Im all alone its lovely and peaceful here. Oh i have forgotton what it feels like. LOL. For the last 2 and a half weeks that Barry has been off work he has been driving me nuts. Carl has just picked him up though and he has gone with Carl to take his and Sues foster son back to his father . He is constantly running away and causingthem so much trouble its crazy . Anyway its a 3 hour drive away but at least Sue will get a good nights sleep tonight not having to worry where her nephew / foster son is . What drugs he is taking and what he is drinking. He goes out returns days later and says sorry i got drunk. He is 15 years old . Teenagers.

YAY monday tomorrow i cant wait Kylie goes to school in themorning thisweekend she has drove me absolutly crazy. Everything has to be about her it does my head in there is more people in this family other than Kylie . Though she doesent seem to think so . I had a 3 hour wobbly this morning from Kylie because she wanted to go to the park bearing in mind it was absolutly hammeringi t down with rain alsso she wanted to go in a skirt. I told her the park was wet so she will have to wait for a dry day and she isnt going out in the rain in a skirt . 3 hours she was screaming for and everytime i spoke to chloe she would shout at me 'its not fair on me ' . LOL.

Tomorrow the girls have their jabs tomorrow afternoon. Chloe didnt even cry last time but she has to have 2 this time so hopefully she will react just as well as last time. On the other hand Kylies i am NOT looking forward to it at all. She knows she is having it but she say  sheisnt going to be brave and is going to scream:( . So i have a child that is scared of the jab that i have never got jabbed before :( Kylie hasnt had an imunisation since she was 12 months old . I never tok her on properly until she was 13 months old so i dont have a clue how she is going to react to it. I know what to expect from Chloe as im used to it but Kylie i m not.

I need to see the doctor too . 7th augustis just such a long time to wait for some more councelling that isnt even goig to help me she has already told me she isnt experienced to deal wth my problem .Also this bleeding needs sorting out it is driving me up the wall . I wish they would just stop it. somehow. How many periods can u have in a ,month?? seriouly its stupid bleed stop for a few days and what do u know it bloody return AGAIN ARGH . If that isnt enough my diet is doing my head in all i can eat without throwing my guts up or being able to eat it is tomato and cucumber sandwiches yeah ok so its healthy enough but that is all i ever eat . Knowing thaty you would think i would either stay the same weight or loose some but no not me im putting it on . I dont   get it. I think i really need to talk ot the doctor tomorow .

Might try and get an early night tonight seems im home all alone. But then again i might not because i will be jumping to every noise i hear . LOL . Im a right chicken slightest noise and i have barry checking the windows and doors.

I will get Chloe weighed tomorrow afternoon at baby clinic to shut the health visitor up moaning.I bet she weighs loads i havent had her weighed for a year nowi havent neeeded too. Anyway i will stop moaning LOL

Luv Emz xxx