Hi all my Friends and Minti members! I hope you are all going well and looking forward to Easter and hope you all have a great day! Yummy Chocolates. But none for me thanks lol lol! Well it has been 7days since i blogged last and there has been so much happeniong i just have not been up to doing my blog! As some of you know what has been going on in my life this last week or so, The crap is still happening. I am unable to function properly therefore feel i cannot care for my children as i should be able to. I love them all dearly the ones that are still at home anyway at the moment. But i need a break it is all getting too much for me now to cope well with it all. I have only really spoken to a few friends and had a couple of visitors as i do not feel up to anything. Is this wrong to be feeling like this?? Am i a bad parent for saying what i said? I myslef am seriously starting to think i do not deserve to have my children around me any more, The trouble i had the other week pushed me right over the edge so to speak. Being arrested for things that should never have happened and then i find out yesterday that d.h.s had called my Family Support worker to let her know that they had received a complaint about me. They were informed wether by police or someone else what had happened with myslef and my daughter leading up to my arresst and charges. There is a intervention order out on me against her and am banned from publishing anything relating to her on the net. I have  found out i vcan say certain things but just not mention the name of the p[erson in question. As this would be breaking my order. How low can a child go? Calling the police and having me aressted for ccertain reasons? tThe child in this matter is allowed to say and do what she wants but yet i am not allowed to. This is morally wrong in my eyes. When a parent suffers depression adn is pushed to the edge of insanity how do i survive through it. There is still the charges to come and the worse thing is i never layed a hand on the s aid child. How is this right???? Sorry but i need to get this out of my system or i am worried i will do something i may one day regret. I have wiped said child out of my life and covered said child face in all family photos as each time myslef or father look at picture the anger sets in. The anger and frustaration for me is the worst part as i gave birth to this child and cared for when ill and paid for education but this i gather was never good enough. No matter what i do or say it means nothing at al. I have now prevented any contac6t with the siblings as this would cause upset and distress to all concerned i am not worried about said child as this was said childs doing not mine. This child will have to live with what they have done for the rest of their life not me. I am trying to liove as normal as possibler but am currently finding it really hard to do this. Thank you to Alana for lending an esar when i needed to talk and vent you are just the best!!! I APPRECIATE EVERY ONES CONCERNS AND DO LOG ON TO SEE HOW EVERYONE IS GOING. sO I AM JUST BLOGGING TO GET THIS OUT THERE AS I HOPE IN DOING THIS I MAY FEEL A BIT BETTER ABOUT MYSELF. bUT TO BE HONEST I AM THINKING OF TRYING TO GET AWAY FOR ABOUT A WEEK OR SO TO BE RIGHT AWAY FROM THEM ALL. lOOK OUT aLANA HERE I COME!! lol lol Well that has to be all for now as i am ion tears writing this and am feeliong lost and lonely in this life. I know i am not lost or lonely but i cannot help feeling like this.

HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYONE! Will blog as soon as i am in the right frame of mind! Thank you all for being here for me again i repeat Thank you

Hugs always Michelle xxx ooo