First of all I must you all a belated Merry Xmas, & all the best for 2008 & a happy new year. I'm sorry I dissapeared for awhile it is just that i was not to well mentally & physically. Any I thought it would be nice for my M. to experience a real family Xmas, but that was a big mistake. M's. Mum came down to stay with us for the Xmas & New Year period, as it turned out I should have just put a gun to head & pulled the trigger. It would have been less painful than what happened.

You know the one thing I regret is losing contact with my freinds here at Minti. Well I'm back now & hope you will all forgive me for neglecting freinds that got me through a tough time. As I said earlier mine & Xmas, no prizes for guessing who  caused that.

It was my fault that she was here as I invited her dwn to stay at Mine & M's home, she was down before for about a fortnight & every thing went well we cleared the air between us twards the end she soon realised that I was deadly serious about anything to do with my M. Yes I will bwe very honest that my comes before anything or anyone. This she did not like at all. I'm getting more depressed talking about what happened 2 days before Xmas.