mac then, its golden.  I didnt cut these things from my diet all in one go either, I weaned myself off.  Now I dont even think about it or miss it.  Its easy on the head too. If I have a bad day or Im tired the first thing I do is go for the junk food.  But when you change your food lifestyle, you just have your blow out for the day, and start again tomorrow.  I have dropped almost 15kg in 4months after having my last baby and I haven't really been exercising much, too tired.  Give it a go.

I have been abit awol from my beloved minti site lately as I have been having a shocking couple of weeks.  It all seems to be coming together abit now thank god but I didnt think we would make it at one point.  I was on the phone to my mother crying at 3am that I just couldnt do it anymore.

Well, as you can see, I am still here and I did keep doing it.  I dont know where to start to tell you all what has been happening.  Some of you may remember that my baby has reflux?  We thought we had it settled down, we were using mylanta, but he has his needles on Monday and everything went off the charts.  It started the reflux up agian with a vengence and he was obviously feeling some effects from his needles so for 2 days he would wake every hr for his dummy, not take his feeds and just behaved like a horror in general. He didnt want to sleep or stay awake, didnt want to eat but he was hungry.  He would scream his head off but laugh at me as soon as I walked in the room.

He used to be a self soother until I was told by yet another midwife at the tressillian centre (I only rang to ask about a matress and was given way more advice on things I thought I had under control) that I was doing it wrong and he needed to sleep more (he was sleeping an hour then waking for an hour during the day but he would only wake once a night for a feed and would go back to sleep) and I needed to re settle him, which meant replacing his dummy and re wrapping him.  (Mind you, I was told last month that he shouldnt be sleeping past his feeds and i should wake him up so he doesnt get his night and day confused.  Before that little gem of advice from another midwife, he was sleeping in 3-4 hr blocks, sometimes he would have a big 6hr gap between feeds during the day, due to when he wanted to go to sleep.)  Anyway, I was told to use a cot sheet to wrap him and it worked brilliantly for a few days then "poofto chango" the little Hudini worked out how to escape once again.  This became dangerous as we went into him one morning and he had it all up around his face and neck.  It looked hilarious but I Knew it was dangerous and we were lucky that we got a harmless SIDS warning.  So off came the sheet and I was on a mission to find a ubewt wrap that Hudini boy couldnt get out of.  I found one on the net "kiddopotumus", he still manages to get an arm free but he cant strangle himself with it as he cant get his legs out.  So we have a winner in that department.  

The trouble started when i told the midwives at the clinic that the nurse at the tressllian centre told me to wrap him with his arms straight down so he couldnt get them out and wiggle about.  Well the new midwife didnt think that was right so she told me to wrap him with his arm out.  So I tried that the first night and he kept knocking his dummy out before he could get into a deep sleep and would scream for me to replace it.  The second night I wrapped that arm back in but he was over tired from the night before and we had similar issues that night aswell but ontop of that he didnt want his bottle, that he was obviously hungry for, because the reflux was on the rampage and had given him a sore belly full of acid, so at 2am he was screaming his head off at me.  I didnt know what to do!  I was an absolute wreck.  That's when I rang my mother.

I couldnt think straight I was so tired.  Im still a little strung out so forgive me if this is hard to read.  On the 3rd day, I managed to get a nice big nanna nap in the day so I could use a few of my borrowed braincells to realise that I had a  perfect baby until all the midwives started telling me I was doing it wrong.  They gave me advice, I didnt ask for, concerning things I didnt have a problem with but apparently my baby "should" or "shouldn't" be doing.  Every time I listened to them I wrecked things, so another midwife would tell me to fix it.  So I made a decision that day not to listen to anymore of their unasked for advice.  That's not to say I dont think they have good things to offer but If it aint broke....?  As a mother I have to learn to trust my own instincts and my baby has to learn to fit in with our schedule and our life style.  No one else can tell me when he should be sleeping or eating.  Only I know that.  He is beautiful, strong, happy (even when he's screaming he will still try to squeeze a smile out for me god love him, healthy and, if you've read my other blogs you'll know he is obviously a genius  so why am I listening to anyone who tells me Im not doing a perfect job with him.  Trust you guts girls and save your sanity.

To top it all off, I have had a headache for about 2weeks and every joint in my body hurts like hell.  I went to the doctor and I have to have blood tests on monday, but Im thinking it might be that my body has just had a gutfull and needs some rest.  I have been running flat out.  For those of you who dont know, I suffer depression and I thought for sure it was coming back this week so I also sought councelling.  I have had a few dark days but it seems to be having a compulsive effect on me.  Even though I am dog tired I cant stop until the house is clean, but I continue to find jobs to do.  I am waiting for the assessment to come back so I can have a case worker and get started on fixing my head up a little bit.  I just need some sleep I think.

My baby rolled for the first time today!!!  from his tummy to his back.  He is almost able to do his back to his tummy aswell.  He gets right up on his side but doesnt quite get over.