Well i have been so busy taking Caydn to appointments with o.t, speech therapist and many more that i have not had time to blog or even scratch myself. On Friday a friend of mine Brooke went to Tasmania to meet Alana and stayed tyhere fpor the weekend as she needed a break i am so grateful to Alana for helping her as she does not know her and was really good about it all. So i dropped Brooke of at the airport on Fridfay noight with one message have fun and give Alana a big hug from me. I pohoned to see that she had arrived safely as she had never been in an airoplane before but she said she did ok and had arrived and was already having fun. I was so jealous as i wanted to go with her but was unable to find someone to look after my children for the 4 days that iBrooke went for. So i came home with the kids and my phone was running red hot so i told the kids to tell anyone who called for me to say i had gone to Tasmania lol lol pmsl, the phone ran red hot all night. As Alana had not said whom was going to visit her and everyone thought it was mer so i went along with it loll lol everyone was sure it was me going to visit Alana so for those of you who rang it wasnt me!

So i had a quiet night Friday noght with the kids and then on Saturday i thought to myslef stuff this and rang the kids dad to ask him if he would mind coming over and looking after the kids for the night so i could surprise Alana and fly there lol lol i am sneaky. So we rang Alana and told her that Brookes brother was going to bew flying into wynard not sure if that is how it is spelt airport on a cesna with a friend of mnine as he had been in a bot of trouble and was gfoing to stay with his mum who hjas just moved to Tasmania. Alana said that would be fine so the arrangements had been made for this.

Sunday morning camne and i got dropped off to a friends place as the kids dad was taking them all to the snow and i was flying to tassie on a small secna with a f4riend to surpise alana when she arrived she would be expecting brookes brither lol lol

So i get there and Alana and Brooke looked really shocked i am sure the whole of the tiny airport heasrd me and trhey did too lol lol I was very loud and did shout out surprise its me the crazy one pmsl. Alana did not know what to do. So we get back to Alanas place and she is still cursing me for surprising her and every one else cos Brooke did not even know wthat i was going there lol lol even more of a surprise. I had so much fun we went sightseeing for a little bit and then went back home to enjoy a lovely roast tea that alana had prepared for us. It was the vbest roast i had eaten in ages apoart from my own loll ol

So Monday morning we leave Aklanas to get to the airport to come home Alana was not reaLLY WANting us to go but we had to get back. Even though i only stayed for a night it felt like a week.

Alana and her family are so very special and a laugh and joker too. We had plenty of laughs and our stomachs were that sore we were still aching whe we got to the airport lol lol

So we flew home and came back to reality. Brooke had so much fun she went to marlets and saw lots of lovely waterfalls as well. i managed to get afew pics which i will put up when i put on my computer. I am planning on going back there soon for a few days so i can spend a bit more time with Alana and her family.

Therre is someone i thought was a friend of mine tnat i have not spoken to or heard from in months that i have just found out from some of my friends that has been backstabbing me and saying that i do not have care of my children since they are in Family day care a couple of days a week. I would like this so called friend to live my life even for a week to see exactly what it is like to be a single mum suffering depression and having no family support and the kids daqd only coming around once in a while. This per5son has a husband and only hads a couple of children to look after. I keep my house clean  my kids are fed i do not whinge ata ll about my kife and i i always say to people everyone lives their lives differently and no one should judge what p[eople decide to do with their children under no circumstances. This frien did also have her children in day care at one stage but i guess that is ok for them but not for me. This person whom i thought was a friend i have helped out a couple of times and asked for nothing in return. i only ask that my friends be there if i need a little support or just for a chat and laugh even. I never ask my friends late at night to come and look after my children if an emergency should arise i deal with it my way on my own. This so called friend once told me that she does not like backstabing people or people who backstab others but yet i find out that she is doing exactly these things that she says she does not like. At least have the courage to tell me tomy face what you have to say not behind my back. To this i say they are nothing but guttless and i do not need friends like this in my life that are going to try and bring me down with my deporession any further. Sorry but i had tohave this out  of my sysytem cos it is really pissing meoff at the that MOMENTsomeone i enjoyed as a friend could be this low and say these awful things about me.

Hugs to MYREAL FRIENDS!! XXX OOO

Hi all well today i finally received my certificate in the mail for my course i did cert 2 in business. Yay i finally achieved something in my life for me apart from my children lol lol. I was really excited as i only handed my last unit in on Tuesday morning at about 10am and my assessor rang me an hour later to let me know how proud she was of what i have achieved by finishing the course and of course looking after 8 children as well. There are some people whom enrolled in the course but sionce rerceiving their laptop have not completed any of the units at all. That to me is a waste as there may have been someone out there whom really wanted to do the course but could not get in as they were full and for people to use the government in this way is shocking to me. For what a laptop that is all they achievced and a free one at that. I myself am proud of my achievent i was behind due to being ill and having lots of appointments for Caydn etc... but i finally achieved what i set out to do, and this was to complete my course. I will be laminating my Certificate on the weekend and placing it up on the wall for all to see. I am at the moment feeling really good about myself and receiving this in the mail today just boosted my confidence heaps. I woke at 6am feeling pretty ordinary as i have bronchitis stil and getting over it slowly if only i was able to rest i am sure it would totally disappear. Rest in my house not easy.

Caydn has o.t again tomorrow afternoon so i am hoping he is having a good day not a bad one like last time he would not co operate at all when doing some of the things the lady asked him to i ended up helping her by rolling the ball to him while she held his arms as he does not use his muscles to do things we realised so i am not sure how that will affect him when he starts school next year. Oh well we will deal wioth that when he gets there i guess. Today is Harleys 6th b"day i bought him a nintendo ds lite he is so totally excited and i have decided that this is what they will all get for their b"days this year Ashlee got one for hers last week then next month i have two b"days within 3 days of each other lol lol too close hey?? Oh well the two boys will get ds as well with a game just like Ashlee and Harley have got for theirs. They are really good with them as they have been sharing them with the others which is really greast so this way the others do not feel totally left out i bought the brain acadamy that was on the tv a while ago for ds this helps them with maths and other things as well so they have been sharing that around too,.the kids have been really good lately apart from yesterday morning when Harley and Tyson were fighting before school and Harley bit Tyson right on the cheek now Tyson has a massive bruise on his cheek that it looks like someone has punched him so Harley got into big trouble for that. I think he made up for it with Tyson today by allowing him to have first turn at his new ds. They were great so i am proud of my children every day as they are all learning to share and not be greedy.

I sdtill have a sore back and will be trying to go to the drs on the weekend to find out the results of my ct scan that i had over a week ago as last time i went they were not there so they should be there now i would say. I have not heard yet when Caydn has to have his mri but i hope it is not too long as i worry a bit too much sometimes i think, He is just a darling child always wanting cuddles lately and getting really close to certain peoiple. Jaya has been really good woith her toilet training too she went just over a week nopw and no accidents in her knickers until today at day care she had an accident so i hope she has not gone backwards but i am sure it will be a one of well at least i hope so.

Well i went bargain shopping tonight with a friend and i bought a $60 dollar pair of boots for $12 they were reduced then had 20% off the marked price as well so that was a fantastic bargaiun i also got a denim skirt marked $7 for $5.25 what a bargain they were. My friend also got the same skirt and she bought a really nice top that was originally $26 for only $5.25 as it was marked down to $7 then had percenatge off as well so we werte laughing all the way home at what we got our thinngs for. Sometimes it pays to go shoipping without kids as we can look better for what we want and actually buy for ourselves for a change not the kids as we always do. So i will be going shopping next week again when i get more money to grab bargains if there are any left.

Well ibetter get going now as itis getting late i wil promise to put pics of kitchen up soon as i transfer them to my laptop as this cpomputer is the kids one and for some reason will not allow me to put my pics up in here at al.

I hope everyone is having a great week and are staying healthy and having fun.

Hugs Michelle

Hi all well i am sorry i have not been around lately i am sick again second time in less than a month and here i was thinking i never get sick well it got me again. So i am on prednisilone and antibiotics again for 5 days. The dr told me i have to try and stay inside out pof the cold where possible and to rest as much as i can so today i did what i had to do and then had a cat nap before taking Caydn to kinder.

Well today i woke up at 6 am to get showered and ready before kids got up to get ready for school. Caydn  had speech therapy this morning he started off co operating but then got distracted and annoyed with it all so would not continue so we had to play catch with him then do some more then played throw aeroplanes in tub then do some more of the testing she was doing on him and then we ended up ending the session as he was getting really bad and would not so anythinhg he was told i think he was bored with it all as when he does no=ot like doing something for a long period of time he will play up and not co operate. So he has another session next week to finish the testing he started to day. Came home and a friend was here to visit  we just chatted and sat with the kids and watched tv i had a nanna nap as i am so worn out my friend was really good she woke me at 12.55 as Caydn had kinder at 1. Her daughter who has just turned 2 was asleep on my lounge room floor so cute.

So took Caydn to kinder came home and sat and did nothing at all as i had done all my housework. Picked Caydn up at 4 then had to drop him off to day carer as him and Jaya stay there tonight for the night and i collect them at 2pm tomorrow.

I am not seeing my physc till next Tuesday as he wanted to see how i am going over three weeks rather than two weeks. I am doing ok at times but have alot of stress at the moment with wondering what is going to happen when i have to go to court in October. But i am not going to lket that be the end of me no way no chance.

My mum is coming over on Saturday with a friend of mine and hers that has custody of her great grand children and they are bringing the youngest with them as the other two are at their dads for the weekend.

I have finished my course and think i may go and drop my last assessment of tomorrow so it can be sighted and then they will send it back with my certificate yay. I cannot believ i have finally achieved something good on my own without someone telling me to do it or being made to do something ido not want to do it really does feel good i can hanestly say.

Tiffany brought home a certificate from school the other day in recognition of her continued respect of the  school policy and what the school aspects and policies mean to them all. I was almost in tears so i told her that she was to be congratulated for that as it is not every day you get this recognition from the school.

Well ibetter get going watching big brother need to see who wins this one as this is the finale tonight. Ben just got evicted yay i do not lke him.

Well good night all and i will blog soon and i will put pics of my new kitchen soon as my other computer is getting fixed again and the pics are on that one. Hugs

Michelle and Family xxx ooo

Hi all well they pulled my old kitchen out on Tuesday so i have not had a stove or anything to cook meals. They placed the new kitchen in yesterday and i went up street to buy stuff for tea as we were going to have meat and vegies. But that was not meant to be the case last night as when i came back home from shopping the stove was not in and the workmen are supposed to be here today who knows what time to put it in. Spo we had to have take away again last nigth it cost heaps to feed us all. I am seriuosly hoping they do come back today to put it in as so far i have heard nothing from them and yesterday morning they were here by 8am to do kitchen. I wonder if they just want me to stress wether i will have a finished kitchen today as we were having jokes all day yesterday lol lol lol.

Well i went to the drs the other night as i had had enough of the pain in my back and right down my legs i have put up with it for 2 weeks now so enough waas enough. The dr gave me strong pain killers as i was unable to even sweep m,y floors or fold washing out of the dryer that is how bad the pain was, it was there constantly he also has me on anti imflamorty (?spelt wrong i think) tablets and yesterday i had to go and have a c.t scan on my spine and left hip as i have osteoarthritis in left hip so that may be flaring up due to the cold weather we are haviong here.

My friend is coming over today and we are hopefully going to go up the street to look at what we cannot afford to buy lol lol. I got Ashlee her b"day present yesterday as oiit was her b"day Monday but i did not get paid until yesterday myself and a friend went half half in a Nintendo DS for her with a game and a case with ear phones, two cases for games when not in use and a lanyard type thing. It only cost $229 for the lot and total value if bought individualy would be around $300. So we got a bargain and a half. We have decioded that this is what we will be doing for all of my kids b"days this year . Some people are telling me i am silly buying them as they think they are all too young for them and will not appreciate them at all. How can children learn to appreciate things bought if we do not give them a chance to show that they can look after things and not wreck them?? I am even going to get Caydn one for his 5th b"day as he has the mild autism and i think it wil be good for him to keep his brain thinking while playiong games. Do you think he is too young??

Well better go and find something to do before they decide to get here and do the rest of the klitchen.

WQill put pics up soon

Have a great day

Hugs Michelle

Hi all well woke at 6am to the kids as usual talking this time not fighting they were actually being nice to each other thats a change in the mornings for them.lol Well today i had workers coming in to pull my kitchen out and the new one is finally going in tomorrow yay about time. So i have taken pics of before during and after demolition and will take more tomorrow as the put my brand new kitchen in. I cant wait i will be up with the birds in the morning waiting for them to come to put new kitchen in lol lol.  I had so much fun watching them taking the old kitchen out so tonight i have no stove no sink no taps no nothing in my kitchen except the pantry cupboard. I cannot even make a warm milo so am just about to go over to my neighbours to have a lovely warm milo. I help them out all the time as they have a gorgeous baby who is 4months old on wednesday and they call me his Gran Nan lol lol i am like a nan to him. He was born addicted to heroin so his aunty and nan have custody of him at the moment i love being able to hand a baby back when they are crying and then i love having him here for a few hours while they do what they have or if the daughter who actually has custody goes out with her friends to have a good time.  I will put pics of my kitchen up when i get a chance to and i laugh everytime now i look at them.

Well better get going and have my warm milo before bed and i will blog as soon as i get a chance to as when the kitchen is in i have to put everything back where it belongs i cant even use my dining table.

Well got to go now blog soon

Hugs Michelle xxx oo

Hi all well woke this morning at 5.30am as kids were up already(naughty) watching tv. So got up and asked them why they were up so early even the birds were still sleeping? They replied well this oner woke me and that one woke mne etc...... the usual in my house in the morning always blaming one another.

Well any  way sms Alana to say hi went to the dentist with Ashlee and they said she has perfect teeth no holes thank goodness and amazing too. She has an overcrowded mouth but they are hoping that when she reaches grade 5 or 6 that it will fix itself otherwise she may need braces or something to help straighten them. I am still awaiting Caydns mri appointment not sure how long i need to wait for that. Caydn has occupational therapy again next tuesday so will see how he goes with that this time as last week he would no co operate properly with the ot lady. He was as i ssay bouncing everywhere but where he should have been lol lol he looses concentration very easy and if he does not like doing something he wil not co operate with anyone no matter what.

Well today was freezing cold we know winter is definately here now. Tonight we are meant to be getting gale force winds,thunder,lightning and even hail stones maybe it feels that cold outside that it seems like it would snow i wish it would here lol

Well tomorrow i am staying home and going to try and rest a bit as my whole body at the mopment is aching from my arthritis and osteoarthritis all my back and legs are really hurting even to walk is painful. I have been putting tiger balm on and it relieves the pain a bit but i think i may need to go ot the drs soon for something for the pain as panadol is not working at all. I will get there the dr did tell me a couple of weeks ago that it would get worse over the years but not in 2 weeks. The cold weather has hit me hard with it this year so am rugging up warm as i can handle it.

The kids are getting bored now wioth the holidays and are getting excited about going back to school especially Ashlee as it is her 9th birthday on Monday so she wants to see all her friends. The kids have been to the museum, aqaurium and play centres with their day care worker over the holidays so they have been busy like me lol

Well i better get going as i am aching from typing and sitting down for too long. I will blog on the weekend when i get a chance as am having visitors tomorrow and over the weekend.

I hope everyone enjopys the rest of their week and the upcoming weekend. I also hope that those with children on school holidays have fun and enjoy their weekend and enjoy sanity again when the kids are back at school. I do enjoy having mine home but they hate it as they get bored too easily and end up fighting all the time. Bring on monday they are saying right now.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Hi all well i know it has been a while sionce i blogged i apoligise! I have been busy with the kids and trying to keep them occupied with the holidays. Well Caydn got his glassers last thursday he looks so cute wearing them looks like a proffessional. I will add pic as soon as i get a chance as i have heaps of appointments to keep.

Caydn finally started o.t last Friday he did well but now she is referring him to a physio as we realised he does not use his muscles in his arms or fingers especially when he draws pictures so she want to get a physio to asses him and see what they say. It seems to be one thing after another with him. Oh well it is all good i guess in the long run for him and me too it will benefit him heaps for school and the rest of his learning life and beyond. He has been on the go every day he never seems to stop lately  but he makes me laugh sometimes at the things he does. Today i received a phone call from his Peadiatricians office it was the receptionist calling to let me know that the pead wants Caydn to have a m.r.i under general anisthetic as the opthamoligist said the other week that the optic nerves are bulging but the pressure in them is fine so the mri is to see if they can see anything hat would cause this. I am not sure when this wilol be done as they were faxing the referral off today so i really hope it wont be too long.

Today Tiffany6 had the dentist and had to see a specialist as well for hwer teeth as one of her eye teeth is still  a baby tooth and they did an x-ray a while ago to see if thery could find the adult tooth. They did find it and it is growing in an awkward place in her gums  so today they took impressions of her teeth and are sending them along with the x-ray to the dental hospital in Melbourne for them to asses what they will do. The dentist told me that the way the tooth is growing can  harm nerves and the roots of the other teeth in her mouth. So she  will more than likely have to have dental surgery to either cut her gum and take tooth out or see if they take the baby tooth pout and move the tooth down to where it should be. I am hoping for the best. I will keep you all updated on it all.

Well this is the last week of holidays and the kids are getting excited to go back to school next week and next Monday is Ashlees' birthday she wioll be nine. Th e years have gone so fast.

 I am still seeing my phsyc on a fortnighly basis now and am doing ok i guess. I am feeling a bit down lately as i received my charges from the problems i had with a family member earlier this year and i have to go to court on 7th October. I HAave been to see a solicitor already so i know what i am looking at. I was hoping to go away for a few days but do not feel that i will be able due to the way i am feeling within myslef. I want to go away and have fun but feel i will not be able to fully enjoy a holiday the way i am and do not want to make anyones week bad. I will organise a holiday later this year whyen all is over and done with that way i can enjoy it mopre.

Well my border has moved out yay. I am so glad at the mopment as she was start6ing to make me feel really down she only paid $100 the whole month she was here which is wrong as she had nothing else to pay.. She still has not got her sons her ex has them and i think he is going to keep them and not give them back as it has now been about 2months so the chances of her getting them back are near to nothing.

On Saturday i had a friend here for the day and she had bought two pkts of hair dye the wash out ones and did my hair she thought it was quiet funny as it is purple lol lol i told her i look like a purple people eater now i hope it washes pout really soon. But everyone says it does not look too bad i am getting used to it and think every morning when i wash my hair that i am a day closer to it comi9ng out lol lol lol .

Well that is about all for now as i am getting a buit teary and down i will blog again soon i promise.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Hey everyone thought i would do my blog before the weekend starts. Tonight we had people over for tea. We had yummy chops and scallop potatoes with other vegies. Today is a friend of mines daughters birthday she is 2. Tomorrow we are having a party with a Jumping Castle yay it will be so much fun. My yard is so big we could fit 4 jumping castles in there lol lol. My kids love riding their motor bikes in the yard and racing each other it looks so funny when they do it. Well i am sitting here doing my blog and chatting to a friend that is here as well. I am looking after a friend of mines sons tomorrow for a few hours which will be good. These two boys are the two whos mother has handed custody over to their dad so she can party and basically do what she wants with her life. She is staying with me at the moment which in a way is starting to piss me off big time as she only paid me $50 for two weeks she has been here so far that is it wil be 3 weeks this sunday. Who needs it npot me at the moment.

Today some stupid idiot almost made me smash into them when i was taking the kids to their daqy carers place for the night. I missed a serious accident by about half an inch. I went right off my bloody head i stopped traffic and was going to get out of my car and really knockhim out but i thought better of it. I just tooted my horn and yelled out my  window at him. I almost felt my car start to roll but i got control of it very quickly to avoid it happening.

 Sunday my mum is coming over to take Tiffany shopping for her birthday present so all the kids will be happy to see nan then for a few hours as well as they have not seen her for about 2 weeks.

The holidays are here and i need to find lots to do with the kids so they do not get bored.

I have everything nearly in order for Caydn for assessments for school next year as i seen the vice principal this morning and talked to her and the  guidance officer as well in regards to what we need to do. I have to find all the reports i have from all the different people he has seen in his four years of life. That should be fun to find where i put them lol lol. I will find them soon enough i think anyway.

Caydn is starting Occupational Therapy next Friday morning and then he gets his glasses next week sometime they will be ready so when he gets them i will take a pic and put in my blog for everyone to see how cute he looks with them on. He is so very excited about getting them which is a good thing i guess.

Well i have to go now as Bj needs to get picked up from work at 9pm if i not there he will ring me soon to see if i am still picking him up.

I hope everyone has a good weekend and enjoy the good times with family and friends!

Night to you all and will blog as soon as i get a chnace and i will also take lots of pics morro of the kids on jumping castle too.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Hi everyone thought i would drop by to let you alll know tht i am getting better by the day and have been resting finding different things  to do during the day as the kids dad still has me staying inside so i dont get nay sicker. I am still trying to organise to go away for a couple of days with a friend but it will deoend how i feel as the day gets closer so we have not made any reservations or anything for ths reason. I feel worried going too far away from homem as this is my safety zone and i do not like to go too far from home nowadays.  I will miss the kids too much if i went away. So i think we may just go to Melbourne for the weekend and stay with my mum as she has 2 spare bedrooms and lives on her own we can go out and party while we are there too if we want. Then if there is an emergency we can rush home to deal with that.

I am slowly on the mend from my pnehmonia and keeping warm is the best medicine at the moment i think staying inside is good. Everyone does everything for me i just sit back and relaz loll lol lol

Well tomorrow is Tiffanys' 14th Bday she is having a smallish party here on Saturday as my friend little girl is 2 on Friday so we have prdered a jumping castle for the day. The day wil be so much fun i think i may even try my hand at jumpng on the jumping castle lol lol i would most likely pop it. Then Tiffany is going to the blue light disco with her friends she goes to this every month usually the last saturday of the month.

I am going to get going now and get some sleep as i have to get up early and take a froind to the drs tomorrow and do a few things to.

Hope everyone is having a great week.

For those of you who may be unwell i hope ou all get better soon.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Hi everyone sorry i have not been on lately i went back to the drs on Wednesday night as i was feeling worse by the day. The antibiotics i was on were not working as the dr thought they should be, I was feeling worse every morning i woke. So i went to see my usual dr on Wednesday night and he has put me on stronger antibiotics and also prednisilone 50mg for 5 days. He said i have pnemonia and am not allowed to go outside and have to rest. So yes i have been doing this and the kids dad is here to help me too. He has been going to the shops and dropping kids at their day carers house for me. Tonight i wanted to go to the video shop to hire some movies to watch but he told me i was not allowed to lol lol. So as ordered i did not go he and a friend of mine went for me. So i have just been sitting here doing my course and guess what??? I FINISHED my course last night now i have to ring when i feel better to go and have my very last assessment done and get my certificate. I feel so proud of what i have achieved in 6months and i am also starting to take pride in myslef and the way i dress. Everyone has been complementing me on rthe way i am dressing i am doing it for me no one else. I just want to start feeling good about my life and where i am at if you can understand.

Well i better get going am off to bed now having trouble breathing due to the night air so wil be taking my ventolin with me tonight again.

I hope everyone is keeping well and if any of you are sick please get well soon!

Hugs Michelle take care and i will be on again as soon as i get more energy to type. Just wanted to let you alll know what has been going on incase anyone was worrrying. Thank you Alana for all your sms and yes i promise to rest..

xxxoooxxxooo