Yes there certainly is something going on in there its just not right i want all this to stop and yhe drs just dont seewm to c.are. I know we will have another one day u mkniow its just like waiting for that day to happen. its just not fair i am going docs today though i need to know wats going on with my stupid body

Much love to you XXX

Yes it sure does this isnt right i an gonna book in with a differant doc tomorrow and see what happens . i know itcan happen i got chloe i fell pregnant again just didnt last :( but these cysts really worry me . Barry has assured me im not letting him or the girls down at all but i still feel i am as they want it so much . But first i need to get this bleeding to bloody stop its making me feel like crap . I need to pull myself together i hear from the hosp tomorrow about my complaint i need to keep on top.

Luv Emz xxx

Wow lucky for her that could have ended her fertility thats alot to go through i had PID real bad they said it must have been there a good 9 months maybe more there was so much it was pushing my tube into my pelvis . It just breaks my heart thinking wewont have anymore

Luv Emz xxx

Yes i have to Helen , Im driving myself crazy here you know how small i am and considering my boobs are smaller than my tummy that just isnt right. They need to sort this. I will do Helen,

Luv Emz xxx

OOOO Winnie has an idea you hold onto it and i will let you know what time im of to docs so i dont miss you boy i cant miss my winnies call :) . I m gonna go and see a completely differant doc one ive neverseen before . OK? Barry said i have to so must do as imtold he will only throw a paddy. (nothing unusual) . I know he loves memore than anything and he wouldent hate me if we couldent have any more but he did say that if i couldent get help in falling and icant then he will elt me adopt a child :) which i would love to do as you already know . Anyway i will speak to you tomorrow honey bit tearful though soo be warned.

Much Love Emz xxx

Hi Katie,

After a chat to barry i have decided to go back to the doctors tomorrow and see a completely new dr someone ive NEVER A seen before as i cant see 20th august being the next available appointment and that is what i need if they do basicallynothing im going to go to paignton A&E  i refuse to use torbay A&E . I know i shouldent think about what could be but i cant help it lol.  I think my pup can tell im upset since i sat here he hasnt moved from my side and has bee followig me everywhere today. Thanx sweetie xxx

Hi Pauline,

Yes im goingto goback to the doctors tomrrow feel like im in there more than out carry on like this i will get invited to the staff doo LOL. i am going to see a differant dr though someone ive never seen before justbecause i want asecond opinion on what they think to all thiscome tomorrow i will have been bleeding for 11 weeks another week and it will be 3 months surely they cant keep me going up untill the end of next month. At least i hope not. Barry has confirmed i am definatly not letting him down as this isnt my fault i didnt put the cysts there they just appeared. But to be honest i still feel pretty bad. No i dont want them anywhere near me if i could solve this on the phone i would imabsolutly petrified last time i let a gynaecologist near me well we all know what happened thenit just really frightens me . I think my girls are whats keeping me going at the moment i love them so much and they need me im their rock if anyone hurt them well they would be dust . No its definatly not wind if my camera was here i would take a photo my tummy is bigger than my boobs and my tummy is usually flat ask helen how big i am she has met me before :) something really isnt right . Yep im more than desperate for suggestions because im killing myself trying to work it out . I will let you know how i get on at doctors tomorrow .

Luv Emz xxxx

Hi Na ,

Yep im gonna go back to the doctors tomorrow but im going to see a new doctor . I cant physically or emotionally wait til the end of next month. Its just too long barry is going back to work the beginning of next month the latest so i really need it before then .

I really hope this bloating goes down soon my tummy is bigger than my boobs its just stupid .

Luv Emz xxx

That man in my tummy isnt getting you is he? LOL. I am definatly going back to the doctor tomorrow see what they think i dont put on weight and even if i do i dont put this uch on my tummy is bigger than my boobs and that isnt right LOL.

You and me both matey im sosick of it.

Luv Emz xxx

Iam going to see a completly differant dr tomorrow just for a 2nd opinion on it because this is beyond stupid.

Luv Emz xxx

Hi Amanda ,

I guess you areright things happen for a reason and even though barry says i am definatly not lettinghim down i still feel as though i am as thisis something he really wants but Emz doesent give up if i have something to fight for i will fight until i have no fight left in me ,

Iam going to go back t o the dr tomorrow and see what htey think ecaise its rreally not right and i cant wait untill the end of august its just tooooo long .

Luv Emz xxxx