So today i took Chloe to get weighed hmm or not get weighed shall i say!! She blankly refused to go on them. She very happily weighed a baby but would she get on them scales herself no way she wouldent sit or even stand . She told me i should go back in 2 weeks and try again. She said there is nothing she can do there is no point in forcing her as we dont want to scare her anymore . LOL . She tried doing her height to see if she liked that one . She was game enough to stand on the little feet but as she started bringing in down on the top of her head it freaked her out a bit and she ran into my arms . Bless her she is a funny little thing. But she did say that her weight does lok absolutly fine she is nowhere under weight she looks very healthy , happpy and very vocal she said her speech is brilliant seems she has just turned 2.

The girls didnt have their jabs haha its tomorrrow i am such a idiot good job i checked the date on the com,puter else i would have picked kylie up early and all sorts hehe. But thats cool because i took Kylie along to my appointment as she is really scared about hewr injection so  i suggested she asked my doctor what happens when she has her injection in a sense that she wouldent be so scared. She did do quite a good job actually  she told her she could either have it in her bum or her leg leg. She said she would like it in her leg. She would need o pull only her trousers down so nobody will see her bum (something she was worried about) she will sit on mummy cuddle mummy and count to 5 aand i promise by the time you get to 5 it will all be over all you will feel is a tiny scratchy like when your puppy nips you. Then she can have a sticker . It did work Kylie is feeling a bit better about it and is now going to be brave.

Me on the other hand was pretty much a waste of time. I told he all tjhis bleeding is really getting me down and making me feel really crap i have had enough of it its been 2 months and if i see any more blood i am going to go crazy im sick of it. So she said if it is effecting me that much as it has now been 2 months and it is a long time to bleed. She has given me some tablets to hopefully stop the bleeding over the next week. At least that will keep me going until my scan on 14th which i am really not looking forward too if only you could get a scan at the doctors lol. If not after this scan so we can get everything ruled out and i am still bleeding they will doanother blood test to check if im aeneamic again.

As for the eating thing she thinks the reason i have lost my appetite because of the stress and depression thing which she doesent think is going to go away any time soon. She weighed me and cos im 52.1 and was only 54.2 3 months ago she isnt worried about it . So instead she has gave me some anti sickness differant to the last one they tried and then apparantly i might not feel      sickand vomit i i eat or even smell food other than the obvious.

She said it really isnt looking good and wants me to see her the day after my scan to see where to go from here with a bit of hope the scan gives us some answeers. I dont know i give up . bSleeping tablets have stopped working imup til gone 1am every nght i went to bed at midnight last night and i was up at 4.30. Anti depressants stop me from crying and make me bottle things up they dont me feel any better . I juast feel like i am taking all these tablets and not even sure any of this is going to work :(

Luv Emz xxx