hi guys been ultra busy lately  trying to get back into diet and exercise mode. and having a yukky reaction to my pill because of my thyroid medication so i have been feling sick and headachey.i stopped taking it for 2 days to test reaction and i felt alot better, then took it this morning to see what would happen and yep feel like crap.

i am finally down to  99kg i was so excited to finally be under 100 i am working har ok lying i will work hard i just need to exercise more. i did buy a bike and go riding with my daughter when i can, its a great way to bond with her as she loves her bmx and riding and she was getting involved with the wrong crowd at the moment so i got involved with her activities more and shes happier with that. well i have to go check my mums mail while shes luxuriating on holiday. half her luck

bye

oh by the way i got myself some scales that weigh you and tell you your body fat %, water %,and muscle % at the moment im am ashamed to admit that i am considered obese with 44% body fat, 36% water(supposed to be 60%, and 29% muscle lets see how i will improve it over the coming months,.

it helps me work out if i am losing fat or muscle so i can regulate my activities for optimum loss.

hey guys, long time , no write, i have had no time to myself these holidays and i have been running kids everywhere, tennager doing mosdelling course, 8 year old having access visits, etc i have also been doing nightly walks for 30 mins to start with, i am pushing 50kilos in a pram up many hills because i am taking the twins with me so it is a task to push them lol i have managed to shed another kilo though and am at 102kg i cant wait tio get to the double digits, im so proud of me, im even being a little calmer in the house and not raging at everyone , amazing what a little confidence can do,

will keep you all posted

remember how i wrote of dakotahs fall and her tooth damage,well we have been watching her like a hawke and all is going well for her except her two front teeth are going grey, well today her twin brother was running through the lounge room and tripped over his own feet falling face first and must have hit the hard part of his dummy into his front teeth, there was blood everywhere and he also knocked his tooth backwards. so now i have to cart him to the dentist tomorrow morning,the poor darling ,

i have also managed to lose another kilo thats four so far yippee, i cant wait to notice a difference, at the moment i cant tell. i just have to keep up with the metimusil to help keep regular, lol, i have also still got some fluid from having connor so the doctor has me on fluid tablets for a few days to help., ok im off to have a shower and feed bub then hopefully get to bed

ok well boy im tired i have been sring cleaning for the new year, my man and i have been in crisis talks and things are progressing well,i am a very stubborn woam and we have a very complex family situation involving 5 kids and 3 fathers , i was engaged to kahlyssas dad till he had an affair  and threw us out without a thing.  i was married to tajahna's dad for 6 years till i realised that he was gambling away all our money and hocking all the things that i thought the kids were just losing so i kicked him to the curb, now the twins and conor's dad and i have been together four years , and there are many dramas at times when the other fathers are involved and i have always been the type of mother that hasnt denied the kids seeinf their dads as it is crucial for them to make their own minds up as they get older as to whether they want to be involved anymore.

this has caused some tention between derek and i as he can be very insecure and jealous of the girls affections for their dads regardless of what they do, i just explain that all kids think the world of their parents and wouldnt believe a bad thing of them ever. we have many kinks to work out still.

i wish you all a happy new year . i must away to try rekindle some sparks

well i was going to watch a movie in bed with my portable dvd player i got for xmas,(thanks mum) but instead managed to have a huge fight with my man  that has left us wondering what our relationship has come to so i have to admit that i went to bed crying and woke up this morning looking like death warmed up.i guess i will keep everyone posted. happy new year to me  bah humbug

oh boy what a bummer for the new year i have managed to catch a cold going around and my joints are killing me, i am light headed and my throat is killing me and my nose is blocked, worst of all i am not allowed to do my diet thing while sick so i hve been very careful what i eat. you would be surprised how hungry this thing has made me but i reach for the good things to eat i have been a good girl.

dakotah and connor also have it the poor babies i havent been sleeping much with all the coughs and sniffles happening and i have one eye open all the time for connor as he is only 7 weeks old and i worry about his breathing.

tonight i am going to snuggle up in bed and watch a movie.

my oh my they didnt put these side effects in the diet book. i now have more gas than a zephyr.

well i never , you know when you are out shopping and you realise you need to fart (hey come on i know im not the only one) and then you sneak one and all of a sudden you realise that there will be no way to hide the dead animal smell because you are the only one in the aisle and the people heading your way know that they didnt do it, wellllll that happened to me and i am seriously ashamed to admit that i covered my tracts by telling my daughter (loud enough for others to hear) hurry up kiddo i have to take your brother to change him hes very wofty right now. lmao. im so soryy guys i couldnt help it and god paid me back anyway because i laughed way to hard and unfortunately ive had alittle incontinence since connor was born 6 weeks ago and well you can imagine the rest lol.

needless to say i have been following the diet  well and even tried coke zero(the one with the zero sugar in it) instead of the glass of full coke, but oh man i think i will just spen an extra 20 minutes on the treadmill and have a glass of full coke . It was seriously cack lol.

the kids are all doing great and are seriously excited about xmas. unfortunately dakotah(2) found my stash of wrapped prezzies and managed to unwrap her brothers(2 twin) toy car. (note to self. hide prezzies at mums next year)

then my 8 year old decided to have a peek at the prezzies i had put under the tree to make it look more exciting for them, and actually partly unwrapped a couple to look inside ( next year make tree boring)

i also have a teenager whinging to open a prezzie early (no way jose) God give me strength.

hey does anyone else get these mental blocks where words they have written for years all of a sudden become impossible to spell.(or is it just me , like the shopping fart thing lol)

well i am not sure i will chat before xmas so all have a great one and stay chilled .

woohooo another kilo down, thats 104 now. cant wait to say goodbye to the 100's.

my fridge has always had healty food in it ,I just had a very bad habit of drinking too much coke and eating too too too much yummmmmy chocolate (focus woman)  but now i have been having a glass of zero instead, chewing sugar free extra has really stopped me reaching for food as i got the apple one and if i even think of food  my taste buds know it will taste horrid because of the gum.

I have tried to stop looking at myself in disgust and am looking at it that i will only be in this body for a little while and that i  am going to shrink it. the good thing is that the chemist where i buy my diet sachets from uses a points reward system where you get 1 point for every dollar you spend and then when you get to 200 points you get a 10 dollar voucher. it only takes a couple  of months and i use the voucher to buy myself something nice to reward my efforts.

i have made my scales a fun experimental tool, i weighed myself and then went to the toilet (lol) and then weighed myself again and i couldnt believe how much fluid can weigh,but then i cant say that because after i had the twins i was so seriously bloated that the doctor made me take lasix tablets for a week to relieve the fluid. it worked and he weighed me before and after and without a word of a lie i lost 10 kilos in that week . i felt sooo good as the fluid build up made my joints so painful and i couldnt bend my fingers,

unfortunately i ended up eating wrong and put 5 kilos on in fat.

well i am still happily determined and when i am past the xmas rushing around i will add extra exercise to my regime, hopefully  it will then melt the kilos off. mum asked me if i wanted 200 dollar voucher to buy clothes with for xmas and i said no thanks i really would prefer to be paid 5 dollars a kilo for my weight loss so when i reach my goal weight i will have nice clothes and not close that i intend to shrink out of.

i have discovered steam bags for the microwave and usde them all the time. tonight i put  fish with , tomatoe ,onion, herbs, lemon, lime and pepper and salt into the steam bag and 3 minutes later we had yummy fish.

i will keep u posted on my progress . oh boy i hope no one buys chocolates for xmas. i will just freeze them until i have reached a desirable weight. or i could just lick one each night lol.

 

ok i have had baby number 5 and i am in desperate need to lose the extra extra kilos i put on, i am trying the shake diet , called the medical vita diet.  i have been on it a week so far and have been a really good girl but i admit to two meals that were not in the guide lines, whipped meself those nights lol,

i used to just eat what i wanted, when i wanted, but now i have a shake for brekky and lunch and a dinner consisting of no carbs or fat or sugar it is mainly lean meat and green veg, and since i am a chocoholic and a coke  (softdrink not drug) addict  ni have had to really use will power so i completely went cold turkey on the chocolate but i have a glass of coke at night. i had the worst detox headache on day 2, but i kept with it

i dont have any withdrawels at the moment just sheer determination. i have lost 2 kilos so far and i am not ashamed to admit that i have to lose 30kilos to get back to the weight i was before i fell pregnant with the twins(now 2).

i have even been exercising, well ok not today , well i did sort of running aroung cleaning and looking after 5 kids and then doing more chrissy shopping, then getting dinner and kids off to bed,

i am on here spilling my guts because i knoe that by telling you all my goal i will work harder to do it as i never like to fail at something i set a tgoal for.

i  would love to hear any encouraging words from you all and i will keep you all posted.

my starting weight....107kg 

goal weight........70kg for starters

weight loss so far  after 6 days .......2kg

good luck to me/