Well it is Monday and all the older kids are back at school. The chat of where are we for christmas from my neices and nephews is happening already. Wouldn't it be great in a perfect world if we could all spend Christmas together for the kids sake is the thought that runs through my head. I can imagine it now me and Ken the kids dad and his wife and the kids mum and her ummm boyfriend this week. ken and the kids dad get on alright me and the kids step mum get alone fairly well I actually introduced them. Ken and the kids mum just cant be in the same room for any longer than 5 minutes without fighting over something she has done or said to the kids. The kids mum and dad can't be in the same room at all not without trying to kill each other. The kids mums boyfriend is a nice guy and we all seem to be able to get along with him well which is a good thing the kids mum and I can be nice to each other for awhile for the kids sake but there is only so many times i can hear from her that I am not doing this right with her kids or not doing that right. i try not to fight with her in front of the kids but........ I am trying harder. I am quickly broken out of this dream of us all having chrissie together as I realize all the things that could go wrong and realize the courts knew what they were doing sort of when they made the orders. LOL So this year Come Christmas Eve  John and Tiana will go to their dads in brisbane while corrie and Shyenne stay with us for santa to come hehe. At 10 am Christmas morning there will be a change over at gatton for us to have the whole family for christmas day all seven of them together after 3 years yay. Then 10 am boxing day the 3 kids will go to their mums well in a perfect world they would but as the 2 eldest have made it so clear to me they will not be going they are sick of all the rubbish their mum puts on them. My husband and I are still trying to work out if we are going to let her have Corrie unsupervised this year as she is sooo iradic with her behaviour and I am not sure how Corrie will go with that. The welfare knew what they were doing when they took him from her.  I know she does carry on alot and puts alot on them but I cant help feeling a little sorry for her I could not imagine in my wildest dreams what it would be like to have my kids not want to spend time with me at all. No matter how many times I try to fix it it falls on deaf ears she just tells me that they are her kids and they have to accept her for what she is and what she chooses to do with her life. They have to understand that not all her boyfriends will work out and that she has needs and needs to share a bed with all of them. Like a 12 and 13 year old can understand that. Shy just goes with the flow she is happy for any sort of attention from her mum. she will even come home from access with her mum and call me names and tell me she hates me just to get her mums approval(rough I know but she is only 7)  Most families plan all year and look forward to christmas as a time of year of joy happiness and family being together and we do too but I am already thinking about the stresses that go along with our christmas.