Well tomorrow we have hospital agai for Ashton. We are just speaking to a paed about the ultrasound and if anything was found. The sonographer did say she couldnt see anything but we'll just have to wait and see.

Ive also got to get a car seat bolt. We bought 2 carseats, 1 for each car but im gonna take one out and have a bolt handy so i can go out with him like with my mum or sister. On tueday me and Channy are going for a looka round and on Wednesday ims tarting play group at the playgroup she goes too. Ive been there a few times and even tho Ashto cant do much, well nothing really lol its still good to get out of the house.

Goran already knew i got him a Gold bracelet for fathers day but i didnt give it to him. He really doesnt deserve ita t the momet and when he starts acting like a dad he can have it. Not until 9pm did he help me with the baby and he only fed him a bottle, i seriously hope he gets over this online ppoker game and starts to step up to what really matters before he loses it.

Wel heres a pic of Ashton from Satrday at 7weeks old.

Hope evryone has a great week!!

Dannii xxo

hello to all!!!!

Ashton had his ultrasound on wednesday and boy did he hate it, i felt so bad for him :( i dont know how needles are goning to go. Well as you know sonographers arent allowed tog ive out any information but she could see how concerned i was. She told me they must of done it for a precaution b/c she cant see anything wrong. We go back to thehospital on Monday to speak to a paed and i find out then if anything was found. While im there i need to ask about his belly button. There still is this blister like lump poking out. 1 health nurse told me its a granumola sp?, a doctor told me its an infectiona nd to use bedadiene and another health nusre told me its an infection and to use bepanthem on it. So who am i to listen too?? so i think its best i ask the paed..

Umm.. what else lol....hmmm... hahahaha, ok silly but i think Ashton is teething, i have posted a question up here on minti asking if its possible but since ive done some research and it sure is possible. Some babies are born with teeth and alot of mums have said in forums on the net they have had there babies cut teeth by 8weeks!!!! Ashton is 7 weeks today (6th sep)... He is very irritable, sucking fists or anything thatgoes near his mouth, drooling alot, crying alot, has nasal congestion ( a big sign of teething along with flu like symptoms which is funny cos i have been saying his gotten sick from me) and to top it off when i look at his gums the top left side and bottom gums are white and rigged and feel hard when i press them, and he cries. His way to young to have bonjela so ive been using panadol when he gets bad. Tonight he was screaming for 2hrs straight gave himself a temperature, i finally settled him an hour ago which was 2am lol, now his in bed with  my neice fast asleep.

Goran and me are still not 100% his just so lazy and let a computer game take over his life. He doesnt do anything, hardly talks to me unless its abusing me cos ive asked for help. Not only is Ashton 7weeks old but goran has bathed, changed, dressed Ashton in 7weeks PMSL!!!!!! Its his loss, Ashton will know me not him. I can tell you, he keeps going, Ashton and I are going, id rather be single, at least i can do what i have to do without the added stress.

Tomorrow imh oping its a nice day, i wanna go to the market. Dont know what for, i guess just the fresh air and some excersice and something to do. My luck Goran will sit on teh comp and wont go. That happens ill be going ot my  mums cos she siad she and my step dad will take me if he doesnt. Times like these i wish i had of got of my fat ass and got my license, i still havnt even gone for my l's, i know ill pass but im one of those people who are embarrest to fail and will punch myself in the head for it.

Well gonna have a geez around here for abit lol while i drink my coffee then go to bed.

ENJOY YOUR WEEKEND EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

Dannii xxo

Its 5.45am here and im sitting here enjoying my coffee and some peace finally lol.

Ashton is awake but he is in the loungeroom watching cartoons lol... Goran didnt go to work today. I woke him up at 5am to get up and go but he siad he felt sick and was to tired. He rang is boss and told him he isnt coming in, i dont think his boss believed he was sick cos he always says he is and he really is lol..

I had a sleep from 10pm till 1am and i feel good now, I also slept till 3pm yesterday lol, just got up inbetween to feed ashton and change him, he has been really tired too cos we are both sick. I was suppose to do alot yesterday but i slept so i hope i can get out and do it today.

My mum came over yesterday and bought my cold and flu medicine so ive started that now and hopefully it goes away soon. My body is just so drained, i feel like ive always got blood rushing to my head. From 30weeks pregnant i was suppose to take ostelin and keep on taking it 6months after the birth, i havnt touched one tablet, im very forgetful, probly why i feel so sick. The ostelin is a vitamin d supplement which also contains vitamin k which i need cos i dont get enough sun and i nee dthe calcium cos i dont drink milk and hardly eat any dairy products.

I thought Ashtons ultrasound for his kidneys was on the 4th but they sent out the referal and its the 3rd, im going to ring them to double check. Then he has his follow up appointment on the 8th and on the 16th he has his 1st set of needles :( the are at night time so my mum took the night of work to take him cos i feel bad for him, ill be coming but i want my mum to hold him lol.

I hope its a nice day today cos i want to get out of the house. We need to do some food shopping but 1st i might have a geez around the shops and start getting some stuff for christmas. Ive got Ashton to buy for, 3neices, 1 nefu, and 10 little cousins oh and my mum and step dad, so ill start putting some things away now so its done cos shopping around christmas time is so hectic!!

I need to call a few photography places to compare prices ect. We never had Ashtons photo taken in hospital cos they never bathed him and the lady wasnt going to be back for 1month and other people were being asked to go somewhere else so i didnt bother.. I just dont want to get ripped off. So many places tell you $300 for a package and you pick them up and you get told "oh its $500" lol, so i just want a good place for the money you pay.

Well cant think of anything else to say right now, Hope evryone is having a fantastic week!!

Dannii xxo

Well today has gone pretty good so far. I havnt had much sleep tho, maybe 2 hrs but i wanted to be up and about early so that ic an help Ashton work out a rouitne. So far so good. Ive managed to keep him up for 4hrs straight and in that 4 hrs he has drank 130mls of milk and im gonna top him up now with another 60ml to get him to have a nap but i doubt he will drink the hwole lot. He just let out some massive burps so his stomach isnt full anymore.

Yesterday i went Ashton shopping hahahaha..  Nah i rekon i saved $200 all up. In safeway we pay $26 for a tin of nan gold formula and in big w they had them for $20 so i stocked up on them. I also stocked up on nappies and wipes. They had the bonds easysuits for only $10 so i got a few of thema nd normal wondersuits too cos he is in 000 now and ithink very soon he will need a 00 cos he is very long but not chubby enough yet, but i have lots of 00 things. I also got him this spin thing by lamaze. It has a mat with lots of funt hings for baby to wath and you lay them on there belly and they can put there hands down and spin. Its only for babies who can holld there head up tho, but he can now for a pretty long time. I got that for $50 on sale. I also got him this bear gym by fisher price. They lay under it and when they kick teh ball the bears nose lights up ove rthere face and music plays. When they can sit up it converts into a ball ramp and they can play with all teh other gadgets on it and the bear still still sings ect.

He has already mastered the bear toy and he just keeps smiling. Its so cute, when you rest him on your legs with your knees up he just looks at you and smiles and scrunches up his nose hahahaha...

Ok well i know its a few months away yet but im so excited about Christmas!! I finally get to have my own christmass now. On christmas eve we have a huge family party at my uncles every year, its just all of my mums family. Christmas day we usually have lunch at my mums. But im so excited that in the morning i get to wake up and plonk ashton in front of the tree and watch him get excited. I know he will b more interested in the paper but i still cant wait lol...

Well so far today me n Goran have been ok, his only been home for 1hr but he hasnt been a smartass yet YAY!!! I think he is having trouble understanding its not all about him lol, and ive been upset over a few things with him that are serious and one thing is that he hardly helps with the baby. Yes he works but it wouldnt hurt to change 1 nappy ( which he still hasnt attempted) He isnt scared and iknow this because the otehr day i asked him to watch me bath the baby so he can learn, he sia dno its the mums job.

Anyway, im gonna enjoy my coffee now and ill put my camera on charge and take some pix of ashton later and put em up.

Dannii xxo

Hey,

Well what a stressful weekend i have had :( Friday Ashton was awake from 4pm till 7am saturday morning. Its 12.30am at the moment and he is asleep thank god, i really do hope he gets out of this shitty routine. During the day he sleeps in the lounge with all teh curtains open and there is lots of noise. At night if im still up his still in the lounge but its dark and the tv is on really really low.

Im not on good terms with Goran at the moment but i wont get into it. Ive cried and stressed over it enough and i just want to get over it but i will make sure he knows how much of a cruel person he is (dnt worry he didnt cheat on me)

I had my 10 yr old neice over last night, my sister wasnt going to the party today so i thought id take  my neice. It wasnt fair on the twins but i cudnt fit them in. I didnt get to sleep till 8am and i was up again at 10.30am. I had a 2hr sleep before and it really helped. Went to the party today, it was for one of my cousins daughters who turned 5. I couldnt even eat, Goran made me feel sick lol..It was at a lake and it was so frikken freezin!! Thankgod Ashtonw as rugged up good, on top of all his tummy pain issues a cold id the last thing i need.

Tomorrow i have to go the bank and stuff around with my bank accounts. Id opened a second account for the baby money to go into until Ashtons account is open but now i have to go in there and show all this proof to get his account open and the money in there grrrr!!!

Well cant think of anything else to say besides Goran sucks hahahaha..And at the moment Ashton is the only thing keeping me Going, Dont worry im not depreesed, just angry and stressed!

Heres a close up pic of ashton my little tanned man lol  today (5weeks and 1 day old)

Dannii xxo

Even tho his 5weeks on saturday.. He is doing really well and she was very suprised about how well he holds his head up on his own, she said he is very strong. He has great eyesight and follows objects really well an dhis hearing is really good too. I cant believe he was once 6pound 3, he is now 10pound 1 !!! hahaha, she said his weight is average for his height, he is very tall. He has a chubby face and a chubby stomach but still has little stick legs and arms lol.

I blogged yesterday about how we got messed around with the hospital and today i got a letter sent out for the new date yet they stuffed it up again, they are so hopeless!! Its either the 3rd or 4th, they have told me different dates, im gonna have to ring them up.

Ashton has his needles on the 16th of september :(  I know they need them but i dont think i can hold him while they do it, i hope my mum is off work. I also hope it doesnt hurt him for long, i dont want to see my little man in pain. My mums aid she use to give us panadol half an hour before hand and it takes the edge off a little bit so im going to do that.

Tomrrow ive got a bit of stuffing around to do so img etting my mum to take ashton for an hour or two. I dont like taking him out in the cold and i have to go to afew places and dont want to keep getting him in and out of the car and the pram too.

Ashton still plays up between 12am and 5am, its so draining cos i dnt get to bed till 6am or even later and im up again by 12pm, its also bad cos its teaching him to sleep during the day. Ive stated giving him a bath at 8.30 every night to see if i can get some routine happening. He is dead tired after a batha nd sleeps well but after an hour he just has mini cat naps and winges lol.

Well dont know what else to say, i hope everyone is well and everyone who is sick gets better soon. Im so happy i havnt gotten a cold in over a year YAY!!!

Dannii xxo........ I did say in my last blog id post photos today but i didnt take anymore, i just dont have time :(

Like usuual i didnt get to bed till 5.30am. I odnt bother going to then cos i know thats the only time Ashton will fully sleep between bottles. He had an appoinment at the hospital today for his ultrasound and also his 1month checkup with the health nurse at the health centre which i complately forgot about. We were on our way to the hospital when i seen i had voice messages on my mobile and one was from the hospital. I got Goran to pull over and i rang them and they sai dthey had to change dates grrrrr.. Now i have to wait till the 4th of sep and his follow up appoinment when i find out the resuls is on the 8th. If you dont know already the ultrasound is for his kedneys. While inside me the umbilical cord only grew 2arterys instead of 3. Everything was fine during my pregnancy and they seen nothing wrong while he was in hospital but its just to check his kidneys to make sure there fine. He pees REALLY well, i dont see any sign of infection and have never seen blood or any unuasul colouring in his urine so all should be fine.

So then we went shopping, nothing else to do lol..There i got a call from the health nurse and i felt liek such an idiot that i forgot so i go tomorrow afternoon now. While iw as pregnant we brought ashton heap sof cute little shoes but none of them fit him yet. I tried to find a smaller size of the lonsdales i have him but no-one sells them anymore :( so instead i got him some nikes. They are silver and they look so good on him, look slike a little soccor player hahahaha. I kno people say you shouldnt waste money on shoes when small cos they dont fit for long but there so cute and id never get rid of any of them cos tehre will be another baby in a few years.

Lastw eek my cousin came over so they stayed for dinner and tonight we went there for dinner. Ashtonw as pretty good, started getting a little sooky before we left but oh well. Came home at 9.30pm, Done all his bottles, fed him and changed him thought he would sleep but no lol.. An hour later he was hungry again.  tried everything else first but nope he wanted his milk so i just topped him up with 60mls and now his sleeping. His not in a deep sleep cos he keeps waking himslef up by pushing his hands into his face lol.. Which reminds me he scratched his head for the first time today. I normally leave mittens on him but his hands get smelly cos he is still peeling on his hands and i also think he needs his hands to learn touching things. He already smacks toys around that are hanging but i think its more by accident lol..

Well its 12.30am and im gonna have a coffee now, Ashtonw ill probly be up anytime soon :(  I cant wait till he sleeps through the night. I dont mind getting up for feeds but iw ish he would go back to sleep lol, im sick of not gettign to bed till 5-6am.

I'll blog tomorrow and suprise evryone with how much weight he has put on hahahaha and ill take some more pix tomorrow.

Dannii xxo

Having a cry LOL

I got him to sit still inthis pic by jumping up and down HAHAHAHA

Ashton getting cranky, his sick of the flash goin off LOL

Bath time, he hates it but this one he actually enjoyed and didnt cry until i took him out.

 Ok well i have more but no tim to upload at the moment. Its 4.15am, Ashton is having a bottle very soon theni can finally go to bed YAY!!!

Dannii xxo

Ashton is one month old today, well really in 3 hrs if you wana go by the time he was born. Im actually suprised how quick it ahs gone, but at the smae time i feell ike ive been a mum for years. He weighs 4kgs now but thats with clothes on. I could be wrong tho, i just weighed me holding him then subtracted my weight.

I took some really good photos of him today and guess what?? Minti wont let me upload :( i reallyw natd to get them up so show you all how big he is now and how much he has changed.

I went to my mums today, she had a little party for my twin neices who turn 7 on sunday. The reaosn she did it is cos she works and cant come to their place sunday. I also went to the doctors today. He was checking ashton over and yep,  Ashton peed on him hahahaha, then he did this huge poo and stunk out the docs room, you should have seen teh doc openig the windows, he cudnt do it any faster hahahaha... Then Ashton peed again, this time he got me n the doc and all the floor, somehow he managed to save his clothes but his booties got drentched!!

Anyway, the doc said he is constipated, it happens when changing formula and just add some extra water to each bottle, it doesnt lessen the nutrition just keeps his fluids up and helps soften his poo so the poor little man doesnt struggle so much.

Hmmm.. and i was right, like i kew he was. The health nurse tried tellin me he has some thing in his belly button caled a grakumola( i really cant remember what it was called and cant understand her writing in his blue book), if he had that, it shudnt have popped nad oozed then grown back again. So yes his belly button iss infected, I always keep it clean but i shud have been using benadine and havnt been cos i was told its not infected grrrrr.... I was also told that colicky babies belly buttons push out. I was gonna go the shops and get the stuff today but it was pouring down today and dint want him out, so i just used bepanthem for now as a barrier.

Its nearly 5am lol, i dnt know how im surviving i only had 2hrs sleep from 8am - 10am.. We had my bfs other cousins and wifes over tonight, Ashton was making em both clucky and then he started scremaing and they remembered they dnt want to go through all that again hahahaha..

Today i wanna go shops, nothing fits me at the moment, i use to be a 7 but i have to stretch into most of my clothe snow so im gonna get afew things in an 8 tilli get back to the old me (if i ever do)??? I wanna go pumpkin patch too, im obsessed with all their overalls, there so cute.

Ok bed time for me, hope everyone is enjoying there weekend!

Dannii xxo

Ashton has played up basically since the day he was born. He doesnt sleep, only little cat naps. All he wants to do is eat. He gets his wind up fine now that ive changed formula but his still really unsettled all the time.

Im going to the doctors tomorrow. Ims till not happyw ith his belly button. I was told its some growth that falls off but all it does is pop then ooozes and grows back again. I was told its normal but i want a second opinion. Today would have to be the worst he has ever been. He just cries all day, for hours on end even if im holding him. I change him, feed him, burp him, massage him, bath himm but nothing helps. Im thinking he has colic. So ill see at the doctors tomorrow anyway.

Me, well im just going crazy. Im getting help when ever i need it but i cant call ppl to help me at this time (2.45am) lol.. He plays up big time from 12am till 5-6am so i ge sleep from 5-6am but still waking up every 2hrs to feed him and then im actually up again by 12pm. Im just so tired. I cant even sleep when he does cos i ahve things to do too. Tonight i had to do everything while holding him cos the second i put him down "wah wah wah"!!!!!!

Goran is doing as much as he can but the more i keep him up he is tired and cant go o work which means no money. Goran does majority of the cleaning and he feeds and burps bubs but isnt game enough to change him yet cos his too small lol.. Im not gonna bother with goran making bottled cos knowing him he'd stuff em up and the baby will get even more constipated thenw hat he already is.

Ok gotta go now, i got my 5mins silence, now he is screaming again YAY

Dannii xxo