Hi all well it has been a funny week so far for me. The kids are in school holidays and are trying very hard to keep themselves busy as they can. They have been normal kids fighting and arguing over the smallest of thimgs as kids do at times. Other times they have been very good and co operating with me. They have been helping around the house by doing chores for which i pay them a little bit of money for their money boxes. The younger two are thouroughly enjoying their new day care after al the hassles of their old day carer and what happened. I will not go into detail about it here as i do not think it is the right place for it. I am going well and have t go to court next Tuesday in regards to a family matter you could say. I have been trying to stay home a bit as my anxiety has hit a high note at the moment so home is the best place for me. Tomorrow i have to travel outside of my safety zone and take Tiffany to the dental hospital in the city so that should be fun not!!!!!! I do not cope too well with going outside my safety zone. I can go certain places but it needs t be within my safety area.

Tonight i only have the two teenagers and the younger two as the other 4 school age are at friends of mine places for a couple of days to give me a bit of a break. One of them is an older friend of mine and she lives on her own so she is happy to have the boys as company and they were lookng frward t it too. The other two are at Brookes for a night or two(pudgygirl06) they are helping her oack as she is moving to a new house closer to me yay yay she will only be about 4minute drive from me if that when she moves on the weekend. So i am going over there durng the week to help her pack and clean the help her move n the weekend as well. She is s excited about moving in a way as she only found out today that she gt one f the house s she applied for. It will be really good for her to be closer to me as she really is a fantastic person Kelz can vouch for that!

Well today i went to see my psycologist  after a few months. He wrote me a really good letter fr court next week and even gave me a ame for part of my problems well not really problems my depression and behaviours. One is paranoid personallity doisorder and then also many other personality traits as well so now i am a bt happier having a bit more insight into what is goimng on nin my head ol ol ol lol

Well that is all for now i am getting a bit tired will blog soon!

HUgs to all  xxx ooo

Hi all well it has been a while since i did a blog. I have been so very busy with all the appointments with Caydn and also Jaya now. School holidays are here now and it is going to be very interesting as my children no longer go to family day care. The younger two go to a brand new child care centre close to home and they are loving it there. They only started there on Monday this week and already Caydn is showing his true self to them. Behaviour wise i mean. He has started hiding under tables and throwing chairs that is just him i did pre warn them before he started, so they were aware of what his antics were and hopw he acan get at times. Jaya had an eye test the other day and she now also needs glasses to wear and she needs them on all the time. I do not pick them up until Friday she looks so cute in them as when we tried them on she wanted to take them there and then but i told her they had to get fixed for her first. She was happy with this. The frame is pink and purple pattern and really suits her to a tea. My eldest daughter is also expecting again some time next year she is due not sure when as yet. I am so excited at the moment as they may be coming down for xmas this year. It will be the first xmas i get to haver my grand daughter around for. I really hope that they do make it down as this xmas will be extra special with them here to celebrate.

The kids are all going well and there have been dramas in their lives the last month or so but i will not go into it here. My very close friends know what has been havppening and they have been very supportive.

The other day i had a really bad day i was that tired i slept for 14 hours straight lucky i had a friend here that stayed the noight and she was the one who told me to go to bed and get some sleep apparently i looked like i had not slept in weeks. One minute i was not too bad the next i was out cold as soon as i hity the pillow. I woke up the next morning at 6.30am feeling a bit better than the day before and today i had a relaxing day at home with the kids. We sat and watched movies all dasy and they enjoyed the quality time together. There was no fighting or arguing betweenh them at all until later in the day when they were all getting tired.

I cooked tea while they sat on my berd and watched dora with Jaya as she has now got a thing with dora it does not matter how small a picture of dora is she will find it guaranteed. and she needs glasses??? lol lol I know it is not funny about her wearing glasses but to be able to see dora in a small picture is amazing for her age. Jaya has grown so much in the last few montrhs she is talking heaps and is very clear with her speech too. Her and Caydn are like two peas in a pod where one goes the other goes and Caydn stands up for her if the others annoy her. She know s that she can do just about anything to him ans he will stand there and take it but if someone else does it he goes off his head big time.

The last month has been very difficult with everything happening all at once but i admit i have had my bad days and my good days. Myself and my family are strong and can handle anything that is thrown our way we have been here for each other through tough times and good times too. Friends are also being a great help being there if i need to talk about anything and even just for a chat.

I want to thank my dear friends for everything they have done to help me in the last few weeks.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo