Hey everyone!!! Sorry i havnt been on lately but ive been so busy!

If im not doing things for Ashton then im trying to catch up on my own things. Goran has been finishing work early so he can help around the house more but he still gets tired early which i understand because he is up at 4am everyday.

Ashton is doing really well, his just very mixed up with sleeping times, he is a night owl like i use to be lol. He has slowed sown on his feeding, he was drinking 100mls for 2days but now he iis back at 60mls but wanting to be fed every 2-3hours. He gets really bad wind but we are slowly getting it up. When he has a burp there he cries and then lets it out, it must be so painful for him, im going to get some wind drops i think.

His peg finally fell off today so its much easier to change him now and no more leaking YAY...He has 2 rockers but 1 he sleeps in during the day and the other he goes in for a little while and its so funny cos when it vibrates he puts this little smirk on his face. We brought him an electric swing yesterday but he hasnt tried it out yet. I have a change table with a built in bath but i feel so weird bathing him cos he hates it so today i brought a seperate bath, its a fisher price one and it has a built in mat and head cusion for newborns so you dont have to hold them.

Me, well im just so drained lol..As soon as i get to bed he starts crying. From all teh visitors holding him thats all he wants now. So i just comfort hima nd then put him back in his bassinette. Between 1am and 3.30am he is ssooooo unsettled so in the end he sleeps with me, its the only way i can get some sleep. Also before i go to sleep i constantly get up and look at him, im so paranoid. I know its normal but i hope i get over it soon. So over all bubs is fine just abit unsettled but even tho how tired i get and frustrated with myself im enjoying every minute with him.

Well better go, his gonna wake up when i put him in his bassinette so better do it before i get to tired to settle him.

I will post more pics soon, havnt been taking many myself, mostly on my phone.

Dannii xxo

Ashton is 1 week old today, i cant believe how fast it went!! He was normally drinking 75mls every 2-5 hours and if not the whole 75ml he had top ups not long after. Now ive got him drinking 100mls every 3-4 hours, so see how that goes.

Last nght i had to change him 5times :(  poor little bugger was not impressed the first 2times but then got over it. His nappies kept leaking. I do them up as tight and comfortable as possible but his legs are so skinny so you cant do em to tight without irrating his belly button. The peg is still on too so its hard to get the nappy right.

All week id had all of my family coming over and they came to the hospital. This weekend goran has his family coming. Lastnight his aunty, cousin & wife and there little girl come over. My family just give presents or gift cards ect but with goran being macedonian they do it totally different and give the baby money and presents. It was pretty funny watching Ashton cling onto money hahaha...

Today my dad is meant to be coming, he came the other day but didnt hold bubs cos he just finished work. I thought he would have come this morning but i havnt seen him yet. I hope he hurries up and works out what he is doing cos i need my mum to come over (she doesnt like to be around my dad) so she can check out bubs belly button.

Tomorrow one of Gorans other Aunties and cousins are coming over and his uncle and his wife and there kids are coming too.

I thought last night hiss Aunty would have starte don me aboyt the baby having to be Orthodox but she agreed to him being catholic. Either way i would have christened Ashton catholic cos its up to Goran and I not Gorans family.

Not sure what im doing during week, On Friday i have to go to the Maternal health nurse for bubs 2week check up, its only a 2minute walka round the corner, and then at 1pm im going with my mum to get my ahir done. My step dad is going to watch Ashton with Goran. Goran is good with bubs but not up for trying to chnage him just yet so i rather my step dad with him so Ashton gets changed lol.

I went out again yesterday to go to a differnet target cos the one iw ent to the day before didnt have wat i wanted. I left Ashton with my muma nd my house tho. I missed him so much and i was only gone 1hr lol.. Im not the tyoe who picks him up for no reason but i do hold on to him for awhile for a cuddle after i feed him or burp him or change him. I just like to know his close and that he knows im close. I thik it would be scary being a baby and not knowing if not nobody is around..

Well ill blog when i can and ill put some more pics up soon. I havnt been able to take many yet cos his always sleeping and whne he does cute faces during the night when his awake the flash makes him blink and change his face.

Hope everyone is enjoying tehre weekend. And for Arna, i hope puggle arrives soon!!

Dannii xxo

Just thought id do i short blog while Ashton is sleeping.

He has been so good!! I couldnt ask for a mre happy baby. He has his times where he just wants his food and he wants it now but i guess all kids do. His jumped from 50mls to 60mls to 75mls and now im just making up 100mls.

Yesterday the nurse from teh hospital came to check me and bubs. She said bub was fine, he has put on more weight. He was born 2782grms and when we left the hospital he weighed 2840 and yesterday he weighed 2940, so he is doing really well and putting on weight. She said she was really hapy and wont have to come out again and its just me and the maternal health nurse from now on.

Today i had the maternal health nurse come. She didnt want to bother him and weigh him since it was done yesterday anyway. We just went through everything about immunisations and what to expect at appoinments with them She was really nice and there office is only a 2minute walk from my house so it will be easy taking him for his fortnightly checks ect. He does have these  2 veins that come up fromhis nose to his forehead buts he said its just a stalk bite or his head is still swollen from the vaccum, but nothing to worry about.

He has a mongolian blue spot on his bum, its not big at all but its noticeable, it looks like a bruise. She said it very common in european babies and it should fade by the time he is 1. Im not worried about it but i did want to know why it was blue cos i thought birth marks were red lol..

Looks like Ashton will have daddys skin YAY.. I dint want him to have my white skin so he has olive skin YAY!!!!

We are going out on our first outing today lol, im a little nervous but it will be all good. I really need to get out of the hosue and so does Ashton. We are going to Target cos the huge toy sale, i know it will packed and ill probly miss out on what i want but at least im getting out. I also need to get a memory book, i complety forgot to get one when i was pregnant.

Well better go have a shower, Goran wantsto go hahahaha, and it take sme ages to shower now cos of the pain.

Here is apic i just took of Ashton in his rocker, i keep him in that during the day. My camera is playign up, i ahve to go through the settings.

Well a few poeple have been wondering how my labour went so i thought i would share. It isnt a pleasent story but ill still share.

I thought with bad pains for almost 6weeks i would have had a smoother labour but it didnt turn out that way.

Ill start from wednesday 16th July 2008. I was having mild contractions roughly 4-5 minutes apart. I had an appointment with the widwife at 2.30pm and were planning a day to be induced. I rang the hospital and told them about the contractions and they told me to hold off at home till my appoinment if i can. I decided to tough it out and wait till 2.30pm. I went in and i was hooked up to monitors and they could clearly see i was having good strong contractions between 2-5minutes. They gave me an internal examination and was only 1cm dialated. They dont admit patients unless your waters break or if your 3cms dialted with regular contractions so i was sent home with panadiene.

That whole night and thursday i was still ahving the contractions and they were staying between 2-5minutes apart and were slowly getting stronger.

On Friday i woke up in bad pain, i had a shower and seen my plug come out. I rang the hospital and was told i could come in or wait it out but they will definetly be seeing me that night. I went to my mums and hung out there till i couldnt handle it anymore. I was badly constipated, i hadnt been to the toilet in 2days :(       We went and got KFC for dinner and we also went and got prune juice to see if that would help me out.

All this time the contarctions were getting stronger anf by 11pm i couldnt take it anymore. I rang the hospital and let them know iw as ocming in and off we went.

When i got there i was put in my room and put on machines, baby was fine, i was fine and contarctions were nice and strong at an even 3minutes apart. I had an enternal and it was so painful, i was 3cms at 12.30am 19th July. I had my iv put in for the penecillan due to having strep b. The 1st drip failed but the 2nd got in thank god.

Time was passing by and i was in loads of pain. At 2am i had a small dose of pethadine, it just made my leg sore and made me tired, it did not dull the pain at all :(    So here i was already in pain with a really sore thigh.

I then got in the shower on the birthing ball but that didnt help either. I went bak in the bed and my drip fell out and blood started squirting everywhere, so i had my 3rd drip put in, in my other hand. I tried the gas, once again it did nothing besides make me feel sick so i through it to the ground!!

Nows the hard part because i dont remember much cos time just flew. I was getting contarctions so cose that iw uld only get 5second breathers in between. I remember crying and asking the midwife if i could please ahve a 10minute break ahahahaha... At this time i had mum rubbing one side of my back and goran the other side, who by the way was shitting his pants!!!!

Then i yelled, "i need to push" the midwife said no i dont think so lets go to the toilet to see if you need to poo. I told her i didnt, it was the baby, but she insisted it wasnt and to go toilet. So there i was on the toilet and i told her i have to push so she said ok push..   I started squeeling!!   I went bak on the bed and she put the monitor bak on mmy bellya dn seen no heart beat for bubs. She put an electrode on hishead and still no heart beat.

All thsi time i was screaming and panicking and she told me to get on my side, next minute 5other doctors came in. An oxygen mask was put on me and my legs up in stirrups. My mum said i was trying to cover myself up but i dont remember. I was told to push, so i tried pushing nad nothing, then all the doctors starting going nuts and i was given an episiotomy so they could get the vaccum in, i dont remmebr it tho thank god. They tried to get him out with the vaccum once but he slipped back so they had to cut me again :(  They got him out the second time and the cord was wrapped around his neck 3times. Ashton was out at 7.35 am 19th July 2008.

It took 1minute to get bubs to breathe, and then i  had a quick hold and he was taken to Special care, and goran went with him and mum stayed with me. Then they got mum to leave so they could stitch me up, it took like 45minutes.

Well ill write about my hospital stay tomorrow, its nealry 12am an dim dead tired lol, my luck ill get to sleep and bubs will wake up hahaha, but thats ok. Im really enjoying being a mum. For a person who loves her sleep, i dont miss it at all. Today i was rubbign my bellya nd realised i feel no more kicking, it upset me so iw ent out to ashton and started crying. I was crying because im so happy he is finally here and he may not be in my belly but i can hold him and watch him and do evrything for him now. Hahahaha, im crying now, im just so happy its all over and i have my baby boy, i love him so much

Ok bed time, hope id idnt sicken anyone with my birth story lol, and to top it off my hospital stay was crap as and my stitches hurt and my boobs are huge and dont stop lekaing, my tops are always saturated :( but good thing is my body is nearly back to normal YAY!!!

Dannii xxo

Well ill do a bigger blog later on cos i got some things to do around here. Just thought id let everyone know that Ashton and I are home. He is doing really well. His put on alot of weight already. His a good sleeper during the day but not so good at night but we have been getting through it. 

Well here is some pics and ill blog again later..

Dannii xxo

ASHTON IN SPECIAL CARE UNIT HAVING HIS FIRAT BOTTLE,I WASNT THERE BUT HE HAD HIS DADDY WITH HIM.

THIS WAS LASTNIGHT GETTING ASHTON STRAPPED IN FOR HIS JOURNEY HOME. 

Well still having contractions and they are getting worse and worse. Ive had them for so long now, and they have been 3mins apart since wednesday.

I was gonna call the hospital but i went in the shower first so i was ready incase i had to come in, when i got out i lost my plug..I was losing little bits over time but this time it came out full. I rang my mum cos goran was at work, then i rang the hospital.

They said they will definetly be seeing me tonight, they said i could go in now but if i want to keep walking around home and then come when i cant handle it anymore. She said i should be dialted more then 1cm now that my plug has fully come away.

So im going to my mums very soon, gonna get on the treadmil lol, im in so much pain but the longer i tough it out here the quicker it will go in the hospital. I havnt been able to go toilet ** lol for 2days, im guessing cos of all the panadiene ive been taking, n i cant sit there n push incase sumfin bad happens.

Anyway, better go, these pains keep getting stronger, hopefully bub will be out by morning.

Dannii xxo

This is so depressing :(   Im in so much pain it really sucks.

After having a taste of hospital yesterday im so scared for when i have to go back for the birth :(.......    My contractions are still 2-3mins apart and more intense in my back. I dont thinkid be much more dialted so im not going to rush off to the hospital. If im still feeling like this tomorrow with the non stop contractions i am going in to be checked again, he said he will keep me in if im 3cms or more.

Ive heard of people staying at 2cms  for weeks!! I know i cant tho, cos no matter im getting induced on the 24th. I do hope i go in before then tho, i cant keep going on like this. Ive been taking panadiene that the hospital gave me every 4hrs, well i havnt taken any in the last 6hrs tho. They did help me sleep last night, i woke thorugh some of the contractions but not all of them,the panadiene doesnt really work it does take the edge off after about 40mins.

My back is so sore and i have so much pressure. This is embarrasing but ive been constipated for like 3days now, well im not sure if im constipated but i just cant go :(    I hope i do before i give birth tho, i dont really want them putting enything in my a$$ hahahahaha, and i dont really want them to see anything coming out either lol, but oh well they've seen it all before.

So basically im waiting to feel like im dying then ill be off to give birth. Well better make dinner, ive left it a little late hahahaha, lastnight we just got pizza cos i was in to much pain but ive learnt to tolerate it now cos im so use to it, its really bad but its only going to get worse. My aunty is coming over again soon, she is one of those kool aunties that are into fun, like midnight drives and mucking around alot, so its pretty kool, and she takes my mind off these pains cos im always cracking up laughing around her.

Ok well, hopefully i can get some pix of bubs up soon, whenever it is that he decides to come. He must know its cold and wants to stay warm.

Dannii xxo

Had bad pains since 12 last night, handled them till 2.30pm today and went for my app. Straight away i was put onto monitoring and they could clearly see that i was having strong contractions every 2minutes.

I then had to have an internal exam which killed :(  And it was a guy, i was so embarrased :(   I wouldnt open my legs hahahahaha, well anyway i had to in the end obviously and when he pushed it bloody killed, i couldnt believe the pain and now to think a baby will come out arrrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, i was only 1 n a half cms dialted, i couldnt believe it, i was so upset :(  But he thinks i will be back by the morning so yay!!!!!! My contractions are still 2minutes apart which is good, and they kill like hell cos they are in my back tooo.

Well ive been at my mums hanging out tryign to keep my mind off the pain, its only going to get worse. I have my aunty over, and now we just ordeing pizza.

Well better go, hopefully ashtonw ill be here very soon... Im not looking forward to the pain :( but i cantw ait to meet my bubby, im definetly hoping a can have an epidural cos im no goood with pain at all.

Dannii xxo

Its nearly 6am now and ive had contractions since 12am!! They were coming every 10mins at that point but i could still rest. By 2am i woke up and was in the worst pain and i havnt slept since. I did lay there and roll around cos i was in so much pain but i tried to keep control of it.

I got out of bed at 5am to wake up goran for work and told him he cant go cos i think ill be having the baby today. Its funny tho cos this 1ertain midwife always went by 16th of july as his due date, so maybe she was right!! and this doesnt prove anything but 4 is my favourite number and 4x4 is 16 hahahaha, and todays weather in melbourne is 16 too....

Contractions are coming every 4-6mins but im still able to handle most of them. Before they were coming every 2mins and thats when i started to freak out and cry:(      I have heard of not going to the hospitall until youc ant handle it anymore and i feel like that at the moment. Im going to go have a shower and make sure i have everything packed. If my pains still come which im praying they do cos they have been on top of eachother since 12am then ill be ringing the hospital.

I m suppose to have an appoinment at 2pm today butthere is no way im waiting that long, i think ill have him out by then.

Ok well better go get ready, Im happy to say i can tell this is no false alarm, and Ashton should definetly be here by tomorrow..

Dannii xxo

Well after i hard night ive trying to get comfortable i finally got to sleep at 5am this morning. I was waking up every hour tossing and turning but i did manage to get some sleep YAY.. Ive got alot of pressure now and all around my hips are killing me!!

Ive heard of people being in labour for a few days so maybe thats gonna be me, it doesnt matter tho, i should have a shorter labour. Im just glad the pains havnt come to a complete stop cos that really would have upset me. My stomach has changed so much, it just keeps getting smaller and smaller, and its a little bit sore too touch..No wonder tho, considering how long ive been having pains for!!

I have an app with my midwife on Wednesday. Last wednesday she told me if i make it to that app (the 16th) that we will be organising for me to be induced. She said they could let me go to the 24th of July :(   i will be telling them i want him out asap even if i come back the next day (17th) i will do it, i cant handle this anymore.

Bubs is still moving around, not alot but he does stretch out abit, and i do feel him twisting and turning down low. I think he wants out too but cant find his way hahahaha... I have my mum coming over soon. I want her to teach me how to make my favourite soup lol!! I ve been craving for it and its so good in winter, i eat like 5bowls at a time.

Well better go, my backs killing me sitting here, i need to move around i think. I will let you know if anything changes.

Dannii xxo

Well today mite be it!! Ive been up since 8am and have had contarctions ever since, they are still all over the place and finish up in my back and then they start again at the middle of my stomach and down to my lower stomach. BUbs is kicking down lower now, he must be low cos he isnt in my ribs anymore..

My stomach is really really hard too, all over!! I think  im in labour but i dont know how to time these pains and i dont know when to go. A few have had me double over in pain but some i can just breathe through. I dont want to gohospital and not be in labour or go there and the pains stop.

They dont stop when i walk or anything cos ive been walking all day and still have the pains and they are getting stronger. Hopefully i get a sign that its time to go hospital cos i dont wanna push him out at home lol, also cos i need the iv!!!

Well ill keep you all updated, gotta eat my lunch now and then im gonna eat fresh pineapple cos i heard that can bring on contractions an dmake them stronger.

My sister thinks he will come today cos its the 13th ( Koens original birthdate, and her fav number), goran ahs been saying all week ill have him Sunday night and my mum thinks its tonight too, so see what happens. If not, im not gonna stress anymore, a few extra days for me time i guess.

Dannii xxo

Yep thats right, still here :(   But nah im kool about it now, really the more i want it to hurry up it wont. Lots of pains today and all yesterday too so maybe a baby this weekend ????

I hope so, my mums holidays that she is taking for me start on Monday so im Hoping it definetly happens this weekend. I ate some curry for dinner tonight and ive had my pains still since then. My sister channy felt my contractions today, my stomach gets so tight and goes square and it is painful but i can still handle them. Th emidwife said they aint braxton hicks they are actually pre labour contractions and that they are a good thing because they are dialating me, so this has been happening for weeks now, so maybe when its true labour it wont be too long till i got Ashton in my arms, maybe just a couple hr labour :)

Although ive felt ready since 4months lol, ive felt extra ready today and going around the house picking on little things but now i cant be bothered, i just want a hot shower and then bed!! Im exhausted :( Ive only been up since 11am lol, but i had no sleep at all last night, i think i got to sleep at 5am this morning..

Well better go do what i gotta do and have a shower, midwife rekons babies come when your relaxed lol, so i think i mite try to relax. If im not in labour by the morning we are going out tomorrow to do alot of walking, well in my case, extra slow waddling , that mite help things along..

Enjoy your weekend  everybody!!!!!!  Hopefully i experience the worst pain in my life this weekend, never thought id want that hahahaha....

Dannii xxo

Well i had my app today...I was up very ealry this morning with pad period pain but it was constant, i msgd my sister and asked if i should call the hospital or just wait till my app, in the end i just waited..

When i got to see the midwife she could tell i was in pain, bubs is fully engaged and she doesnt seem to think he can get any lower until its time to come out lol, so thats why ive got all the pain. She think sim dialting but once again didntw ant to check incase it brings things on then and there and i wasnt ready. By all the pains id described she says im in early labour and have been for the past few weeks with all the pains.

She said its a good thing really cos im getting the long hard part over with now and should have a short active labour YAY!!!!!    Even tho id prefer not to have experienced all this pain over the last few weeks, im grateful that i wont be in hardcore pain for 20+hrs in a hospital bed!!

So tomorrow is my real due date, the 10th july but they go by the 14th. My next app is booked for the 16th and if im still pregnant that day we will be organising a day for me to be induced. They normally will let you go 10tens over but ive already made it clear that i will want it doen the next day. So at the latest bubs will be here the 17th-18th July...

I do pray that he comes really soon, i was hoping tonight ahhahahaha, but its cos my mum took 2weeks off work for me. I was told to expect bubs at 37weeks because of the cord problem and after all there is no problem..Im happy there isnt anything wrong with him bbut it has made my last 3weeks hell expecting him to come out!!

So hopefully bubs comes soon so my mums holidays arent wasted, i know she wouldnt be angry or anything but id be upset myself if i cudnt have my mum around the 1st couple days home with bub. Yes she lives 1street away but she works alot.

So  "HURRRRY UP ASHTONNN"....."WHERE STILL WAITING YOU KNOW" hahahaha, i tell him that everyday, but being a boy, He doesnt listen!!!!!

Well better have a quick bounce on the gym ball then off to bed i think.

Dannii xxo

Well going by the midwifes dates i have 7days left, going by my dates i have 3days left but i guess i have to go by the midwifes dates because thats what they will go by..

I have hospital on wednesday so if i dont pop by then (knowing this stubborn little guy i wont) im going to talk to them about inducing me or doing a membrane sweep. Ive had pains for to long and they make me feel so crap and i cantd o anything. Most people i know have never been in as much pain as me until they were actually in labour!!

Ive tried nearly everything, evening primrose oil tablets, loads of walking, lifting up things, hot showers when i get pains to bring them on more, cartwheels hahaha, my birthing ball, heaps of things and nothing works!! Knowing my luck sex will work but im not game enough to get into that when i havnt had it in over 6months. In a way i want to cos i know it will work but then again im worried if it doesnt work and just makes me more dissapointed, ill just have to see how things go.

Eveyday i think im in labour hahahhaa, the pains get so bad that i stop breathing and freak myself out, they get so strong but are all over the place so i dont know. Constant back ache tho, which is great NOT!!! I think we mite go buy a massage chair, the one we want is $2000 but i think its worth it, it does from your neck to your ankles. We were gonna buy one ages ago but we said we will wait cos its not fair that i cant use it cos im preggy hahahaha...

Well better get dinner started, more bending and walking for me YAY, anyways sittign here on the comp isnt gonna get things moving.

Dannii xxo 

I cant believe how much my stomach has dropped in only 3weeks !!!!!

Ok so the first pic in blue im 35 weeks and 4days, and in the second pic in yellow im 38weeks 4days, i took that photo at like 1am lastnight...

When i look at my stomach in the mirror i dont really see a differnce but i can feel the differnce. Now that i have put photos side by side you can see how low its dropped and the shape has changed too...

HURRY UPP ASHTONNN!!!! IM SICK OF WAITING AND IMS ICK OF THE PAIN ARGGHHHH!!!!!!!!

well the past 2days ive been having contractions every 20minutes. They werent very painful but they did stop me doing what ever i was doing. Today they have been coming more closer together, sometimes 5minutes then sometimes 15minutes but they are getting stronger.

The last 2days ive felt like im getting the flu, my whole face is sore and has become a little swollen. Ive been trying to go to bed early, so the latest im in bed is 10.30pm but i wake up again probly every2hrs and it takes ages to fall back to sleep. I feel very sore , especially in my back, the pain never stops. When the cramps in my stomach start they go from the middle of my stomach down to my groin where they kill the most and then go into my back.

Im praying this is the real thing, hopefully something happens tonight or tomorrow cos im sick of feeling sick and crampy. I try not too sit for too long and i get up do things to try and bring on the pains.

Im finding it hard to time contractions becuase some people sya to time them from the strat of 1 to the the start of another, and some people say to time from start to finish of one, so i think ill just call the hospital when i cant handle them anymore or if my water breaks, obviously.

The baby is still stretching around a little bit but not kicking or anything, and i only feel him down low and straight after he moves im always in pain, he muct be very low.

Well lets hope i go in soon.

Dannii xxo