Why is it whenever it rains it pours??

I was going so well for awhile there, escaped the winter cold season without too much fuss...only to cop it double whammie in summer. GRRRR!!!

On my daughter's birthday, wow it was a great day, i was struck down with not one but two ailments....oh i'm sooooo lucky!!!!

For those of you who helped me out with advice regarding a certain young lady's birthday party, yes i did attend, for the whole of 20 minutes before i was rushed off to the hospital with severe kidney stones....which upset quiet a few people, including myself. Sadly most of the concern wasn't for my health, it was for the simple fact that i hadn't attended the party!! I was hurt, surprised and mildy ticked off that some of my closest friends sent me emails in the following days criticising me for not being there, tho they were made well aware of the fact that it wasn't my decision to leave. My partner was unable to attend the do as he had an early shift to report to the next morning, so his brother accompanied me to the party, which was a god-send. He decided after about 10mins of watching me battle with pain, tears and the requisite snotty nose, that the best place for me was the hospital, again, so he rang the ambulance, informed Sammie of the goings on, and a few select people who needed to know, then escorted me in the lovely ambo all the way, holding my hand and keeping me focused and reasonably sane!!!

My daughter was understanding, though some thought i really should've stayed around. Well, in my state of grouchy terriotory i let a few things fly, lest of all my temper, and set a few records straight....needless to say there have been a few apologies going the rounds over the past few weeks. GRRRR!!! I hate rubbish like that.....

Anyhowz, enough on the stones, i've passed one, with one still to go. Honestly, childbirth is by far more pleasant and rewarding an experience than this currently is!!! But to top it off, I've also got the darling cold that is currently doing the rounds, snotty nose, cough, feeling like i've been run over by a herd of wild, rampaging elephants, etc etc....and still it continues!!!! If i'm not caught in the throes of a sneezing, snot fest, then it's a coughing fit that almost turns me blue!!!! and no, i'm not exaggerating on this one either! Thank God for Ventolin that's all i can say!!

So there's my reason for not being online for a bit....slack of me i know, but sorry i trying to getbetter....sorry gotta go coughing fit kicking in..i off back to bed and rest time!!

TAKE CARE EVERYONE!! MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! 

Hard to believe that today my baby turns 16! We've both gone thru so much, yet i believe she's turned out pretty ok, regardless of the current bout of blah we're going thru.....hmm.

When i had her, and yes, i'm travelling down memory lane here, i think i may be allowed to today (lol), my first thought was 'thank god that's over!', and i cried. my mum had been there the whole way thru the labor and birthing process, holding my hand, wiping my sweat soaked face and just being amazed at the wonder of life. my dad and then boyfriend were sitting outside in the hallway with some of our other friends, waiting to find out what was going on.

Sammie amazed me then. I instantly counted all her fingers, toes, ears, everything and held my baby to me. All thru that night, i held her in my arms, amazed that this little person had been entrusted to me. see, i believe as parents, our children are a gift, one to be cherished, loved and cared for, yet only for a short time. One day we have to let them go.

Earlier this year Sammie was engaged to her then boyfriend. I threw them a party to celebrate, tho i wasn't keen on the whole idea, i believed it was my role to accept and support her with her choices. The previso was the wedding wasn't going to be till she was 18 minimum. I gave a speech, welcoming his family into ours, welcoming this kid who claimed to love my precious angel into the flock, and letting everyone know just how special my girl was. The engagement didn't last, and i was sad to see the pain this did cause my darling girl, yet relieved that common sense had over ruled. still, my baby was hurting, and that in turn hurt me. it still does to think and know that deep down, she is in pain.

i thought i might share with you some of the words i said that night, because today they are still relevant, and special.

"My precious little girl, who came into my life and blessed me with her smile, her laughter and her hugs. I have watched you grow from a little baby, one that i never wanted to let go, and held in my arms her first night, watching her as she slept. Even then, my wish for you is the same as it is tonight.

It has been an honour, and a pleasure to watch you develop into the beautiful young lady you are today. Thru the tears, the tantrums, the smiles, the laughter, I have watched you grow into a caring, compassionate, loyal lady who has touched not only my life, but the lives of so many others as is evidenced by the amount of friends here tonight to honour you both.

There comes a time as a parent when we must step back and watch our children spread their wings, hoping and trusting that we've done enough to equip our child with all that they require. Tongiht, as i stand here before everyone close to you, i take that first step back, believing as i watch you spread your wings that you will not only fly, but you will soar to great heights......

My wish for you my darling child, is that the sound of your laughter always out weighs the sounds of your anger, that your tears are less than your smiles will ever be. That you know love and joy more than you know sadness and hate...."

So, to my darling daughter, happy sweet 16 my princess. Continue to smile, as your smile is the most beautiful gift you have, and whenever i see it, my heart bursts with joy. i love you!

i am sooooo glad monday is over with!!!!

i don't normally dislike any particular day of the week more than others.....each day brings it's own joys, ups n downs.....but when i start the day in the early hours of the morning calling my guy at work to let him know i won't be home when he's finished.......not an auspicious starting block.

To fill you all in a little bit as to why i wasn't going to be home.........you see, over the past 8 years i regularly suffer from kidney stones, on the one side only, and depending on how much i behave myself, could be anywhere from twice a year to every few months i have an attack that requires me to go to the hospital. Yesterday was one of those times.

Now, to my way of thinking, this is something that i don't make a big song and dance about, i gotta go, so i go....only when i can't stand the pain any longer. i don't like people making a fuss around me when i'm feeling as if a herd of wild elephants have not only run over my body, but are taking it over!! So i rang my guy, told him what was happening, that the ambo's were on their way, stay at work and i'll see you when you finish....next thing i know, my best girl friend, Bron, is calling me to chat with me till help arrives, (you see she's now going out with Dan's bro, Luke, so when Dan finished talking with me, he informed his bro and you know how it goes from there!) Now Bron has known me for over 4 years now, she's seen me go through all this more times than either of us can count, and knew how awful and frustrated i'd be, hence her phone call....

i still cry whenever someone shows me the slightest hint of niceness.....sidebar from an abusive marriage, so not only was i in tears from the pain, but by my friend's thoughtfullness, compassion and love......she would have been here except she lives in another state from me, and i had to convince her not to drive up to brissy to hold my hand!!

by the time i was released last night, i had been poked, proded, twisted, turned, probed (not really but it sounds ewwww) and was ready to just come home and crash in our very comfy bed....which is precisely what i did......

now all that remains is for me to pass this charming piece of calcuim, then i really can start breathing again!!!

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY PEOPLES!!!!!

ok, please bear with me on this...i've gotten up so Dan can sleep due to the pain in my dislocated knee giving me grief....log on so i can keep an eye and catch up on everything, and two of my surrogates are online.....nice, or so you would think!!!!

NOPE!!! here i is at 12.10 in the morning with them both typing madly away at me about how the other one is sooooo unsympathetic to the others ailments.....and how they not going to ever, ever talk with each other again....lol.....actually i'm rather amused by all this....just told one of em that's right never ever again and i'm santa claus!!!  hehehehehehe

For the record, one is 14yo female, the other is 19yo male!!!! See, the fun never stops!!! sorry, my sense of humour, or the pain pills, is making me laugh silly at these two....it's an ongoing big bro/lil sis thing that in two days will all be over and done with, onto the next insult....

Oh, how boring life would be without these  young ones to keep me amused and entertained....god bless their lil cotton sox.....have a great weekend everyone!!!