My mind is melting ! When i read my stry in the paper this morning i was at first glad it was fnally out but as i read on and i got to the hospitals part well i nearly choked on the BS . Seriously where do they get off ??? They make me sick !! I got really mad and got straight on the phone to the hospital and got put through to the patient advice and liason sevices officer bummer it was too early so i left a message on the answer phone and basically said i demanded to know why they have got lies printted oiin my story and i wanted an explanatuion asap.

In the meantime i rattled my brain for a bit and i wondered if there was the slightest chance that my local MP could possibly help me . So i googled it well if a girl dont try a girl dont know. So anyway i found this website of his with his adress phone number and email address. I was in a right state there was no way i could talk to him on the phone so i decidded to write him an email . I explained what is happening at the moment and so it wasnt too bad for me i gave him a link to my blog 7.5.08 the day after the miscarriage. I explained i am at my wits end and am struggling to keep it together and still with no aplogy at all and no explanation i cant heal and i need to be strong here for the sake of my kids at least . That i didnt know where else to turn and asked if there was any way at all he could help me .

Yesi pretty much begged but i really need this to be over with . I just been in to check my emails and i am very suprised to see i have already had a reply and he was ever so kind.

Dear Ms Fairchild   Thank you for your email dated 28th May regarding your recent treatment at Torbay Hospital.   I cannot imagine how you must be feeling at this time and please accept my sympathies. As you can appreciate I have no medical training or knowledge so it is impossible for me to advise you on the details of your case. What I can do however is write to the Chief Executive of Torbay Hospital Trust, Tony Parr, and ask that your complaint is investigated with the utmost urgency.  Once the hospital has completed the investigation if there are any procedures you think they haven't followed again I will be happy to chase them up.   Please get in touch if you would like me to write to Mr Parr as discussed above. If I can be of assistance in any other way please do not hesitate to contact me.   Yours sincerely   Adrian Sanders

YES SUCCESS!!!! Finally this should definatly get that ball rolling . I managed to speak to the guy at the hospital he called back to have me screaming at him yet again boy i do feel a bit bad about that he is the middle man really . He denies telling the herald that i have been written to with an explanation and a metting offer . Also i yelled at him about the fact i never had a follow up with the dr in question i saw her at my scan in the waiting room i ignored her due to barry holding me down .

He told me the letter is still being worked on it apparantly takes a long time to write an explanaation . He doesent think i am going to like it much but still i will have it. He wont tell me anymore than that regarding the explanation. Basically filled me with a load of rubish.

I have a funny feeling im going to have a fight on my hands here . I want to know what he meant by im not going to like it very much hmmmmm. 

But hopefully i will be able to see a councellor omorrow god dont i need it. Barry didnt read the paper until he got home from work . He had all his ates ringing him at work asking if he knew he was in the paper . He got really mad when he saw it his only words were 'it wouldent be so bad if they didnt lie so much' he had a coffee and has gone to have a man chat with carl. 

My nans going bonkers! I knew she got a paper first thing in the mporning so i rang her this morning and asked if she had got a paper today i told her to read page 6 and  she told me to hang on she got her paper out and found the right page . She said holly shit its you what happened . I told her to read it and i would call her back in 10 mins. I called her back it was engaged finally got through i asked if she read it she said yeah some of it since she has rang 6 times . For those of you that dont know my nan is senile i have told her everything she is a mum to me really she just cant remember . Anyway she is frantic about it she asked me if i wanted her to ring the hospital and have a go at them and i told her there was no use ive shouted at them lots and they are still moving like snails bless her she is so funny . Love her. 

Ok maybe i should shut up now! 

Luv Emz xxx