Well today has gone pretty good so far. I havnt had much sleep tho, maybe 2 hrs but i wanted to be up and about early so that ic an help Ashton work out a rouitne. So far so good. Ive managed to keep him up for 4hrs straight and in that 4 hrs he has drank 130mls of milk and im gonna top him up now with another 60ml to get him to have a nap but i doubt he will drink the hwole lot. He just let out some massive burps so his stomach isnt full anymore.

Yesterday i went Ashton shopping hahahaha..  Nah i rekon i saved $200 all up. In safeway we pay $26 for a tin of nan gold formula and in big w they had them for $20 so i stocked up on them. I also stocked up on nappies and wipes. They had the bonds easysuits for only $10 so i got a few of thema nd normal wondersuits too cos he is in 000 now and ithink very soon he will need a 00 cos he is very long but not chubby enough yet, but i have lots of 00 things. I also got him this spin thing by lamaze. It has a mat with lots of funt hings for baby to wath and you lay them on there belly and they can put there hands down and spin. Its only for babies who can holld there head up tho, but he can now for a pretty long time. I got that for $50 on sale. I also got him this bear gym by fisher price. They lay under it and when they kick teh ball the bears nose lights up ove rthere face and music plays. When they can sit up it converts into a ball ramp and they can play with all teh other gadgets on it and the bear still still sings ect.

He has already mastered the bear toy and he just keeps smiling. Its so cute, when you rest him on your legs with your knees up he just looks at you and smiles and scrunches up his nose hahahaha...

Ok well i know its a few months away yet but im so excited about Christmas!! I finally get to have my own christmass now. On christmas eve we have a huge family party at my uncles every year, its just all of my mums family. Christmas day we usually have lunch at my mums. But im so excited that in the morning i get to wake up and plonk ashton in front of the tree and watch him get excited. I know he will b more interested in the paper but i still cant wait lol...

Well so far today me n Goran have been ok, his only been home for 1hr but he hasnt been a smartass yet YAY!!! I think he is having trouble understanding its not all about him lol, and ive been upset over a few things with him that are serious and one thing is that he hardly helps with the baby. Yes he works but it wouldnt hurt to change 1 nappy ( which he still hasnt attempted) He isnt scared and iknow this because the otehr day i asked him to watch me bath the baby so he can learn, he sia dno its the mums job.

Anyway, im gonna enjoy my coffee now and ill put my camera on charge and take some pix of ashton later and put em up.

Dannii xxo

Hey,

Well what a stressful weekend i have had :( Friday Ashton was awake from 4pm till 7am saturday morning. Its 12.30am at the moment and he is asleep thank god, i really do hope he gets out of this shitty routine. During the day he sleeps in the lounge with all teh curtains open and there is lots of noise. At night if im still up his still in the lounge but its dark and the tv is on really really low.

Im not on good terms with Goran at the moment but i wont get into it. Ive cried and stressed over it enough and i just want to get over it but i will make sure he knows how much of a cruel person he is (dnt worry he didnt cheat on me)

I had my 10 yr old neice over last night, my sister wasnt going to the party today so i thought id take  my neice. It wasnt fair on the twins but i cudnt fit them in. I didnt get to sleep till 8am and i was up again at 10.30am. I had a 2hr sleep before and it really helped. Went to the party today, it was for one of my cousins daughters who turned 5. I couldnt even eat, Goran made me feel sick lol..It was at a lake and it was so frikken freezin!! Thankgod Ashtonw as rugged up good, on top of all his tummy pain issues a cold id the last thing i need.

Tomorrow i have to go the bank and stuff around with my bank accounts. Id opened a second account for the baby money to go into until Ashtons account is open but now i have to go in there and show all this proof to get his account open and the money in there grrrr!!!

Well cant think of anything else to say besides Goran sucks hahahaha..And at the moment Ashton is the only thing keeping me Going, Dont worry im not depreesed, just angry and stressed!

Heres a close up pic of ashton my little tanned man lol  today (5weeks and 1 day old)

Dannii xxo

Even tho his 5weeks on saturday.. He is doing really well and she was very suprised about how well he holds his head up on his own, she said he is very strong. He has great eyesight and follows objects really well an dhis hearing is really good too. I cant believe he was once 6pound 3, he is now 10pound 1 !!! hahaha, she said his weight is average for his height, he is very tall. He has a chubby face and a chubby stomach but still has little stick legs and arms lol.

I blogged yesterday about how we got messed around with the hospital and today i got a letter sent out for the new date yet they stuffed it up again, they are so hopeless!! Its either the 3rd or 4th, they have told me different dates, im gonna have to ring them up.

Ashton has his needles on the 16th of september :(  I know they need them but i dont think i can hold him while they do it, i hope my mum is off work. I also hope it doesnt hurt him for long, i dont want to see my little man in pain. My mums aid she use to give us panadol half an hour before hand and it takes the edge off a little bit so im going to do that.

Tomrrow ive got a bit of stuffing around to do so img etting my mum to take ashton for an hour or two. I dont like taking him out in the cold and i have to go to afew places and dont want to keep getting him in and out of the car and the pram too.

Ashton still plays up between 12am and 5am, its so draining cos i dnt get to bed till 6am or even later and im up again by 12pm, its also bad cos its teaching him to sleep during the day. Ive stated giving him a bath at 8.30 every night to see if i can get some routine happening. He is dead tired after a batha nd sleeps well but after an hour he just has mini cat naps and winges lol.

Well dont know what else to say, i hope everyone is well and everyone who is sick gets better soon. Im so happy i havnt gotten a cold in over a year YAY!!!

Dannii xxo........ I did say in my last blog id post photos today but i didnt take anymore, i just dont have time :(

Like usuual i didnt get to bed till 5.30am. I odnt bother going to then cos i know thats the only time Ashton will fully sleep between bottles. He had an appoinment at the hospital today for his ultrasound and also his 1month checkup with the health nurse at the health centre which i complately forgot about. We were on our way to the hospital when i seen i had voice messages on my mobile and one was from the hospital. I got Goran to pull over and i rang them and they sai dthey had to change dates grrrrr.. Now i have to wait till the 4th of sep and his follow up appoinment when i find out the resuls is on the 8th. If you dont know already the ultrasound is for his kedneys. While inside me the umbilical cord only grew 2arterys instead of 3. Everything was fine during my pregnancy and they seen nothing wrong while he was in hospital but its just to check his kidneys to make sure there fine. He pees REALLY well, i dont see any sign of infection and have never seen blood or any unuasul colouring in his urine so all should be fine.

So then we went shopping, nothing else to do lol..There i got a call from the health nurse and i felt liek such an idiot that i forgot so i go tomorrow afternoon now. While iw as pregnant we brought ashton heap sof cute little shoes but none of them fit him yet. I tried to find a smaller size of the lonsdales i have him but no-one sells them anymore :( so instead i got him some nikes. They are silver and they look so good on him, look slike a little soccor player hahahaha. I kno people say you shouldnt waste money on shoes when small cos they dont fit for long but there so cute and id never get rid of any of them cos tehre will be another baby in a few years.

Lastw eek my cousin came over so they stayed for dinner and tonight we went there for dinner. Ashtonw as pretty good, started getting a little sooky before we left but oh well. Came home at 9.30pm, Done all his bottles, fed him and changed him thought he would sleep but no lol.. An hour later he was hungry again.  tried everything else first but nope he wanted his milk so i just topped him up with 60mls and now his sleeping. His not in a deep sleep cos he keeps waking himslef up by pushing his hands into his face lol.. Which reminds me he scratched his head for the first time today. I normally leave mittens on him but his hands get smelly cos he is still peeling on his hands and i also think he needs his hands to learn touching things. He already smacks toys around that are hanging but i think its more by accident lol..

Well its 12.30am and im gonna have a coffee now, Ashtonw ill probly be up anytime soon :(  I cant wait till he sleeps through the night. I dont mind getting up for feeds but iw ish he would go back to sleep lol, im sick of not gettign to bed till 5-6am.

I'll blog tomorrow and suprise evryone with how much weight he has put on hahahaha and ill take some more pix tomorrow.

Dannii xxo

Having a cry LOL

I got him to sit still inthis pic by jumping up and down HAHAHAHA

Ashton getting cranky, his sick of the flash goin off LOL

Bath time, he hates it but this one he actually enjoyed and didnt cry until i took him out.

 Ok well i have more but no tim to upload at the moment. Its 4.15am, Ashton is having a bottle very soon theni can finally go to bed YAY!!!

Dannii xxo

Ashton is one month old today, well really in 3 hrs if you wana go by the time he was born. Im actually suprised how quick it ahs gone, but at the smae time i feell ike ive been a mum for years. He weighs 4kgs now but thats with clothes on. I could be wrong tho, i just weighed me holding him then subtracted my weight.

I took some really good photos of him today and guess what?? Minti wont let me upload :( i reallyw natd to get them up so show you all how big he is now and how much he has changed.

I went to my mums today, she had a little party for my twin neices who turn 7 on sunday. The reaosn she did it is cos she works and cant come to their place sunday. I also went to the doctors today. He was checking ashton over and yep,  Ashton peed on him hahahaha, then he did this huge poo and stunk out the docs room, you should have seen teh doc openig the windows, he cudnt do it any faster hahahaha... Then Ashton peed again, this time he got me n the doc and all the floor, somehow he managed to save his clothes but his booties got drentched!!

Anyway, the doc said he is constipated, it happens when changing formula and just add some extra water to each bottle, it doesnt lessen the nutrition just keeps his fluids up and helps soften his poo so the poor little man doesnt struggle so much.

Hmmm.. and i was right, like i kew he was. The health nurse tried tellin me he has some thing in his belly button caled a grakumola( i really cant remember what it was called and cant understand her writing in his blue book), if he had that, it shudnt have popped nad oozed then grown back again. So yes his belly button iss infected, I always keep it clean but i shud have been using benadine and havnt been cos i was told its not infected grrrrr.... I was also told that colicky babies belly buttons push out. I was gonna go the shops and get the stuff today but it was pouring down today and dint want him out, so i just used bepanthem for now as a barrier.

Its nearly 5am lol, i dnt know how im surviving i only had 2hrs sleep from 8am - 10am.. We had my bfs other cousins and wifes over tonight, Ashton was making em both clucky and then he started scremaing and they remembered they dnt want to go through all that again hahahaha..

Today i wanna go shops, nothing fits me at the moment, i use to be a 7 but i have to stretch into most of my clothe snow so im gonna get afew things in an 8 tilli get back to the old me (if i ever do)??? I wanna go pumpkin patch too, im obsessed with all their overalls, there so cute.

Ok bed time for me, hope everyone is enjoying there weekend!

Dannii xxo

Ashton has played up basically since the day he was born. He doesnt sleep, only little cat naps. All he wants to do is eat. He gets his wind up fine now that ive changed formula but his still really unsettled all the time.

Im going to the doctors tomorrow. Ims till not happyw ith his belly button. I was told its some growth that falls off but all it does is pop then ooozes and grows back again. I was told its normal but i want a second opinion. Today would have to be the worst he has ever been. He just cries all day, for hours on end even if im holding him. I change him, feed him, burp him, massage him, bath himm but nothing helps. Im thinking he has colic. So ill see at the doctors tomorrow anyway.

Me, well im just going crazy. Im getting help when ever i need it but i cant call ppl to help me at this time (2.45am) lol.. He plays up big time from 12am till 5-6am so i ge sleep from 5-6am but still waking up every 2hrs to feed him and then im actually up again by 12pm. Im just so tired. I cant even sleep when he does cos i ahve things to do too. Tonight i had to do everything while holding him cos the second i put him down "wah wah wah"!!!!!!

Goran is doing as much as he can but the more i keep him up he is tired and cant go o work which means no money. Goran does majority of the cleaning and he feeds and burps bubs but isnt game enough to change him yet cos his too small lol.. Im not gonna bother with goran making bottled cos knowing him he'd stuff em up and the baby will get even more constipated thenw hat he already is.

Ok gotta go now, i got my 5mins silence, now he is screaming again YAY

Dannii xxo

well its 3.35am, i ahvnt been to sleep yet... I finally just put put Ashton down. His play up time is 12am- 4am.

Tonight we went to my uncles, had fish n chips for dinner, i managed to eat a hampburger with the lot. Since having ashton, in 3 weeks ive probly eaten what most do in 2-3days. I know i need to eat and the reaosn if eel so drained is cos i dont but im just so turned off food and feel i odnt have the time to eat and i cant be bothered, hopefully i can start eating again soon cos i miss food hahahaha..

Changed Ashtons formula from heinz nurture gold to nan gold today, its an extra $2 but maybe cos i got it from the chemist?? or is it always $24 a tin?? Anyway who cares about the money, good thing is he is bringing up his wind, i always get a few burps out of him and he is farting alot so at least its coming out one way or another lol... It also seems to be keeping him full for longer which is good. He is 3 weeks today and id already gone through 3tins of formula but i did waste alot on ahlf drinkin bottled. I always made a few smaller ones but with my bad luck he guzzled them ones...

Not sure what im doing today when i get up.. I know ive got a few things around here to do, washing and the floors, hmmm... maybe ill go shopping hahaha, nothng better to do in this freezing weather and i hate staying at home.

Well when i get a chance ill put more pix of Ashton up, i did say to myself id take pix of himd aily but i never get the time and he was always grumpy but now he seems to be doing alot better.

Off to bed for me, its now 3.40am, im crazy, i shud have went straight to sleep when he did lol...

Enjoy your weekend peoples!!

Dannii xxo

will take more pix soon, its hard to get him in a good mood with his wind problems..You finally get a burp up and then he gets frustrated cos he gets hiccups :(

Well went to the health nurse today for Ashtons 2week check up, he is actually 2weeks and 3 days tho.

He was born 6pound 3 and now he is 8 pound 3, so 2pounds in 2weeks hahahaha...But they said his not over weight and his length is really good and they say he will be tall, so i guess thats good if his gonna be a big boy.  I asked about the wind and constipation. They said to add an extra 10ml of water to each bottle, also try giving him 50ml of warm water with half a teaspoon of brown sugar. They also gave me sachets of another formula some nestle nan gold, and to try that if the water doesnt work. That formula is actually cheaper then the one im using too, so see what happens. Oh my, how my boy hates bein nakey lol, he screams and screams, its a battle just to change his nappy!!

As ive said before, ive been concerned about his belly button. Well its not infected at all and may have a small granukma sp? ...they said by 6weeks it can either disserpear or grow and if it does grow it can be burnt off like a wart with dry ice.

All his hearing is fine, his eyes are clear, very good reflexes and they said he is really strong and couldnt believe how long he holds his head up for lol...

He was really unsettled again lastnight, i didnt get proper sleep till 4am and had to get up at 7.30am, but i feel fine now cos i got out of the house.

OH and my grrrrr... for the day..We neeed to ring up agl cos we clicked that we aint receiving our gas or electricity bill, OH NOOOO!!!!.... I bet we gonna have so much to pay, i rekon $1000 fr the gas alne cos we run our ducted heating some of the day but over night :(   this house is just to big and gets cold.

Well better stop writing now, ill put some more pics of ashton up soon if i remember lol, ive lost my mind.

Ashton has been really unsettled the last 2-3days/nights..He wont sleep longer then an hour at a time. He has bad wind preoblems and constipation. I see the health nurse in the morning, i was suppose to go today but i was way to tired and couldnt even be bothered having a shower.

Ashton also seems to be feeding alot..I know his not feeding for comfort because i try everything before offering the bottle, i even let him cry it out but after 2minutes i couldnt handle it and it was that he was hungry. He is definetly putting on weight tho, he is really starting to fill out.

I feel so bad that he is in pain, he hardly ever burps and the only way he gets the wind out is by farting but it takes ages and he screams because he trys to poo but it hurts him. I seriously cant wait till tomorrow, i need to knowwhat i can give him to help him. Im just so drained and tired all the time and he is so much pain. I also need to know what amount she says he should be drinking and how often. I try and offer him more but he doesnt take it and 20minutes later he wants his bottle again.

Well sorry for my winge.

Dannii xxo

Im having a crying session at 2.30am, how sad hahahaha...

Would think id be sleeping that Ashton is but no cant drag myself away from minti..

Why ami crying??? cos im looking at all my preggy pics and i miss my belly, i didnt think i would cos i hated being pregnant but i miss all those kicks and getting all excited over them, Omg, im crying again hahahaha

Im happy my little guy is here but i sooo miss my belly, i cant get over it now, i even walka round rubbing my stomach forgetting there is no baby in there anymore. I thik too cos i had good skin then. I went 5days overdue and in those 5days i got stretch marks on my belly :( Now i feel ugly :( and my skin looks all different colours ggrrrrr...

ok better get to bed, baby will wake up within the next 1-2hrs for another bottle.

Dannii xxo 

Today was a pretty relaxing day for us.. Ashton played up most of lastnight so slept with me in the end, its just so much easier and gives me a piece of mind cos of his wind problems. Today Ashton and I stayed in bed till 3pm hahahaha, inbetween i just got up to warm his bottles and change him..While we were sleeping goran cleaned, nothing really had to be done but we do our floors every day cos white carpet and white tiles and he did all teh washing, its never ending and so hard cos of the cold weather, got washing hanging everywhere!!

Tonight i bathed Ashton all on my own. Ive been getting my mumt o do it cos ive been scared, i was bathing my 1st neice when i was only 7 and continued to bath the rest but i didnt feel confident with Ashton for some reason. Anyway, he spat the dummy for 10seconds and then loved it, moved his legs around and sucked on his hands hahahhaa..After 5mins he wanted out, so got him dressed, fed him, put him down and up again within 10minutes. Settled him again, down for an hour and then hungry again, fed him, changed him, down again, whinging now finally asleep lol.. But i swear im so dumb, i put him in his rocker when i should of put him in his bassinette cos now he gonna crack up a stinka when i move lol, mite just wait till his next feed..

He is such a piggy now, he grunts wheni  take the bottle away..Oh wait spoke to soon, he crying again lol...

brb...

Ok, 25mins later..He was still hungry so i just topped him up with 50mls, now ay im given him another 100mls when his wind is this bad, he only took 50mls anyway.

Well im gona have a coffee and a smoke and go lay down myself, and now i gotta keep a good eye on Ashton cos once again couldnt get a burp out of him. Ive heard of so many people using infacol but they chemist said No not till 1month :(

Dannii xxo

Heres a pic of Ashton watching tv after his bath. I cant believe how olive his skin is, its staying dark, im so happy!!!

First just wana say i still havnt taken photos :(   I havnt even had a photo with Ashton yet, just one when they got him breathing and i had a hold for like 5seconds.. I really need a photo with him and went to take one tonight and the camera is flat grrrrr...Gotta put it on charge.

Today my step dad watched Ashton while my mum and I got our hair done. I felt so badd leaving him but i knew he was in good hands, i just thought he may feel abandoned :(     Cos my hair is dyed black it has stay black unless i stripped it but it was so unhealthy so i have to wait 6weeks till it settles. I just got my re growth done because she didnt wana touch the rest cos it was still really black. I got so much cut off and got all my layers put back in and i feel like a new person now lol, i feel so much better!!

I also had to get new bras, The milk has pretty much stopped but left my boobs a cup size bigger. I got new underwear too, cant get bras without matching undies hahahahaha... Now when i go shops i always have to get Ashton something, so i got him more clothes ( so not needed, but to cute to resist lol) and got him more mittens cos he soaks his, his always munching at them even after he has eaten. He is beginning to become a little porker YAY, i love chubby babies. His body is still skinny but he has the chubby cheeks now and a double chin hahahaha...

His wind is still really bad so i talked to the pharmacist today but he cant have anything until he is 1month old :(  I eel so bad he has to be in pain for another 2weeks.. Poor little man whimpers in his sleep and sometimes wakes up screaming :(    Tonight he has been pretty good and given me some burps.

We had dinner at my mums, she made lasagne and salad, and Marinated chicken wings and fried rice. I so wish i had an appetite cos it smelt and looked so good but i couldnt eat much, my body just hates food now. I think i ate too much while i was pregnant lol..

I  havnt been getting much sleep.. Im tired ealry on but put off going to sleep cos i know Ashton will willw ake up wanting a bottle. He plays up from 12am onwards so in the end he sleeps with me and you dont hear a peep out of him besides for when he wants a bottle. I looked for one of those beds that go in ur bed but couldnt find one, ill have to keep looking cos he hates his bassinette.

Well better make up the rest of these bottles and try and get some rest.. Got a big day tomorrow, have more of Gorans family coming over, the ones that couldnt make it last weekend.

Enjoy your weekend everyone!!

Dannii xxo