Ok so the hospital are beginning to get to me. come yesterday morning i still hadbnt heard from the matron who BTW was supposed to call me 4 days ago now to arrange a meeting for my apology still ive heard nothing . 2 days ago the executive of the hospital were supposed to call me back To help me with my complaint . I just want it all over . Late yesterday i managed to speak to the lady from P.A.L.S i spoke to in the beginning. Guess what this gyne dr that should have been pulled 4 days ago still hasnt. Now she is being pulled monday . I am really getting pissed off nobody can tell me nothing.

I recieved these emails :

Our Patient Advice and Liaison Officer will be trying to contact you today, to offer you the opportunity to meet with the matron and the clinical director.

 Thank you so much iappreciate your reply and help . Yes i did speak to the matron on a few occasions yet she was supposed to get back to me yesterday. I just want to know whats happened as at the moment there is no recognition for it as there are no notes about it . At first the matron did nt believe me it wasnt until i informed the herald i was believed unfortunatly hence the outcome . Again thanks so much for forwarding the email i hope things now get sorted 
 

Glad that my replies have been of some help.  I’m told that the matron has tried a number of times to reach you by phone since you last spoke to her. Hopefully you’ll have heard from our PALS officer by now. 

 

Im sorry but that is lies i have been home apart from taking my step daughter to school and my phone has not rang. Your replies have been fantastic ive had more use out of what you have told me than anyone so far. Thanks so much i appreciate it. I heard from P.A.L.S today i think i spoke to the person that put me in touch with the matron.She said to expect a call mondayby which time it will be a week and 6 days after the incident . Thanks again.

I just feel like i am wasting my time . I cant find out who i need to address my complaint too as nobody will tell me . The herald are currently working on the article and i dontr even have an apology and by the sounds of it im nowhere near it. At this rate i will have my medical records before an apology. They seem to be really dragging it out and i just want it all over. Ive spoke to so many people yet all i get told is i will ring you back and the call never arrives. Im just so pissed off and angry with it all.

Luv Emz xxx

Well things are really moving now . I got a bit mad that that matron never phoned me i waited untill lunchtime and then got on the phone i rang the hosputal this time i never asked for P.A.L.S. instead i chose to explain to the person on the other end of the phone whats been going on 1 day not allowed to complain the next i am . I told her she was meant to call me last night after she spoke to the nurse in question yet i am still waiting. She was suprised at that and said nobody can stop you from complaining i told her whatthe matron had said and she said ok hang on a moment and i will put you through to the executive i think she said of the hospital they will be able to help you further. I told her what had happeneed i am now waiting for her to ring me back she wasnt too imressed it took the papers for me to be ableto complain. She advised me i should contact the miscarriage assosiation as at the time i was very upseet . Also as you can proberly guess seems my foetus has not been put in my notes or anything i want to know what happened to it so i wanted to ask if i had that right also i explained how upset and hurt i am. Also how the nurse has made me feel so angry and the hospital not helping me much. Theey were fantastic help here i will copy paste the message its nothing i havent told you guys.

Thank you for contacting The Miscarriage Association. I was very sorry to hear that you sadly suffered a miscarriage recently and can appreciate what a difficult time this is for you. I do hope our organisation can help provide you with any support and information you need.   It was sad to hear about the lack of information you have been given about your foetus and it's understandable that you feel angry about this.   The hospital will have routine procedures for what happens to miscarried babies or foetuses and they should be able to tell you what that is and what has happened in your case. If you can't get this information from the ward or a bereavement officer, why not try the hospital chaplain?   Hospitals should be responsible to dispose of the remains in a sensitive way and they really should be talking through with you, how this is done if this is the case. It is possible that if you are making an official complaint and also talking to the media that this might make them a bit more cautious in talking to you and it may have been passed on to the hospital trust (which you could always write to). This however shouldn't really make a difference in you finding out the information, which you are entitled to do.   I do hope you can find something out soon and if we can help in any other way, do contact us here at anytime.   Best wishes   Lisa at The M.A.   She lead me into the right direction i googled torbay hospital trust . Isaid aboutthe complaint and me wanting to know whats happened to the foetus silly me pressed the wrong button and sent it to the wrong person yet i still got a reply it went to a website  

Your message has arrived via our website and I have forwarded it to the hospital’s manager for women’s services.  I know that she is aware that the matron spoke to you earlier this week.  I very much hope that she can help you – I know she will do everything possible.  We are very sorry indeed that you have had such an upsetting time.

I didnt personally get this email until after 5 so i guess the manager will get back to me tomorrow at least i hope,

As for the herald they called last night to make sure much hasnt changed before my story gets published which should be early next week. The reporter i have been doing this with is at a funeral today but she will be calling Barry tomorrow to ask him a few questions basically the same as me just from his point of view. So really they are moving faster .

Afterall ive been waiting 2 days just for a meeting time for that witch to apoligise to me. I wonder if she even got pulled??? But still i should find out tomorrow . I will not be taken as a fool and they can ignore as much as they like i wont go away until i have it sorted i will be their worst nghtmare lol.

Also i got called into Kylies school today when i got the call they said it was reguarding her behaviour but unfortunatly it doesent stop there . Kylie is sppending alot of time out on the naughty chair lately . The behaviour reason i was called in was because she was being rude to the dinnerlady. They are supposed to line up quietly to wait fortheir lunch no talking til hey are sat down well Kylie would not shut up . She was told to stop talking 5 times and each time she said NO !!! For this she was put on the timeout chair apparantly sahe is like this quite alot. I asked if she was a bully because of the way she is with chloe lately she said she is kind to everyone just wont do as she is told . I explained to her i was going to speak to her because i get it at home too i shown her what Kylie did tp Chloes head yesterday when she tipped her out the buggy she was amazed . The other problem is more to do with her learnming she is struggling at school i think its her concentration its just that the teacher says to the whole class go find something to do everybody will find something yet Kylie will just stand there . She cant make up her mind for herself thbe teacher has to give her a few things to choose from and if there is more than 2 she gets confussed . But they said they would inform me if this got worse or ifother problems in this area develop so we will see what happems

Luv Emz xxx

I want to scream. Im seriously thinking of moving out for a while with Chloe of course. Im sick of the arguements im sick of kylies behaviour and im getting sick of the pups too.

The last weeek has been such a struggler and now my fuse is blowing . Since i been out of hospital all i have had is stress. Bearing in mind i didnt get home until 11.30pm Barry promised me he would get up at 6 with the kids for me come morning i had to get up to the kids because KAylie was in our room and he wouldent wake upso i had to get up . Igot the kids some brekkie went back to try and wake barry but nothing i went to get some milk to make a cuppa seems he wasnt getting up like he promised he would. All of a sudden there was a big smell . Pepsi obviouskly didnt get let out the night before and she had poed all over the kennel and pups . Imanaged to finally wake barry up . Guess who cleaned the poop me as usual. It made him heave so i had to do it yet i was throwingup doing it. TQhen of course i hgad to clean all the pups.

Kylies behaviour is ridiculous  She is out to cause argumentsand when she gets success she finds it hilarious. Yet barry says its me being a bitch as usual We argue from the time Barry gets up tilhe goes to work in the evening until Kylie goes to bed and the whole weekend im sick of it. I cant breathe withoutr doing something wrong trhis morning it was that Kylie asked me to lift her over the wood we have wood up for the pups so they are trapped. Anyway i lift her over to this barry had just got up and she starts screamihg i asked her why she was screaming and suprise suprise i hurt her . Daddy daddy mummy hurt me she piy me on the wood BULLSHIT. Of course i had why did you hurt Kylie . Issaid for god sake here we go again wheres the mark if i hurt her ???? Funny there is no mark if she got hurt on wood im sorry but there would be a mark. Its like this everydayy its got to a point while Kylie is eatinbg brekfast i have een going to my bedroom becvause if i sit in here she only tries winding me up and causing arguements i cant stand tobe in tyhe same room.

Im having a dilemma with the pups too . God i cant wait until they are homed . Yet it looks like most of them are going to free homes grrrr. The whole point in selling them was so we could get buster gabbed and his balls chopped off but now im going to have to pay for that there are only 2 pups that are actually being sold. I said jerry could have one because he lost his dog , the fathers owner can also have one yet the other night Jerry called and asked if the fathers owner could come see the pups beingi n the evening i thought it would be just her and her oldest daughter so i said of course there were bloody 10 of them most i didnt even know and there was one guy who said to barry ui want that one jerry seems to be giving them away jerry is telling peop;e i am giving them away fantastic. Nowq they are getting clever little thingsno matter how i block the door they can get out and its not just a couple its all bloody 8 . Irang barry for help of what to do but all iget is what do u expect me to do come back from work???? I said fine i will go and buy some woodand sort it myself but no not allowed to dio that either instead i haveto run around likea headless chicken putting them back. he is ok so thats fine Im just sick of it all .

Luv Miserable Emz xxxx

Im knackered . In the UK its been a really hot day . Ive been trying to catch up with the housework and washing and all . What do youknow that bloody phone i nearlycut the cable it was constant ringing . Barry 90% of the time are youok what are you doing grrr. I did end up going to see the doctor i have never seen her before and she was quite nice. My blood pressure is back to normal . She was shocked the hospital discharged me without anti biotics but to be honest im nnot suprised apparantly theyu are supposed to give you anti biotics after a miscarriage because you are prone to infections which is proberly why my stomach is still hurting. She said i should stop bleeding soon oh i can hope but if its not stopped in a week i shoulsd go back. Also she asked if i needed any further help with what has happened so i told her the dr was meant to be sorting it out yesterday . So she wrote on a bit of papaer so the receptionist could make mean appointment with their councillor the soonest they can fit me in is 5th june i know its only a couple of weeks but that will drag. In the meantime she has sent me a refferal for miscarriage councelling . She aslo said it doesent really matter at the moment that i cant eat as long as i keep the fluids up .

Hospital rang not long after i got back i wasnt too polite. She said she wanted to let me know how the complaint is going . Iwas there thinking yesterday you said i could not complain WTF??? I said that is very funny isnt it ?? She played dumb acted asif she didnt know i have gone to the papers. Isaid yesterday younever believed me and you insisted all i saw was blood clots ?????? She said i told you all i could yesterday as i was going on only your notes . Yet she hasnt and wont tell mer what else she now has. Welli know for sure the papers faxed them last night with my information.

So the way things lie with them is miss gyne nurse is on nights hmm i could pay her a visit . No i wont only joking. So anyway she will be pulled into the office tomorrow evening at 9.15 and will be questioned on what she is playing at . She asked if i would like a apology from her in writting or face to face ??? Oh and im a wild one so it has to be face to face i dont think she deserves to get to write the apology i think she should be put in the heat and face what she done. Also i dont think she should work with women who are miscarrying because she has left me horrified if i was to have another miscarriage i wont go to hospital i would rather loose it down the toilet. . Shesaid ok what you have been put through is horrifying its beyond imagineable the images i am having. Funny she couldent do this yesterday . She went on about the notes again all that is in the notes is that i was loosing alot of blood and what i was given . Not 1 mention i had lost the foetus no wonder she was so keen to examine me glad i waited for barry to retuyrn it wouldd have been my word against hers. I didnt even loose clots until i was in hospital and i didnt leave until it was over just looking atthe scans they can tell i am telling the truth. So finally we are getting somewhere she is going to call back tomorrow and arrange a meeting .

Tomorrow i will be calling the hospital  to request my notesi didnt think i could only from my dr but i can request them at hospital too. See it makes me really mad . There is no written proof of my foetus so where the hell is it??????????? Just put in the bin??? My baby gone with the trash asif it means nothing well it measn alot to me . Ok so i was only 8 weeks but ittook 2 years for me to fall pregnant and it was mine still is. The question i want answered they cant tell me only miss gyne nurse can and i will ask her .

Photographer came it was horrible i thought i was going to go blind the flash was so bright . He tookabout 30 pictures why they need so many i will never know . By the end my eyes were sore lol.

Oh and guess what MY MINTI MAIL WORKS i cant believe it it hasnt worked since the big upgrade but at last its working my send button has found its home. Bless . Anyway enough waffling from me i will zip it now.

Oh i forgot but Chloe is talking too she is saying so much at the moment her favourite word seems to be puppies its so cute i could just eat her. WHOOPS puppy in the hpouse ahh better get it out before it poops everywhere they are outside until night now they love it .Ok im really shutting up now .

Luv Emz xxxx