This post is from from my other blog here

Should I wish for tomorrow to be here already or not? That is the question! Tomorrow will mark a very significant moment for our family-to be handed an oar to swim or to have our life jacket taken from us! I have fought all my son's life for him and have come up against a lot of people. I have been judged for my mistakes and people have assumed the opposite of the truth. Tomorrow we battle yet again with the what seems to be corrupt Social Services-they say they are there to listen, to help the family be a family without pain, to provide support and refer us to other agencies that could help us cope with the daily difficulties we face with having a disabled child. It appears they can say what they like in documents they write about you-and the new people that get involved take this as gospel. They can call you a liar even when you present them with physical evidence that says the opposite, a social worker can make mistakes and even when a written apology is issued by her manager, she is still able to repeat further drastic mistakes! This red tape frustrates me, this bureaucracy ignites my furry and yet I have to be calm in a room full of people when all I want to do is scream out loud and say 'you should have done what you get paid to do....help a young boy who is suffering and is frightened and who you say needs counselling!' If a raise my voice because I am being spoken over by a manager that is not willing to support our family because we have been with them for over a year, I am told I am aggressive! I had a telephone conversation with this woman and it was on speaker and my husband told me she had hung up on me while I was in the middle of a sentence-this is the person I shall face for the first time tomorrow. This is the woman who lied to be about a Panel Meeting and then I later found out this panel meeting was not the right one we were supposed to have seen, this was not the Wilf Ward Panel Meeting that decides about Direct Payments. She assumed the Social Worker had done the correct procedure(the same Social Worker who had already made the above said mistake), we had been lied to which had lead to consequences for our family and months of questions left unanswered but a social worker had yet again failed us. Tomorrow we seek answers, tomorrow we want the truth, tomorrow we want what we as a family are legally allowed to ask for according to government legislation. The problem is this woman wants us to go away quietly-she has only been involved for 6 months out of the 15 months we have been involved with the social services when we asked them to help our son, she is the new manager trying to impress so that she gets the job instead of disappearing when the previous manager comes back from secondment! My son is nearing the age of 10 and this proves to be a bad thing for the children's social services-they want you off their system as when he becomes 10 he becomes part of the adult services and possibly more has to be done. But we seek out issues that they don't want us to address tomorrow, they don't want to admit they failed to do things, they failed to renew my son's Core Assessment after a year, they failed to do a Carer's Assessment, they failed to provide formal requests to his psychiatrist 15 months ago and it is only now that the psychiatrist has been able to help regarding this issue, they failed to do a referral to Barnardo's for respite care, I was blackmailed into having a counselling session so that they would ask at the 'Panel Meeting' for respite care-once I had cottoned on I did 1 session and then quit, they knew I would do anything for my son to get help! They failed to invite our GP to 2 multi-agency meeting which she is fuming about! We have the support of our school, the psychiatrist, our home school support adviser and the GP that the Social Services should not have taken away the services and closed our case..... But we still fight them, I will not go away quietly for my son to end up with an ASBO in 3 years time or for him to have a criminal record because he is suffering with things that we can fix now. To every parent out their-keep fighting the system, keep shouting, keep records and diaries and be vigilant at all times. I thought we had found a great Social Worker this time-I had asked them to help before 4 years ago and nothing-we had previously suffered domestic abuse and I was given counselling but my son was left in turmoil with no support! They are accountable to someone, they are accountable to us through the Complaints Department. They get paid to help us so make sure they do the right job and speak up straight away if your gut tells you something doesn't add up! So it is inevitable that tomorrow will come. Can I redo the day if it all ends badly as the people who can't be there are the ones who support us-how can we fight when the ones we need can't be with us to stand by our side?