Well AJ's now officially a teenager today!!! So happy b'day chookie!!!

On to updates.......

I found out today at the doctors that my friend really did commit sucide and it's not a cruel joke. I got a little emotional, but I pulled it together. I'm not gonna let his desicion affect my life, I've been thru so much in the last 6-7yrs, I'm finally emotionally available to my kids and husband, I'll be damned if I let him screw things up. I've worked hard to get myself in this great place.

Thankyou all for your comments about my aunt and my dad. You all made great points and have confirmed that I should stick with my head and not my heart and turn down the offer of mediation. It was really tempting, I really want a relationship with my dad, but as you all said if hasn't changed, he ain't ever gonna. I really need to focus on my family and my kids. My aunt will just have to accept that she can't fix the problems. I knew in my head it was the right desicion but my heart was Q'ing what my head was saying. I hope that makes sense. Plus my Aunt caught me of guard and you all know how that goes!!!

I'm having the implanon put in on monday (Bit anxious but only because I know how much it's gonna hurt) DR tried to talk me into having mirena put in but after 3 miscarriages, the thought having a foriegn body inside me just leaves me cold.

Tomorrow will be a full day of celebrating Alexis b'day- she's having a sleep over with 3 of her friend, so it should be an interesting nite.

Anyway, thanks for all your support, I really feel like I'm among friends, well actually I am!!!!! 

Sorry for all the bad news!

Cheers Raven!