Hey Kell,

I always thought i was but now im not too sure i just hope i can get out thius hole coss it is deep its not fair

Luv Emz xx

Hi Marg,

Yes i am just waiting for them to call back tomorrow and hopefully the ball will get rolling i cant keep on like this, That is horrible i wouldent be able to hack that either thst is just plain mean.Why are people sp cruel none of this should have hasppened its not fair you know just befor ei had lost the baby she said to me to reasure me 'its ok its only a miscarriage' how thoughtless. Its just so hard im trying so hard to stay strong for the kids but its so hard i feel m about to break. I know its going to talke time but its just so hard at the moment. i want it all to be a big mistaake but its not its definatly gone totally heartbroken.

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Maria,

Yes im going to i need to do it for the girls . I have to come to terems with it i look at chloe and i feel sop guilty . Im still having to take folic acid which to mme at the moment seems pointless but once ive stopped bleeding and had a period we can try again but i hate it . The thing is i dont know why i lost it . i just keep getting visions of the remains it was horrible half of me wishes i had staye home . We will be trying again we have to just wantto sort my head a bit first .

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Helen ,

Yes hopefully  by monday my doctor will have my councelling set up and these people up the hospital P.A.L.S deal with people struiggling after miscarriage so hopefully they will be able to help too maybe better than my doctor .

I just hope that nurse pays for what she did its sick and wrong i cant get it out my head and its all her fault . She will be in the matrons office first thing monday morning .

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Matey ,

I dont know but she was nasty from the start but i know decking her is only going to land me in troublee yet im not in the wrong sop its not a good idea after all i will only get arrested but she riles me . So instead i will go the long way ropund andkick assjust have to wait for the matron to ringm e back on monday to discuss when we will met up and how they are going to deal with this issue.

Luv Emz xxx

Sounds like the only thing you can doyour feeling a bit better. Jx

That was suppose to read....Sounds like the only thing you can do!  I hope your feeling a bit better! xx

LOL Yes just wait and see what happens

Luv E,z xxx

Hey Cath,

Yes its great hopefully it will get started real quick but its the NHS  after all i wont keep my hopes up. As for the nurse well she deserves everyhing she gets but P.A.L.S ring bk monay and hopefullythe ball can get rolling i just want itover abnd done with .

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Fi ,

Tempting isnt it but then i think this has happened to me what if a woman say 10 weeks gone miscarries she confirms her miscarriage with her dead baby there is another woman suffering what i am that thought kills me . She needs dealing with and i wont back down this gets ignored i will take it to the papers . I will fight them all the way the miscarriage itself was upsetting enough without showing me that . But my doctor thinks this will release alot of anger and help my healing and i believe in him . I think i need the councelling and its great my doctor has possibly founsd me one near by so fingers crossed he will have it sortd for monday

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Honey ,

Yes im stilll here just hanging here you know its really hard andbelieve it or not Barry has been great. He keeps sending me to bed thoughnot happy about that it just makes me think more . Hmmm good job he did really but you are right she isnt worth the little bit of energy i have left but she is worth reporting she dontr get away that easy. i wish i had the 1st nurse for just an extra hour or so i would not have seen it then . HJopefully i wil gwt some councelling really quickkly but we will see

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Arna,

Yes rna it is very hard but i  am scared of going crazy over this so i have to fight it now . I need to think of the kids I need to be well for them.

Oh you should have come to the scan that nasty nurse looked at me smiling everything ok now? I went to go for her and Barry had to restrain me he says she was only trying to be nice but was she only being nice when she reasured me by saying its only a miscarriage and showing me my dead baby oooo i could kill her .

Yes its fantastic i have you guys to be quite honest i don know whati would do without it right now. I knew the NHS was bad but this is beyond ridiculous .

Ive told Barry he should get coucelling too but he is sure he doesent need it he is such a stubborn git. Thing is though he does he went into work yesterday to pick up his paperwork for monday and 1 of the lads was telling a joke about abortion and hehad him up against the wall btw he didnt know why barry has been off work. Barry got a  bit of a teelling off.

Yes i will be keep writting believe it or not its keeping me sane . It was so unexpected my MIL called last night she hadnt got our text and she wanted to know how i was getting on with her next grandchild  she was gutted wwhen barry had told her what had happened .It just dont make sense 4 days earlier everything was totally normal When i started bleeding monday night i knew in my heart it was a miscarriage and the doc said the possibilities are there .

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Kseers,

How horrible they really dont have a clue do they ? Its horrible sat in there its bad enough Kylies teacher is heavily pregnantbut being surrounded with them i didnt know what to do with myself all so happy to see their baby but mine is gone after we left the hospitsl i got in the car and cried my eyes out i was welling up all through the hospitsl .You mean you had to pay for your u/s when u had a miscarriage that is awful . I think the only reason the dr helped me was because i told him i was going crazy and i want to do silly things to the nurse . Yes i am glad they aare taking it seriously and are dealing with it. My dr seems to think it will help me to grieve as it will loose some anger so we will see what happens monday.

Luv Emz xx

Hey Sweetie,

Yes i think i need it  my doctor has been great and he is straight with me too at first he thought i saw it on the scan and that was what i was angry about Aand when he realised what i meant he was disgusted . cant hold much down at the moment but i am trying.

Lotsa Love Emz xxxx

It just doesent make sense i have no clue why i lost it its gutting and heartbreaking i feel so empty its silly.

As for the nurse i hope they deal with her and the quicker the better. I will listen to the dr though he has done more years at school thasn me he knows wat he is talking about

Luv Emz xxx

Hey Sweetie,

I havent quite made the complaint yet hopefully i will get a date to meet up with the matron of the unit on mondayand the ball can start rolling. She will do it to somebody ellse and thats not fair its horrible and she shouls pay for it

Luv Emz xxx

OMG - That is horrible they could have at least put you in A&E  if they really had no space its just not fair they should be more understanding.

I was taught dont get mad get even so althoughit would be great to knock the living crap out of her the complaint sounds better i dont have much energy snd im not wasting it on her.

You get mentally bitchslapping she sure deserves it she makes me sick . But you know whaat they say it can only get better.

Luv Emz xxx