Cant believe how long its been since ive blogged. So much has happened.

Ashton is now 17 months old and beginning to be a real little terror lol, im going to blame the teething, it seems to set him off.

He is such an affectionate little one, and has the best personality. All my friends and family say they've never known a child so young to talk as much as he does, its amazing! He has these conversations with you that can last 10 minutes ahahaha, with all the facial expressions and hand movements hehe

Back 3 months ago, my house burnt down. My nefew was playing with a lighter, and we couldnt get it out in time. We all came out fine luckily. Ive lost everything, just came out with Ashtons cot, mine and his drawers, clothes and other bits and pieices. Its going to take a long time to buy everything back, but we'll get there. Im spewing I didnt have contents insurance, id once done an estimate of 40,000 so that really would have helped! but cant turn back time now.

We got another house 2weeks after the fire and still trying to settle into here.

I was meant to start work last week, but found out I was pregnant a 3weeks ago :) Im so nervous, even more then the last time. I think because I know what to expect and the birth was so bad im scared im gonna make a repeat of it. I think i may try drugs this time, as ill probably need another episiotomy. Acid reflux is killing me! and im tired all the time cos i have insomnia.

Its seems to be very quiet on Minti now. I had gotten hooked onto facebook, and was over the crap that use to go on here so just stopped coming on. I'll try to make more of an effort now tho :)

I hope everyone is well and ill try and upload photos in the next few days, I only have whats on facebook. I was so happy to see I had photos on here still, cos my comp also burnt and the back up disks were in the house :(

Well chat soon, i might try and sleep now. INSOMNIA SUCKS

Well it was me asking the quetsions about the depo shot and im not going to do it. From what ive heard here and from others and even with the problems my owns ister had, im not going to risk it. I also rea don the internet it messes with your bones and can make peoples anxiety worse which is something i really dont need.

I have an appointment with my doc tody at 3pm and was meant to be going aswell to talk about the needle, but  i  \guess im going to have to try something else. The only thing stopping me going on the pill is the risk of clots because i smoke.

Ive still been stressing alot. Some days i'm fine and others one little thing can set me off. I dont feel depressed, I just feel really stressed out like i need to hold this family together. Money is a big issue at the moment with goran getting no hours. He told me he was cut down but his boss actually told my mum he isnt pulling his weigth and is late all the time and takes to many days off (he'll be 5 mins late n will atke a day off).. My mum said his a pathological liar and he is the reason for all my stress and anxiety. I know she is right but i guess i keep telling myself he'll change, he does but goes back to his annoying selfish ways soon enough.

Im never hit or anything, I'm just blamed for everything and it brings me down. The second i have a little stress, my pains in my head start, to the point my skull feels like its lifting off and one little patch on my head just sends  deep pain. It freaks me out, had it for 5 months on and off, its worse around my period.

I just want to be normal again and stop stressing so much. If i didnt have to worry about everything all the time and wasnt in pain id be so happy! I hvnt felt normal for 2 yrs :(

Well i'm proud to say ive raised Ashton on my own, and i wouldnt change it for the world. He has ben going really well. Hw is 8 months old now. Starting to crawl, he only goes backwards and rolls everytwhere else. He loves to be on his feet and walk he has since 5 months old. He is teething at the moment, some top teeth are comign through.

He sleeps through the night, he goes to bed at 9.30pm, but sometimes he willw ak eup, like lastnight at 2am but he jsut played quietly then fell baack to sleep lol.

Well i dont really come on here much, im always on facebook lol.

I hope evryone is well.

Dannii xxo

I met Tee and Nat today!! Channy was with us too. I had a great time. We just met at the shopping centre and had coffees n donuts while the kiddies played on the playground.

I was a little embarrest at the start cos im a very shy person but i wasnt as bad as i thought id be. After 20 mins or soo i kept on talking.

Tee and Nat are both REALLY lovely ladies! With the most adorable kids ever! Annaleise and Kathryn are sooo cute ,Chloe is a very gorgeous girl and Tobias, what can i say, man that boy is one little Spunk!!

I had a great time and the 4 hours we were there went soooo fast!!

Dumbass me forgot my camera garrrrr, cudnt believe it, I was shattered, not that i like photos, jus wanted photos of everyone else lol.. The girls had their cameras though and got some photos.I probly turned out looking like the biggest nerd ever but oh well hahahaha...

Well who ever is going to be meeting the girls, the are the greatest and i know you'll enjoy meeting them! And i hope to catch up with them again.

Dannii xxo

Ashton turned 6 months old on the 19th of January and he also got his first 2 teeth!! He'd been teething for ages and now the tops are finally through. His fangs should break through soon too. I was so excited when he bit my finger and i discovere dthe teeth, i was jumping up and down lol. In a way i was sad that his growing up so fast.

Ive changed doctors which was a good thing. Fianlly found out the stomach pain was h.pylori bacteria in mys tomach. Im on strong meds for a week to kill it. I only had a low positive but better treat it now before it got any worse. Im still haveing abdominal pain so tomorrow im having 2 xrays and an ultrasound to see if there is a problem or if its just IBS.

So yeh thats all thats going on, im a little cut that my rents going up  another $10 a wk, i know its only $10 but now thats $290 a week!! I think we're gonna rent for 1 more year and then buy our own house.

Dannii xxo

Hey there...

Im hardly on here anymore  :( I just feel too sick.

Ashton is teething.. Looksl ike his left fang will be in first, i give it a week max!! Its really swollen and looks white on the gum and he is always chewing things there. Lastnight was the wrost night ever. He was crying for around 2hrs! We tried bonjela, nurofen, chewing on a cold face washer but nothing helped. Then the nurofen kicked in, he was chatting to himself in the mirror and fell asleep lol.

I went back to the doctors today for test results. Blood is present in my urine again but only traces thankgod. It use to be phase 3!! My blood results showed my liver and kidney function are good, no sign of infection. It did show that ive ebenn exposed to glandular fever. I dont have it now but the test does show ive had it. Doctor said symptoms can linger on for up to 6 months!! I have all the symptoms besides a temperature and my throat isnt really sore. So im hoping htats what its from, my last cold wasnt since october tho.

I didnt do much new years with ashton teething an all. I had my sister and bf here. I couldnt down any alcohol,my ribs were killing me,  i had 1 can lol. We just played guitar hero and were up till 7.30am, i only had 4 hrs sleep and ashton was up.

Tomorrow we're going motorbike riding again. We went last week, i stacked once and busted my knee open, ive been sore ever since. Ill be taking it easy tomorrow but if i feel as sick as i do now i wont ride. I really like going tho cos there are heaps of trees and ive never smelt air so fresh in my life!!

Ashton got so much for christmas, we went abit nutty lol... He loves  his walker. its attached to an activity table and they can walk around it. He can walk backwards lol... He loves his jolly jumper, we gave that to him early tho. He also got a fisher price kitchen but he cannt do much with not being able to crawl or climb, he just sits in fron of it in his bumbo.

Minti still isnt letting be upload photos but ive got some on my facebook.

I hope evryone had a fantastic christmas and happy new year.

Dannii xxo

Hey Everyone!! I havnt been on here in ages. Ashton is still growing really fast,his huge now and so heavy to carry around.

He was meant to have his 2nd lot of needles 1 month  ago but i was told he had a stuffy nose, i got a second opinion from another doc who told me he has a little mucus on his chest but he thinks its viral because ashton isnt coughing or sneezing. So he will get his needles in Jan sometime.

Im still not feeling like myself, still have lots of aches and pains but im getting better. Just as long as im keeping myself busy then im all good.

Im so excited about christmas, i cant wait. Under my tree is fall lol, i went abit nuts and with all the sales on i just keep buying more, i cant help myself lol. I did give Ashton his joey jumper and stand all ready. He goes nuts in it!! He looks like a little irish dancer kciking his legs around.

He eats 2 jars of food a day now and still 4 bottles, sometimes more or less, his different everyday but he never turns his food down lol. He is continuously doing this fake cough, its so funny, but he ends up really coughing co she makes his throat his sore.

Well i hope evryone has a fantastic Christmas!!

I gotta do some things around here then i mite relax for abit, as soon as the weather gets warm i feel so tired, i hate summer :( makes me feel shitty, most people i know are the other way around, i guess im just weird lol.

Dannii xxo

Thats how long its been since ive had a smoke. Before that i was hacing on every 3days for about 3weeks then i thought i should just give up. Id been smoking for 6years. I do want to say ill never be a smoker but i dont know if i can do it. Its much harder then i thought and im still craving all the time. Everyone still smokes around me so thats hard too cos i have to smell it. About 1 week ago i had 1drag of Gorans smoke and all i could taste was chemicals.

Im all ready for christmas. Ive even got the presents under the tree, thought id do it cos i wont be abe to next year. Ashton looves the tree, i sit him under it in his bumbo lol All my christmas shopping is done. Thiis thursday im going to get my new mattress, or maybe tomorrow cos thatswhen Goran gets paid.

Im going to physio in 10 minutes. I go once a week and im so sore afterwards but im finding it helps. She also teaches me excersices to do at home. All my muscles in my body are weak and turning lumpy so they need toning.

Ok better go now, hope everyone is well. I might blog abit more later and try and get some pix up, they havnt worked in over a month for some reason.

Dannii xxo

Well i think im slowly getting better "FINALLY" !! Now i just hav an all over muscular ache but this is so much better then wat ive been through.

The blood is my urine has finally stopped, which means it was from all the iburofen i was taking and may have been a side affect of some antibiotics i was taking which i didnt even need in the end. Ive just been left with a rash on my arms and legs and my arm and finger bones really hurt. I seen a doctor today and he thinks its a form of dermatitis and possibly an allergic raection becaus ei say it burns and feels like the bone.

I looked at my neices arms and she has it too so maybe im just over eacting.

All my Christmas shopping is finished. Oh i just need to get 1 more thing for Ashton lol. I really went overboard but i love christmas and love seeing the smiles on kids faces when they get preents lol. Ashton already loves paper and he eats it hahaha.. He is getting so big now, going on 8kgs! He kills my arms and chest muscles.

We're planning on going away soon, i think just before christmas or just after for a weekend, just the 3 of us. I need to get away from this house and relax. I can be out all day and as soon as i get home i start stressing.

Well its 1.30am and i need to hang out Ashtons washing then get to bed.

Enjoy your weekend everybody and hopefully im back around here a little more often.

Dannii xxo

I just went to the doctors because my stomach started playing up again. He told me to go to teh hospital and dont leave until they find the problem becasue this has been going on for to long.

He also gave me a refferal to have a laproscopy done. Im so scared, i dont want an operation. I cant stop crying. It pisses me off becaus ei knew something was wrong from the start and i kept getting sent home being told its anxiety and now everyhting is just getting worse. My whole body aches, i have migraines lasting for 4days in a row im still urinating blood.

I just want to feel better, im honestly starting to feel pshycotic!! I keep getting told its anxiety and in my head and i now question myself "am i mental?" I know the pain is really there but i think i make it worse, but pain is our bodies way of tellin gus something is not right.

Please keep me in your thoughts, im so scared right now.

Just getting somethings ready here and taking some things to mums for Ashtons, thankgod she isnt working tonight and can watch him for me.

Dannii xxo :(

Well i havnt blogged in ages so thought i would before i go to bed.

I havn't been doing much lately, just the usual around home things, shopping and going to the doctors... I'm so excited about Christmas, i really cantw ait. I already have my tree up and most of the presents wrapped up. I have 15 kids to buy for this year including Ashton! Every Christmas eve we the whole family goes to my uncles for a party. I really like it becaus eits the only time of the year that the whole family is together.

Ashton has been really good. He is teething, but for some reason 1 of his back teeth are comig through first, there are now 3 points poking through. Ashton's been going really good on solids. I was suprised by how much he loves food and that he already knows when the bibs on and his in his bumbo that its food time lol. He doenst liek to drink much milk during the day but he sure makes up for it at night, im also going to start him on pentavite because he isnt getting all his vitamins now.

Im feeling a little better everyday. Unfortunatley im still urinating blood although the doctors are not to worried due to all my scans and tests coming back clear. They think it may be an irritated urethra which may have been caused my the pelvic exam i had which i tensed up alot during. My face was going numb the other day so i went to the dentist, he did xrays on my teeth and he was suprised my front tooth's nerve wasnt dead! My front tooth is capped due to a gymnastic accident but it started to rot and he said the nerve was a little sensitive causing my face to go numb. So i had a big filling done. The dentist is so expensive it cost $220 just for a filling!! I also have 2 teeth to be pulled out and need a cap replaced and little fillings here and there. The dentist estimated $1800 to fix my whole mouth!! Hopefully ill get it done by Feb-March.

Gorans been ok, helping with ashton a little more, tho he still hasnt dressed or bathed him but omg his changed "1 WHOLE NAPPY!!" He just got my motorbike repaired and is looking for one himself. My sister channy got a 4 wheeler and he partner has a bike too and so does Koen. So once Goran gets his we will be going riding together and hopefully going away for a weekend.

Ive been trying to upload pics but minti isnt letting me. I'll upload as soon as the glitch is fixed up, you will all be stunned at how huge Ashton is now. Im ansure about his length but his in an 0 size bonds suit due to his length. He weighs 7.5 kgs now but its all good cos his very tall.

Ok better go.

Dannii xxo