Well today is the anniversary of the removal of my brain tumour...I thought it was yesterday but just realised it was today so I can feel happy about it all again...4 years no signs of it coming back...I was so lucky and I still am lucky...Four years seems so long ago now...It hink having the tumour made me look at life different...I know it has chnged me in my abilities... to do what I used to do so easy now comes hard....But now I have a different outlook on life....My thoughts are you just never know what tomorrow will bring...My thoughts on life now are dont sweat the small stuff live today as if it was your last with no regrets and never ever go to bed angry with anyone...Tell the people you love that you do love them daily....Never let them walk away thinking your angry...You never know what the world will deal you...It has a habit of dealing you a dud hand occasionally...Now onto my bad....I was doing some cleaning around in Aidans room told him if he didn't do it I would and came across a big stash of medication he was supposed to have been taking...Seems he feels he no longer wants to take it.....He is nearly 17 What can i do?? nothing thats what...So I am buckling myself in for the ride of my life with him its been a week...Ever since his psych has been ill he has been on a rollercoaster ride well now after seeing the stupid social worker at the hospital he is even worse....Had an appointment booked with a new psych yesterday a private one and he was happy to go until we pulled up...He was mucking around and acting happy BUT when we pulled up he started to abuse me and tell me he wasn't going in...He ended up taking off on me and the psych invited me in to have a chat with her...She is fantastic...She really wants to work with him and see him regular...We talked to him again after the hour i spent with her and he agreed he would see her but if he didn't like her then he would not go back...See the social worker at the hospital told him he is an alcoholic because he binge drinks on the weekends...And he should go to aloteen...or whatever its called...He is not an alcoholic...He does binge drink but not an alcoholic...He goes without it if he has no money...He likes drinking but it helps him to forget he says....Mind you when I try to explain to him that it is a depressant and it will still be there when he sobers up I know nothing....Oh well I better go and keep trying to get him to go to school today...He has already refused and he is on a roll this morning....So take care all..

Luv to all

Angie