Well i have been so busy taking Caydn to appointments with o.t, speech therapist and many more that i have not had time to blog or even scratch myself. On Friday a friend of mine Brooke went to Tasmania to meet Alana and stayed tyhere fpor the weekend as she needed a break i am so grateful to Alana for helping her as she does not know her and was really good about it all. So i dropped Brooke of at the airport on Fridfay noight with one message have fun and give Alana a big hug from me. I pohoned to see that she had arrived safely as she had never been in an airoplane before but she said she did ok and had arrived and was already having fun. I was so jealous as i wanted to go with her but was unable to find someone to look after my children for the 4 days that iBrooke went for. So i came home with the kids and my phone was running red hot so i told the kids to tell anyone who called for me to say i had gone to Tasmania lol lol pmsl, the phone ran red hot all night. As Alana had not said whom was going to visit her and everyone thought it was mer so i went along with it loll lol everyone was sure it was me going to visit Alana so for those of you who rang it wasnt me!

So i had a quiet night Friday noght with the kids and then on Saturday i thought to myslef stuff this and rang the kids dad to ask him if he would mind coming over and looking after the kids for the night so i could surprise Alana and fly there lol lol i am sneaky. So we rang Alana and told her that Brookes brother was going to bew flying into wynard not sure if that is how it is spelt airport on a cesna with a friend of mnine as he had been in a bot of trouble and was gfoing to stay with his mum who hjas just moved to Tasmania. Alana said that would be fine so the arrangements had been made for this.

Sunday morning camne and i got dropped off to a friends place as the kids dad was taking them all to the snow and i was flying to tassie on a small secna with a f4riend to surpise alana when she arrived she would be expecting brookes brither lol lol

So i get there and Alana and Brooke looked really shocked i am sure the whole of the tiny airport heasrd me and trhey did too lol lol I was very loud and did shout out surprise its me the crazy one pmsl. Alana did not know what to do. So we get back to Alanas place and she is still cursing me for surprising her and every one else cos Brooke did not even know wthat i was going there lol lol even more of a surprise. I had so much fun we went sightseeing for a little bit and then went back home to enjoy a lovely roast tea that alana had prepared for us. It was the vbest roast i had eaten in ages apoart from my own loll ol

So Monday morning we leave Aklanas to get to the airport to come home Alana was not reaLLY WANting us to go but we had to get back. Even though i only stayed for a night it felt like a week.

Alana and her family are so very special and a laugh and joker too. We had plenty of laughs and our stomachs were that sore we were still aching whe we got to the airport lol lol

So we flew home and came back to reality. Brooke had so much fun she went to marlets and saw lots of lovely waterfalls as well. i managed to get afew pics which i will put up when i put on my computer. I am planning on going back there soon for a few days so i can spend a bit more time with Alana and her family.

Therre is someone i thought was a friend of mine tnat i have not spoken to or heard from in months that i have just found out from some of my friends that has been backstabbing me and saying that i do not have care of my children since they are in Family day care a couple of days a week. I would like this so called friend to live my life even for a week to see exactly what it is like to be a single mum suffering depression and having no family support and the kids daqd only coming around once in a while. This per5son has a husband and only hads a couple of children to look after. I keep my house clean  my kids are fed i do not whinge ata ll about my kife and i i always say to people everyone lives their lives differently and no one should judge what p[eople decide to do with their children under no circumstances. This frien did also have her children in day care at one stage but i guess that is ok for them but not for me. This person whom i thought was a friend i have helped out a couple of times and asked for nothing in return. i only ask that my friends be there if i need a little support or just for a chat and laugh even. I never ask my friends late at night to come and look after my children if an emergency should arise i deal with it my way on my own. This so called friend once told me that she does not like backstabing people or people who backstab others but yet i find out that she is doing exactly these things that she says she does not like. At least have the courage to tell me tomy face what you have to say not behind my back. To this i say they are nothing but guttless and i do not need friends like this in my life that are going to try and bring me down with my deporession any further. Sorry but i had tohave this out  of my sysytem cos it is really pissing meoff at the that MOMENTsomeone i enjoyed as a friend could be this low and say these awful things about me.

Hugs to MYREAL FRIENDS!! XXX OOO