Hey Angela,

Yes they seem to be dragging it out way too far and even if barry dont stand by me on it i will still fight. Ive been calling hem all day everyday i must have spoke to about 10 differant people from differant departments but it seems to be moving so slow. I want a proper apology and i wont leave until i have it and i want it on paper too . She will pay for this if its the last thing i do.

Luv Emz xxx

Ive been in bed most odf the day and gave myself enough time to think and my decision is weather he sticks by me or not i will fight until the end . I just realised what a total asshole he is . Im doing this for me and my angel nobodyy else.

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Amanda,

I know its crazy . 4 things ive asked them, to do in result to this those are only apology , written apology , explanation and for her to never be allowed to work with another woman sufffering a miscarriage really its not much . They are even lying to cover their backs they are winding me up.

This is going to be one hell of a hard fighty but i will fight with all i have barry by side or alone . I spent 15 in the presence of my baby outside my body and for that i will fight there was presence and nobody will tel me differant and i wont back down until the truth is told.

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Helen,

Well they no longer need to cover themselves im not fighting no more theres no pint i cant do it without barry and its suddenly not what he wants so i will stop.

Luv Emz xxx

I just read you have put you lost your angel and its your fault

you gotta stop that right away !!!!!! Thats pushing the button to self destruction.

THIS IS TOTALLY NOT YOUR FAULT !!!!!! NONE OF IT

I lost a baby at 20 weeks and went through the same guilt as you but learnt there is nothing you can do to change what happened, and there is nothing you could have done to prevent it either

I'm sorry you aren't fighting anymore but you have to do what is best for you all as a family, you need time to heal and grieve without pressure from anyone.

xxx

Hey Helen,

Barry seems to think it is apparantly i killed our baby through mood swings and its all my fault . He no longer wants to have the story in the paper but to be honest he wants it withdrawn he can withdraw his own words but not mine . But the thing is now i wonder if it really was my fault and i just dont know.

I tried my best to prevent it as soon as the blood started i was straight to the dr but he said if i was miscarrying he cant do anything to stop it . But i do feel terribly guilty my angel didnt get to breathe the air i do. We met through a specimen bottle instead it just hurts so much.I can even bare to imagine how hard it was for you to miscarry at 20 weeks 2 months and my heart is in 2.The onlyu thing keeping me going is Chloe.

Now i have had a long think and barry can do what he likesbut i will fight right to the end i will stop when the trth is out until then i will be their worst nightmare. If he wants to withdraw his side thats his problem obviously didnt mean all that much to him .

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Annie,

They dont have any but still doesent matter now

Luv Emz xx

Hi Jo,

Unfortunatly i am just going to to have to get over it . I lost my angel which is totally my fault so now i will just have to face up to that and move on.

Luv Emz xxx

Its ok its come to an end now all of a sudden notr  what barry wants so there is no point in carryingit on i jkust have to face it happened i have to get over it.

Luv Emz xxx

HiHoney,

It doesent matter now anyway dont worry about it all f a sudden its not what barry wants so when they call i will tell them to forget it its ok for them to treat me like this and im going to have to phone the herald later as barry now doesent want it in the paper . Now i just have to face up to what happened and get on with it. Just been wasting my time the last 2 weeks .

Luv Emz xxx

Emmie what do you want? This is about you, not about Barry, if he does not want answers then fine, but if you do, then be true to your heart and go for it. He can withdraw his statement to the paper if he wishes, but at the end of the day it has to be your peace of mind that counts too. If persuing the information is what will help you cope then Barry should just deal with it. It is about you, and hun, your feelings count big time. Lecture over.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Luv Winnie.xxxx

Winnie ,

Look it doesent matter what i want what i want doesent count . I cant just withdraw his part cos he is in photos too . The truth has been told and now i know what a heartless cunt he is and yes ive told him that and sorry for using that word but he has pissed me off bigtime. Now i know how barry feels . Right im off now im going bed im sick of the site of barry and im sick of listening to his nasty crap.

Luv Emz xx

Listen to our Winnie.....

Now i calmed down im listening i was too angry before

Hey Fi,

It ssure looks like it . They can hope to their hearts content i will be their worst nightmare and i wont back down until the truth is out . My angel deserves this much at least and for that reason i will keep going until they break. I bet her ears must be burning constantly .

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Cass,

I think they recon im gonna get bored but they are so so wrong .You would think with her being a gyne dr they would get their butts in gear but they seem pretty laid back .

Hopefully the matron will actually call monday and i can get this meeting with the direcor and matron so i can be closer to getting my apology ive been waiting for.

Luv Emz xxx

Hi DA ,

Ive spent the majority of the day in bed and i had time to think and i really do think they think i am just going to get bored but im not . Also your right what dont get done today can get one tomorrow i just need to keep my hwead above water . Cheers

Luv Emz xxx

I think the best part of my day was the time i spent in bed pretending to be asleep LOL

Luv Emz xx