Hi all well i have a really good week. I finally got myslef a decent van to get the kids around in yay. I feel so good about it already i think my old one was actually making me feel like crap in the end spending so much money on it and getting nothing out of it. So i went to the car yard on saturday and looked at the cars they had and placed a holding deposit on the van. My family day carer lent me 1200 and my ex lent me 700 for the deposit so was great to get a helping hand from them both i really appreciate their help. So i went back to the car yard on Monday  to pay the deposit and do all the paper work needed. The van had to go in for a rewrite of the r.w.c. and they dropped it when they were bringing it down of the hoist and they cracked the windscreen so i had to wait until yesterday to get it and drive it i was very excited. Dont worry Alana i will put a pick up for you tomorrow night so you can get jealous lol lol pmsl. I hope you enjoyed the phone call you received from my mobile today from Jaya too lol lokl she is getting too clever with my phone cheeky little thing. Well anyway i got my van yesterday and it feels like a limo to me compared to my old one. The kidss were so excited when i pulled up in the drive way last night with it they all go : Mum that is a cool car: lol lol They could not wait for this morning for me to drop them at school and kinder it was like we never had a car in our lives lol lol.

Bj went for his learners today and passed i am so proud of him he did it all on his own he got 78% he was excited to. I had to get a friend to take him as i had to take Tiffany for an x-ray on her mouth as i took her to the dentist yesterday and they were concerned as one of her baby eye teeth has not yet come out but the other one has. So they needed an x-ray to see if the adult one was under the gum somewhere as they could not see or feel it at all. So she has to go back next Monday afternoon and take the x-rays with us then they will let me know what is going on.

Today i was running here and there i am so tired too but now i have got a second wind. I have my neighbours two children staying tonight as they have to go to Mildura early in the morning so they are staying here and then they go home in the morning and get ready for school. Thank god for that lol lol

Kristy has to come down tomorrow too as some idiot she went out with years ago and his g/f and another of his friends have gotten restraining orders on her and if she does not come down they will put a warrant out for her arrest. It sucks big time she is stressing out and i told her not to worry too much as they will get thrown out cos all they have said is nothing but lies, that is all they know but one of them has never ever met Kristy before so work that out. Barry her fiancee is coming with her they are driving down so should be here sometime in the afternoon. I get to see Skye again anyway yayayay.

I have my friend here and we are just chatting about everything and anything. I hope you are all having a great night and i will blog tomorrow night and put a pic of my van up especially for Alana lol lol yes i know i am being cheeky now but ya love me for it lol pmsl.

Well better get going and i oromise to blog tomorrow night about my day.

Take care and hugs to you all

Michelle

xxxooo

Hey everyone i know i have not been around the last week but it has been mayhem here.

I have been going to my physc every Tuesday so he can see how i am going and i am happy to say i am at the moment going well and yes i am finally happy during the day at least.

Four of the kids went to a c.h.i.p.s. camp this weekend and my mum took the younger two on Friday morning so i had no young ones at all until today. Yes very quiet here thos weekend which is very weird to say the least. I dropped the 4 going to camp in Berwick at about 5pm Friday and they had a sausage sizzle and played games. They all had a buddy each well Cody had two. He thought that was great and they all left with smiles on their faces which made me feel better about them going. I said goodbye to them all and told then i would see them today after luch sometime 4pm i had to be there to collect them.

Last night we had friends pver for drinks and i was the only sober oneout of them all as i am on meds i do not drink unless i feel like 1 or 2 cos i have found that it makes me more depressed. They were all so funny i had a very sore stomach from laughing so hard and for so long at them being stupid lol lol. I had two of my friends a male and a female playing twister dance dvd it was hillariuos as. They could not even do half of the moves to it all. They were jumping and swinging their arms and legs everywhere i even got my video camera out and videoed them that is how funny they were. Then my battery went flat so i got the digital camera out and took pics i will have to post some so you can see how funny they looked in still pics. They did not go home until after 2am this morning so by that time i was worn out big time. I had taken mt medication at about 1am when i normally take them at about 9pm every night. oh well it was a great night i have not laughed so much in ages so was worth it all.

Today was very quiet woke at 8am so i got up rather than lie in bed as i would have gotten a headache if i did. My mum brought the younger two home at about 10am this morning which was earlier than i aske dher to bring them home lol lol but it was good as i was soooooo bored any way. At about 3.30pm i left home to go and pick up the happy campers that were arriving back at 4pm. So i got there at about 3.50pm as itis not that far where i had to pck them up from anyway. They arrived back and they all had massive smiles on their faces and ran to me with arms wide open and gave me hugs and kisses. They all had to go to the hall to get another surpise mind you they already had a bag full of things like teddies, photos, beanies and the boys had wooden craft things they have ot put together then paint, Ashlee  got a scrapbooking thing. They were all so happy and the buddies told me that they were very well behaved which i knew they would be as this is the first time they have been away without me apart from family day care. So when they went into the hall they were given a football for the boys and a basketball for the girls they were even more excited now. We went outside with their buddies and played football and basketball for about half an hour or so. Then i decided it was time ot head home as i had to cook tea for everyone and i was starving, so the buddies helped me take all the bags etc.... to the car. The kids got in after giving their buddies cuddles and telling them they would see them in 2 weeks when they have a campers reunion. Got in the car and drove home. I was glad to get home. Cooked the tea and kids got into their pjs. Once tea was cooked and eaten it was time for kids to go to bed it was getting late and they were all really tired. I tidied up and went next door to have a cuppa with my neighbours to get out for a little bit. Came home and thought i would jump on and do a quick blog did not realise what the toime was lollol lol loll lol lol

Tomorrow i am going to look at a new van as i have nbever really had a decent one. Anyone knows anyone in vic that is looking for a van that seats 8 i have one for sale. I am so counting down tikl tomorrow about the van as i went on Saturday to have alook at them and i have placed a holding deposit on one so keeping my fingers crossed and my legs too lol lol

Well better get going it is getting late and my eyes are oing blurry lo, lol

OI Hope EveryOne has a fantastic week and i will blog soon

HUgs

Michelle

xxx ooo

Hi all my friends here. I am going well now Physc has given me new medication to make me feel happy lol lol i call it the happy pill so am actually feeling heaps better already and was trialling it for a week but saw him today and got a script for it. So i will be happy and chirping for a while longer lol lol hah ha ha.

Well yesterday Cody came home from school upset and said " mum i may have a black eye in the morning!" I asked him "Why?" he told me he had been bullied at school by three girls they held him and smashed his face into a tree a few times. Not happy at all.

Woke up this morning and Cody was in a mood and a half and the other  kids came running to me saying "Mum Cody has a purple eye!"  So i got up and had a look at it oh my god it was purple too. He was very embarressed about it and i told him not to stress too much as i would go to school with him and let his teacher know. Harley was so very cute with Cody this morning he made Cody a nutella sandwhich for breakfast sooooo cuuuutttteee! So off to the schoo i go at 8.30 as Tyson had an appointment at 9am about his eyes. I saw the councillor when i got there and told him what had happened yesterday and that Cody would be there in his office to see him soon. I waited for Codys teacher to arrive at the class room so i could fill her in a bit more than she already knew. Cody was very upset and started to cry while telling her exactly who and what had happened  to him. She is so very caring with him even though some days he can be a little horror and give her a hard time all day, So she was so very upset and angry with it all and especially when she actually saw his eye. She told Cody that she would be dealing with the girls and they would be getting into a bit more trouble than they thought they were already in yesterday as one got time out and her name on the board. The teacher then took Cody to see the welfare officer so he could have a chat. I then took Tyson for his eye test and he has to have new lenses in his glasses as the ones he has are only half the strength he actually needed but we had to do it slow not all at once it would have been too much for his eyes. So next wednesday morning i have to take his glasses to the optometrist and leave them ythere so they can fit the new lenses then go back with Tyson after school and collect them. He has to wear his glasses all the time in class now but not outside and at home i have told him he is not to watch tv unless he has them on this was it will encourage hime to wear them more and get in the routine of it all. So took Tyson back to school and he had computers so i reminded him 3 times in front of the teacher about his glasses and that he has to wear them in class too. He waved me goodbye and went and sat at a computer to do whatever the others were doing. He loves computers and really likes going on it at home too.

After i dropped him off i went to the bank to get some money out so i could get food for tonight i was getting my friend to make her yummy scallop potatoes i could eat them all day if i had enough lol lol. I also had apricot chicken and vegies it was really yummy.

I dropped the kids at family day carers as she is having them tonight rather than friday night as they are going away in a camp for the weekend. They are going to have so much fun. My mum is going to come down on Friday morning and collect Caydn and Jaya and take them to her house for the weekend. I will be child free apart from the  two teenagers but they are no trouble really they can look after themselves.

I have rung Alana and given her a good laugh to cheer her up as i do so well. Now i am going to go make a warm milo and wait till 10pm to collect Bj from work. I have to go out in the cold night air i am sure he wants me to get sick lol lol

Well will blog soon and let you all know how the kids go on the weekend too.

Take care and remember a smile and a laugh go a long way in life even if you are not feeling up to it!! My words i say to myself each morning.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Hi everyone well i woke at 6.45am this morning so used to getting up to the noise of my kids but it was ever so peaceful this morning as they were at their family day carers for the night last night. So i thought nah i will go back to bed so had a smoke and a drink of coke and head back to bed for little bit more sleep. I woke at 9am lo lol lol. I had to get BJ up for work as he started at 10.15 today and finished at 3.30. Tidied up a little bit then my friend came over with her two children for the day with her partner and we burnt some dvds for ourselves and the children that i have here and she had at home that i do not have. I was pretty relaxed today which shoclked me a bit today as i was so down last night and all day yesterday. So that was good i really relaxed heaps today. Went down the street got things i needed and smokes of course lol lol. Came back home it was freezing today i sat inside for the rest of the afternoon until the kids came home anyway. They were really good when they came home today which is a shock they are normally wound up big time. They sat in the lounge with their dad and watched a dvd they enjoyed this heaps. So while they were doing that i got some more me time not get it very often. Well Tiffany has gone to the Blue Light disco tonight with some of her friends oh i remember the days when i used to go to these lol lol seems so very long ago. pmsl.

Bj has been expelled from his course as he was not doing as he was told and was making smoke bombs in the classrooms as well with some other kids so as he had already been suspended before for three days he got expelled this time so i was not what you would call happy at all. Now he has been working alot of night times at red rooster so am happy he has gotten extra shifts gets him out of my hair as he has real attitude at the moment and thinks he knows everything there is to know about life right now.

Well i better get going as i have to go out in the cold and collect Tiffany and her friends from the disco at 9pm.

I will try and blog again tomorrow so you know i am ok.

Thinking of you all

Hugs

Michelle xxx ooo

Hi all my near and dear friends. I know it has been about 5 days since i blogged but i have been trying to get my head straight. I have been really down again and am having trouble getting back up to the top where i should be all the time. My physc has given me a new med to try i told him i wanted a happy pill so he gave me one to try. It works a little bit but not like i want to be feeling. I am actually missing my self now a days it is like i am lost somewhere and cant find my way back to it all. I have no energy to do much and feel like hiding away. I hate feeling like this it really upsets me more every time i get like this. I really wish my depression would be gone when i wake one morning then i would know what it feels like to be normal again lol lol . I am typing through tears and feel like i have to get bac here so that you all know how i am going for those of you who only see here and not chat to on phone or msn lately. I apoligise for not being here much lately but i feel i will just make you all upset knowing how i am feeling and not being able to really do much apart from leave kind words in my lounge for me to see and have a smile at. I know you all care and i enjoy logging in every now and again to see all the lovely lounge visits from my friends near and far. Well i just wanted to check in lol lol and see how things are round here. I miss you all and as soon as i feel a bit better i will be back in full swing and then no one will know what hit them lol lol. I will be back to myslef visiting you all and leaving graffitti in your lounges so you all know i am thinking of you as well.

Thank you to everyone here on Minti that  are my friends i miss ya all and will be back!!!!!!!!

Well better get going have a massive headache hence Alana that why i am up so late he he ha ha!!!! Not normally awake at this timeof the night. lol lol lol lol I will log in tomorrow and maybe leave a message or two for my friends who are really close to my heart you all know who you are so i wont name names ok?? Thank you all again for listening to or should i say reading how down i am. lol lol lol lol

I hope everyone has a great weekend and enjoy yourselves i will be staying inside it going to be very cold and wet here morrow so will be near heater all day relaxing till younger ones get home from Family day carers as they stayed there tonight. I do not know what i would do without her sometimes she is a blessing to my family.

Oh i almost forgot my 4 primary schoolers are going away next weekend from friday till sunday on a camp to Phillip Island with a heap of other kids and leaders(buddies). They will get one buddy each so will enjoy having one on one time with someone special for the weekend. My neighbour across the street organised it for them as she knows all about my depression and the fact that their dad was on drugs she is so lovely for helping and doing this for my children. They are so excited already so it will be different for them not having me or being at their carers next weekend. She will get a well deserved break too.

Well i am off to bed now good night to you all and chat soon!

Hugs and many more

Michelle xxx ooo

 

Hi all well today started off really well, i woke up at 8am slept in not the norm for me usually up at 7am. So got out of bed and was bombarded by the kids with all their presents they had bought for me and they cooked me toast with vegimite and cheese as well. It was soggy but the thought was there. They also made me a warm milo for me this morning.so cute they were. I opened all their presents and they were all excited with what they bought me. Cody got me a mobile phone holder that says " Best mum ever!", Ashlee got me a letter writing set with a calculator and a pen with it, Harley got me a bath scrubber sponge and a soap, Tyson bought me a pot of flowers, Caydn and Jaya gave me a "Mummys Care Box" it is really sweet it is wooden and has two fairies on it as i like fairies there is a poem inside that reads:

Mummys Care Box

A Toothpick- to remind you to stick with it

A rubber band _ it reminds you to be flexible, and also to help you stretch beyond your expectations

Smarties_ to help you on days when you do not feel smart

Minties- for moments like these

Lifesaver- to remind you that everyone needs help once in a while

A paper clip- to hold it all together

Confetti- to help you celebrate the good times

A rose- to remind you to take time to smell the flowers

Bandaid- to fix things when they are broken

This care box was made with love, to help.you through those tough times when i may not be at my best, and neither are you

But i always love you mum

From Caydn and Jaya

I almost cried when i was reading it. I also got a new electric fry pan as the one i had was getting old.

Today i was putting the washing on and Harley said to me " Mum what are you doing?: I replied "Putting the washing on why?" He then turned to me and said ever so cutely " Mummy you should not be doing that as it is mothers day and you are meant to rest and do nothng today!" I replied well i have to do it mate as no one else knows how to use the washing machine. He replied "Oh ok!' then preceeded to go and tell all the other kids off for not helping me. How cute is that?

Kristy has gone home now and i am missing Skye and her already. They rang me today to wosh me Happy mothers day and it was great to hear them again.I also received a message on my mobile from my other Daughter that i have had the trouble with and i do not speak to her wishing me a happy mothers day. What the hell she acts like she has done nothing wrong and that all is good but it is not.

Tonight i have a friend here visiting and we are just chatting about everything. This is the friend who is moving to Darwin soon, she is like a dughter to me and she sent me a message for mothers day as well it was so sweet of her she bought me a necklace with a mum on it for mothers day she has nothing to do woth her mum as she is a bitch!

Well that is it for tonight i will blog soon.

I hope everyone had a wonderful mothers day and got lots of nice pressies too.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo 

 

 

Woke at 7am this morning got up showered ready for the day as the kids stayed at family day carers ;last night so they were dropped of at 8.25am this morning.  Kids came home got them of toschool and the day carer took Caydn to kinder for me. Kristy and i went up the street to the shopping centre to go to kmart i bought Jaya a pair of leggings, top and a hoodie jacket style long cardigan plus a ball as she loves balls heaps. Jaya reminds me of Tyson when it comes to balls as he loved them as well. We came home and put the girls to sleep then went ot the supermarket to get stuff i needed for tea etc....

I was not happy this morning as my car is playing up again it would not start so i has=d ti get my ex to come and jump start it so he stayed here and watched the girls while they were sleeping. Then went up street and my car would not start again so he had t come and jump start it again.. I am going to go to the shop where i get it repaired and tell them as it is only a new battery.So hopefully they will figure out why it keeps doing it i think it may be the fact that it is not secured properly and when i go over a bump it hits the metal cover and shorts out and that in turn stuffs the battery each time. so will see how i go when i go to see them tomorrow afternoon. I hate not having my car to get in and drive as at the moment i feel like just getting in my car and driving away to nowhere land lol lol if there is such a place i wish there was.

Well tomorrow my mum is coming to get Skye for the noight as Kristy, a friend oif mine Di and myslef are going to Bingo for the niht just something different to do for a change. I am sick of sitting inside these walls and doing nothing at noights when i do not have the kids.

Well better get going as i have to pick Bj up from work at 9pm and friends are ringing me to work out what is happening tomorrow and tomorrow night as Caydn has a special friends day at kinder for mothers day.

Hugs to you all and chat soon xxx ooo

Hi all well this is my Grand daughter Skye. She has grown so much lately and she is os very cute too! She is cute like her nan! lol lol

Another pic of Skye stealing my can of coke lol

 

 

Hi all well i apoligise for not being around much lately i have just not been up to much at all. Depression has reared its ugly head the last few weeks and i am doing my best to deal with it best as i can while looking after kids as well. Thank you all for being understanding when i am not around. I did sms Alana and let her know so she did not stress too much about me. Bel idid not sms you as i do not want to place unnesessary stress on you by worrying about me. Sorry you are a re wonderful friend and i know that you are not well either so i am thinking of you each day. Well last week was a busy one with kids and everything else/ My physc has upped one of my meds to see if i can get up over the hill i am trying to get out of a black hole at the moment. He is really good as i can tell him exactly how i am feling and he understands thank goodness for that. I have a little laugh with him every now and again so i fel really relaxed with this physc unlike one i had seen in previous years who blamed anyone and anything for the way i was. It is not any one or anythings fault it is just the way my mind and brain interact that makes me like i am. I really miss each of you as much as the next and always know i can rely on my friends here for any support i need at any time. I thank you all heaps for being my friends and i love you all dearly.

Last Tuesday i was called up to  the Primary School as my 7yr old son Cody  was being a righ pain in the rear to his teacher and any one that spoke to him. He was diobeying teachers and just being a total shit head lol. Noy funny as when i went down in the afternoon i waited outside the school grounds for them all and Cody was brought out to me by the welfare officer of the school. Noy happy at this time mind you and he came around to my window and told me that codys' behaviour did not improve throughout the afternoon and had gotten himself a inter school suspension mind you he is only in grade 2 at the moment. He got in big trouble from me and i told him he can forget going to the zoo on Wednesday with his classmates as his behaviour is not acceptable at all and at anytime. He was angry with me but i told him well you want to play up and give cheek to teachers you lose not me. He did his suspension at the office the next day and i had gone to see his teacher in the morning to show her a letter he had written the noght before apoligising for his behaviour and that he would never never ever do it again. She was impressed with this and told him that she would keep it as proof for when he is naughty again if he is. I am hoping that he has learnt his lesson this time and does not do it again at all.Well om Thursday mrning i rang his teacher as he had a smirky attitude that morning so i just wanted to make her aware of this. She imformed me that they had started a behaviour chart for him  this was to see if he was good enough to go to the zoo if he was good for a certain amount of time. I had already told her that he was not going as this would only be rewarding his bad behaviour in class and in the school ground as well. The day he got into trouble for his behaviour he was also throwing items at kids and hitting them with a bat so some parents had to move their children away from him so they did not get hurt. Not happy with him. I received a phone call from the receptionist at the school on Friday asking me if he was going to the zoo i told her that i had told him and the teachers that he was not going due to what he had done the previous days. She said to me that that was fair enough and what i say goes.No one should be able to go against my word and i agree too. So he is not going. Since this behaviour and the lecture i gave him and a few others as well he has been pretty good at school and home. He has been cleaning and sweeping as well as stacking and unstacking my dishwasher well that still does not get him to the zoo i told him. His teacher has now started doing a communication book so i know how he has been at school. Besides all this he is seeing cousellors etc... to see if we can find out why he is behaving like he is. I hope we work it out soon that is all i can say.

My 8yr old daughter Ashlee has also got into a bit of trouble with me as i have found out she has not been eating at lunch times she is saying she is not hungry. I rang her teacher on Friday to get her to see if she ate her lunch that day as she had 2 saladas and fruit as well as snacks. While i was talking to her teacher she could see that Ashlee was not eating so she got of the phone and went to see what she had. When she came home she handed me her diary as the teacher had written a note for me int here. When i read it i was so angry as she had written that all Ashlee had in her lunchbox was a piece of fruit no sign of saladas at all. She checked her bag, bins, locker but they were no where to be found. I do not know what she did with them and i asked her and she told me they were in her lunch box when she got her snack out earlier that day. I think she did something with them when she got her snack out but she will not tell me. I do not know what to do as this is stressing me out at the moment too. She is only thin and weighs 23kilos yes 23 kilos and she is 8 almost 9(in July)! What do i do?? Ashlee had to go to the drs today as she had an ear ache last night and this morning her ear was leaking so she has a burst ear drum and has drops and antibiotics for this that is when i found out how mch she weighs. I can almost swear last time i weighed her she was about 28kilos somewhere ther anyway.

Well my eldest daughter is down for a week today with my gorgeous grandaughter Skye. My how she has grown since i saw her last. When i picked them up from the station this morning Skye saw me and smiled i put my arms out and she came sttraight to me. She remembered me Yay Yay. I will post pics as soon as i get a chance i promise there will be lots of her and my puppy too lol. The puppy is going well and has doubled in size he is a reall boof head as we all say so i think we will be calling him boofa lol lol ! Tomorrow my Son Bj turns 16 so we are having friends over and having a little party for him as well that is why Kristy came down to surprise him for his birthday too. He got suspended to from his course for three days last week as him and another boy have been fighting with each other for a while now and they decided to suspend the both of them so again i was not impressed with him. Kids seem to really be going of their heads in this house of late maybe i should join them as they seem to be having more fun than me lol lol lol!

Well today i did not do much as we had friends over last night for birthday drinks for one of my friends but i did not drink as i did not want to risk it with my meds good idea. I drove my friends and their two children home at about 12 so did not actually take my medication until about 12.20am not a good thing as when i woke at 8.15am yes slept in as no young ones to wake me as they were at family day carers for the night as they are each week, I felt like i had been on a drinking binge due to my medication being taken so late last night and the effects were still with me when i woke up ggggrrrrr.

Well i better get going as i have most likely made all yours eyes cross eyed now due to writing so much i apoligise for this as my eyes are blurring now too lol lol.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend and i will chat to you all soon,

Hugs always Michelle and Family xxx ooo