I was sorry to read your blog because of what you have been through. I'm guessing that Barry hasn't said anything to save more tears for you. I think what you went through is terrible and my heart goes out to you. But it's obvious you love your daughters and we will look forward to see Chloe in her new clothes. You are not at all selfish

Emmie, it is ok to be angry when other people are pregnant, especially after you have been through all that rubbish.  It might seem selfish to some, but sweetie, it is normal and ok.  I feel selfish being able to have kids, though it wasn't all that long ago (ok, 7 years) that I thought I'd never have the opportunity to be a mum.  Guess that's why I ended up with so many pet birds! lol.

You have come so far in the last few months, and while it might not seem it, you haven't fallen off the face of the earth just yet.  Barry needs to understand that life goes on and that hiding these things from you is going to cause you more pain than if he just told you.  Poor men, can't win sometimes. lol. 

I bet Chloe looks so cute in her new clothes.  I feel as though I've just completed the winter wardrobes, and now I have to make a start on the summer clothes!  Arrrggghhh! lol.  Good thing I love shopping for my girls!  Will look out for the photos!

Oh Emz........sometimes we have to be selfish, you're only human after all and you're bound to feel like it should be you in her situation and as Fi said Barry knows how you're feeling and only wants to protect you for as long as possible. Just be open and honest with both Barry and your friend's and I'm sure they'll understand.

Amanda xxxx

Oops, I'll just let the kitty out in case it tries to bite your head off...

Ok, back now.  Well, I guess you can't help how you feel.  Sometimes your heart just wins over, even though you know it isn't logical.  It's a tough one to deal with, then again, you are a tough little cookie, with a big heart, and I know you will be ok eventually (though always sad). 

As for the frog prince, I guess he was worried about how you would react, plus a typical male who doesn't communicate as well as us fairer sex of the species, (presuming we are the same species as males of course).

Thinking of you, oodles of love and hugs ME xoxox

Oh sweetie of course your going to feel that way, thats very normal so don't you beat yourself up about it.... I know you probably don't want to hear this so don't bite my head off lol but he is I'm sure trying to protect you not telling you the news, he knows you better then most so I'm sure he knows it may upset you and can't quite find the right time to let you know....  Just sit down with him and tell him you overheard the conversation and tell him how you feel, I'm pretty sure he will understand and give you some love and hugs you need xxxx