Yes a virtual "PINCH AND A PUNCH" to everyone for the 1st day of the month   Its pretty lame but we still do that with my family... haha...

I cant believe its already August!!! Hmm... 14 days till our 7th Wedding Anniversary. I wonder whats in store, hopefully so much better than last. Thinking back it was one of my saddest days in my life. But back to the bright side, things are brightening up still, and there seems to  be more positive than negative and we can only just keep moving forward

Hubby will be home this weekend so it will be good. We have the VW's (Volkswagons) coming into town for there parade in the main street on Saturday so we will be checking out the beetles hehe...

Not much else planned for the weekend but just making the most of being a family and having each other there

Well after the sour turn out of the weekend. We are now talking again after sorting out our differences you can say. Well we really wanted to hear how each other feels i suppose but in a way we didnt listen to the point of the other person But through email we seem to do that... head to my world to read the emails

We do know our mistakes and i really hope he does get now how i feel after pointing out so many times to read an article which seems to explain it better where it will get it through his head... lol... at times he only gets things if he hears it from someone else or reads it, than hearing it from me.

Anyway we both are on speaking terms again and missing each other We cant wait to see each other again on the weekend...

Thanks everyone for answering my question last night. Well this morning Lealiki seemed fine and i observed her as she peed her nappy and she wasnt complaining at all. I asked her if it hurt and she said no, all happy like her usually self. When i changed her i checked her and there wasnt any traces of blood at all. So i decided i will just observe her today and see how she is.  I guess maybe it was just the nappy rash that she started to get that caused her to hurt a bit and maybe she scratched herself so that is why there was a bit of blood. When i changed her last night i put a lot of nappy rash cream on her to ease her discomfort. Will keep you inform how she is today.

The start of my weekend turned out nice. After dropping the kids off at my parents (they were staying there the weekend), I drove down to Sander’s house. I got there about 10 mins before him and started on dinner. When he got home we both cooked dinner together. After dinner we snuggled up on the lounged and watched some dvds, so it was a very pleasant evening alone together without the kids which felt a bit weird.

 

Saturday we had our marriage councellor session. It really got intense you can say at the end but we had to finish off as time was up. Our next appointment is in 5 weeks but im thinking of making it early after what happened today, but I’ll get to that later. After our session we planned on going to the movies but didn’t get there on time so we decided to go another day. That afternoon we spent it by checking out some new and used cars. We want to get a slightly smaller car. One reason is because this car keeps breaking down and doesn’t quite suit our purpose anymore. At night we went out to dinner to an all you can eat smorgasboard that included seafood, salads, baked dinner, soups, chinese and desert. We were so totally stuffed and the thought of eating anything else made us sick… hahaha

 

Now today we did plan on going to archery and I was actually looking forward to shoot this time but we didn’t have enough money so we decided to go next time. Instead we thought we go have a look at more cars.

 

After looking at a few cars, Sander asks me if we should just keep the car we have and I comment back to him, how I felt “No I don’t want it anymore because you took “HER” to places with the car and probably did things to her in the car along the way” He then tells me “Im going” and walks off back to the car giving me the silent treatment. How sour he totally turned against me. Just one comment and he gets pissed off with me for saying it. We drove back to his house and I tell him im leaving as Im not welcomed. Then he starts shouting and getting upset with me saying why do I always bring things up like that. Well I tell him, because I am still very hurt and he still has no idea how I am feeling. Yeah I knew the comment would get him upset but if he totally understood he could of reacted differently and replied to me something like “I understand how you feel and don’t blame you for wanting another car”. Then he goes on about Haidy and how he has no friends especially females because of me. And also points out that I should do something and that its his legacy to own a house for the kids…. AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH OMG…

 

I haven’t spoken to him since and I’ll just wait for him to call as im sick of making the apologies or calling up  after an argument. I am however going to send him an email which I would like your opinions please on what do you think of it? Should I send it to him tomorrow? Let me know… You’ll find the email over in my world here…

Yesterday my son had his first School Athletics Carnival. It brought back alot of memories for me and in a way i was thinking OMG i am old... hahaha... I remember running my first age race at 5 years and coming 2nd in the event. And at this school where my son attends now, I was like the first junior and 2nd senior sports house captain at the school back then when it first opened. I cant believe how time flies

My son wasnt actually that keen in going. He mainly sulked and cried most of the morning He is like one of the most popular and well liked students in the school. Everyone knows him and want to be friends with him but at times he acts like he has no friends   When i dropped him off i continually tell him i will be at the carnival and will meet him there in 15mins as i just needed to duck into the bank.  I guess being on holidays for so long he just seemed a bit anxious. Well eventually some of his friends tried to comfort him and hug him (so sweet these kids) and a teacher took him away to the lines to get ready to walk down to the sports oval across the school.

Lealiki and i got to the oval and we found a nice spot to sit and waited for the kids to arrive from walking down. The weather was so cold though but very cloudy at times it looked like it was going to rain but it didnt which was good. The girls running events went first and by the time the boys age races came my son did seem to be keen to participate... he went to the spot where they called them out to organise them and sat there with the kids in his age group, but before the first lot of kids were called up to line up along the starting line, Keandre starts crying with his head between his legs and kids are there hugging him... im thinking OMG no i really wanted to watch him race The teachers let him go back to me as he really didnt want to race. I know it is not nice to say this but i have such a sulky son. Eventually as the day progress he did start to lighten up a bit and start playing and talking with his friends who sat with us. The young kids then got called out to the middle of the oval for some misc. fun games. I was so happy that my son reluctantly did participate in those as his friends coaxed him to join. Partly through the games he looked like he was going to cry again but he toughened up which i was glad and he started to enjoy himself.

In the end everyone who participated got awards for team effort and my son was happy. He was even more happy when he asked the teacher if he could go home 1 1/2 hours early

As for another note, just read anon's blog and how scary did that sound. In a way last night when i was over at my parents for dinner, i usually never lock the car when i have it parked in front of there house. It wasnt till my mum came home from work and said to me 'your front passenger door is open'. I raced out to see if anything was stolen, well not that there is anything valuable to steal but it now makes me think twice in locking the door if it is only a quick visit to my parents. I guess whoever opened the door was just looking for money and they didnt close the door as it would of made a noise. But i never really bothered in locking the doors when at my parents as everyone knows who we are in the neighbourhood and wouldnt even think twice in breaking into each others belongings. Now you have to wonder how scary that is and should you really trust your neighbours.

Ok it started off with a rocky start which I want to get off my chest first… well when I left to go to Sander’s house I was a bit pissed off with him… lol… I came across some conversations he had with women on an ICQ chat program and didn’t like what I read and it also gave me an insight on how he was thinking and felt back then and really pissed me off when I saw the date… the day after I officially left

 

Casper is his username:

This is one person he talked to:

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:16 PM):

so they gave me an office job  wich is so much better   nice ppl   90 % women which is always nice haha

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:16 PM):

especially when i come in in the morning in my running clothes hahaha

icecoffee ‎(6/10/2007 3:17 PM):

bet you get all the looks........

icecoffee ‎(6/10/2007 3:17 PM):

the women i bet get there b4 u just to perve.........lol

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:18 PM):

anyways my uhh  now ex wife  well not yet but soon ... i hope    coulndt really apreciate that i went to work in a building full of women....

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:18 PM):

haha i get there at like 7 50 and yeah some are already there

icecoffee ‎(6/10/2007 3:18 PM):

oh.........she got too jealous........or was insecure..........

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:19 PM):

sorry about the spelling mistakes but hee  i got an excuse haha english not my first language..

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:19 PM):

yeah both i guess

icecoffee ‎(6/10/2007 3:19 PM):

man theres not too many jobs these days where there isnt a mix of sexes.......

casper ‎(6/10/2007 3:19 PM):

well she gone now ( with that kids  )

 

This is another person he talked to and in this conversation I realise he is talking about the skank:

casper ‎(7/10/2007 11:04 AM):

hopefully i can sort some things out today when my friend comes by as she does like me but she cant make up her mind... so...  now or never haha

48389591 ‎(7/10/2007 11:04 AM):

so clinical

casper ‎(7/10/2007 11:04 AM):

haha well i dont want to be a jojo or some little fling....

48389591 ‎(7/10/2007 11:05 AM):

fair enuf

casper ‎(7/10/2007 11:06 AM):

and havin casual s** that dont mean anything is not for me...

 

All I can think of is how pathetic he sounds. Especially here in his profile introduction I read for dating:

 

mmm well you gotta be sweet, caring and all the other nice things... gotta have a nice fit preferably size 10 body, hate smoking and i dont care if your white, black, brown green or orange... as long as your beautifull to me :) you gotta love kids and if you like archery thats a bonus :)   

 

How sleezy does that sound, telling a girl you want her to be a size 10!

How ironic he says there he hates smokers and he goes and sleeps and kisses with one for the last 7 months!

Im sorry these are just things that still pops up and gets to me  I emailed him before I left to go to the house that he better start changing all the websites he had joined and declaring that I am his number 1 that he has maintained. I didn’t bother waiting for a reply and just drove to his house. I get there before him, its pouring down rain. He took his cycling bike to work so he hasn’t arrived yet. Less than 10 mins later he gets there, greets the kids but not me, just giving me a cold shoulder. All I felt is those memories flooding back how cold he was to me. That is how he was. And all he could say is “why didn’t you call me, you could of picked me up from work instead of me cycling in the rain” I told him, how was I suppose to know it was going to rain there. It was sunny when I left and only started raining as I started to reach Port. I was still another approx. 30 mins away from Port when he finished work and so it will take him 20 mins to ride the bike. I just went and cried in the kids room  I really didn’t want to be there anymore. Eventually after 30 mins or so of crying he comes in and comforts me. I calm down a bit. He doesn’t say anything but he does seem sincere that he doesn’t like to see me sad. I guess we sat there in silence for another half hour. Its just not easy for me still being in that house with all those memories but im putting up with it for the next 2 weeks.

 

After that terrible start we started talking again and just enjoyed each others company with the kids. The rest of the evening was fine, we snuggled up and watched a dvd together.

 

The Saturday (5th) we decided to take the kids Christmas present shopping as they had the ‘biggest toy sale’ promotion. It was so busy in the store but unfortunately there wasn’t much choice left as lot of toys where sold out especially the one toy our son wanted which was the remote control triantula (sorry cant spell) spider. He was so looking forward to getting that toy, especially to play a trick on my teenage young sister… hehehe…

 

On the Sunday (6th) we decided to go to the Archery range. Where they hold shoots every Sundays. Sander hasn’t been for ages and it was suppose to be a family thing we wanted to do together which we want to start again. Secretly I do feel a bit pissed off as I know he has taken the skank there and also he had took her there for the clubs Christmas party last year In a way again I wish he didn’t as this was suppose to be “our” thing. I try not to let it get to me. Besides that I did had a good time. I didn’t try shooting this time as we had the kids but probably I would next time when we don’t have the kids with us. I was quite surprise how well behave the kids were and that they didn’t complain much about the walking we had to do to the different targets in the bush. Overall we had a good day and very nice weekend.

 

We thought the weekend went by quick as we wanted to spend time with Sander but he had to work during the day. So the kids and I kept busy, going to the shops, the park, playing the xbox, watching dvd’s, painting, cooking/baking, making a mess for me to clean up … lol… till he got home in the evening.

 

There was however one particular day that he pissed me off again… lol… sorry I need to get this off my chest… I thought I would surprise him and tidy up his wardrobe as it was a total disaster with clothes everywhere. I did mention to him that he should fold his clothes so he could find something and he tells me he will but I know he couldn’t be bother so I did it for him. Anyway as I did that I was furious to find two of the skanks t-shirts and a his and her matching t-shirt… ggggrrrr …. I thought he said he got rid of everything but looks like he didn’t. It really bothered me that they got each other matching shirts (she a white von dutch t-shirt and he a black von dutch one) Im thinking geez you never did that for me…ggggrrrr… He tells me to chuck it and that he thought he did get rid of everything. After a few hours I start thinking it probably was an honest mistake. His wardrobe was in a mess and really he has been living out of the laundry basket so he could of missed those pieces of clothing by mistake.

 

Came the 2nd weekend of the school holidays finally. We can spend more time again as a family. Well the Saturday we just lazied around the house. We had a repair man come over to fix the back door lock. My husband chatted to him about the possum living in the roof at the moment and the repair guy offered to go up the roof using his ladder to see if he can locate a hole where the possum could be sneaking into. Unfortunately he couldn’t find one so for now I guess we have to learn to live with the possum til we know what to do with it.

 

On Sunday we went and saw KungFu Panda at the movies. The kids enjoyed the movie and were well behaved, happily munching on there popcorn and drinks. We were happy Lealiki sat down and actually watched the movie, in the end she did get a bit irritated and wanted to walk around a bit but she settled again till the end of the movie 

 

Once again the weekend went by really quick. And so did the last week of the school holidays. While Sander worked the kids and I kept ourselves entertained at home. Though Keandre and I did fall ill halfway through the week . I started getting a saw throat and eventually after 2 days I could hardly swallow my food. I went to the doctor there and they said I had early signs of tonsillitis. He put me on some antibiaotics which after 2 days cleared up. And as for Keandre we decided to give him something healthy to snack on instead of chocolates or chips so we bought these healthy snacks called “Fruit Flakes”. I never thought something that is all natural and supposely be healthy gave my son such a bad allergic reaction. Within 2 hours his face and body started flaring up with hives. I have never seen him have such a bad reaction before. So the next hour or so I just kept an eye on him to make sure it didn’t get any worst, otherwise I would take him to the hospital. He seemed find but just couldn’t stop scratching. I gave him a bath and covered his whole body with baby powder, that’s all I had I could think of to help relieve the itch… lol… he was telling me he was the ‘sand man’ from the spiderman 3 movie as the powder dripped off him … hehehe… Eventually the hives did die down and the next day he was totally clear of it, which was a relief. Now I know I will not give him those ‘fruit flakes’ anymore despite how yummy they taste. Looks like I think I will just give him a chocolate or chip to treat him with.

 

Finally, the last weekend of the holidays. We decided to spend the day bed shopping. We wanted a new bed. After going through a few stores we decided on a nice bed package but on our way to the store we spotted another store we missed. We thought we would check what they have there before we do make our final decision. In the end we found something else that looked nicer at that store and ended up ordering that in. I think it will take about 6-8 weeks to come in as it’s a King Size bed which they didn’t have in stock. Cant wait to try out the bed when it finally comes in and I will actually feel much comfortable when I sleep over there at Sanders house . The old bed we are going to sell. I cant wait to see it go actually, didn’t like it anyway as it was too firm for me. How much do you think it is worth that we should sell it for. It’s a King Size Ensemble, only  1 ½ years old. Extra Firm.

 

Well after bed shopping the kids were puffed out… lol… and couldn’t wait to get into there own bed

 

The Sunday we packed up our things and headed back home. Unfortunately we got the bad news last week that our son’s last pet fish died by freezing to death. It has been so cold lately I didn’t realise that fish can actually freeze to death. I guess we are not really good at looking after our pet fishes when the other one drowned to death (that is he got his head stuck under a rock and could swim up for oxygen) quite ironic really.

 

I think our next pet will be a hermit crab. Im sure they are not that hard to look after… I hope… lol…

 

Well today is the first day back to school and my son complains he is sick and starts crying so I let him off today. He will start school tomorrow which in fact they will have there School Athletics carnival on which he will definitely go and should be good watching him race in his age races, which he is excited about.

 

I guess I will finish off here and start doing some chores

Have a good day everyone and thanks for reading… lol… I didn’t realise how long this is…

 

 

 

 

Ok.. I said i will post my blog today but I havent quite finish writing it out... lol..

Lately the kids are more interested with doing things on the computer now, wanting to watch a dvd or play a game

My blog is just 2/3 written and Im feeling so tired now... its 11pm I really should head to bed as school starts tomorrow! I need to start getting use to rising up early again

I will definately post it sometime tomorrow  

Till then *yawns*  SWEET DREAMS EVERYONE TRY NOT TO LET THE BED BUGS BITE... hehehe

 

Yes IM BACK!!!

Wow i cant believe the 2 weeks went by really quick. I hope i didnt miss out on much.

I've got a lot of reading to catch up on... hehe...

Will blog tomorrow on what my 2 weeks was like as at the moment i've got the kids getting into each other's hair again... lol... a never ending cycle   Both want to watch 2 different dvd's but only have one tv. Will let one of them use the computer to watch there choice of dvd while the other has the tv and leaves me computerless again... lol... oh well...

Hope everyone has been good

Hey everyone, thought i'd just let you know that since NSW school holidays will be starting today (officially when the bell rings at 3.15pm... lol), the kids and i will be heading to Port to spend some time with Sander so i wont be online as much these next 2 weeks cause he doesnt have a computer. Hopefully i wont miss out too much whats going on I'll just have alot of reading and catching up to do when i get back... hehehe...

Oh well it would be good to not have a computer at all to check up on little things now and then, I guess i'll actually get something done. So hard when you want to do stuff but the computer is right there in the lounge room and you have to have a quick peek on whats happening... hehehe...  I think i will be missing the computer heaps...

Will be spending my computer free time though catching up on some canvas painting instead!

Take care everyone and have a happy holiday!