On a cold morning daddy was brave enough to go push his little girls.

Kiani (left) and Caitlin ready for kindy.

Ready for the beach on a weekend away.

With hubby and very pregnant, my last photo being preggies.Dec 2005

My girls and their racing cars.

 I lived in melbourne for 25yrs before i finally got sick of the cold weather and moved to the Goldcoast where I met my wonderful husband on the internet and we now have 2 wonderful little girls Caitlin age 4 ( who was born 3mths premmi at home with the help of 2 ambulance officers) and Kiani age 2 1/2 ( who went fullterm ). My husband John( age 42 ) had a heart attack in Nov 2005 and heart surgery in Dec 2005, in Jan 2006 i became very ill with H.E.L.L.P syndrome  and lost our third child Samantha.  Beautiful baby Samantha born at 24 weeks is in heaven, god bless you darling Sam, Mummy and daddy love you. John is a true Queenslander country boy and i''''m a true melbourne-ite city girl hehe i think thats what we love about each other, is that we are so different. We are soon leaving  city life behind and moving to wonderful Hervey Bay our 2 girls are looking forward to living closer to the beach and with all thats happend this year we are looking forward to a fresh start somewhere quieter.

**The only thing I  know about H.E.L.L.P Syndrome is 1. it is an agressive form of preeclampsia, 2. it shuts down your body organs ready for death, 3.it is related to high blood pressure and a low platelet count, 4. if not treated it can be fatal, 5. the only cure known so far is to deliver the baby so the mother suvives. Quite frankly i find that pretty scarey and am glad i had great Dr''''s and after some fight for life, i survived. 

My favourite book is : Breast, Bottle and Bowl by Anne Hills and Penelope Stone. This book is like my bible for kids i look at it for almost everything and it goes right up to the age of 5.

Sometimes when you cry...No one sees your tears Sometimes when you worry..No one sees your pain Sometimes when you laugh...No one sees your smile.

I may only pass through this life once. Therefore if there is any kindness I can give you, let me do so now, for I may not pass this way again.

                              R.J.M