Why do people you think so much of lie so much!! Im sorry to blog this but i am hurt by this and have been keeping it in all week . So last monday Barrys best friend Kenny who has been like a brother to me for well since i met him when barry and i got together and his girlfriend clare who i did consider a good friend nywa last monday they went to swindon as he ad to havea meeting with social services RE his boys!!! Which was fair enough . Tuesday night we got a text from ken saying he was still in swindon he had a further meeting his boys want to live with him he will ring on thursday . Wednesday wee get a call from some friends of ours who funny enough ken is meant to be lodging with. Ken is moving back to swindon WTF??????? So we text ken to find out if this was true ?? clare text saying they were driving they had been to pick up a few bits and were definatly coming back kenny would ring later to explain well there was no call no more texts nothing .................................... I since found out they actually took all their stuff out of their room and they were not planning on coming back at all . N-ot even planning to say goodbye . Would have been nice . -I also foun dout the the stuff i have been getting together the lat few months for her for when she is 20 weeks pregnant she told me she was desperate for as they were looking for somewhere to live etc she doesent even want if she had said so i could have sold it months ago . Also everything i have told C-lare which was meant to be private she has gone and slagged me off about it as soon as she got home . I should not be cos ken will be happy he has his boys back but i am hurt and annoyred they could have at least aid bye . ARGH !!!!!

Anyways less of that i will start getting all emotional againfeeling very emotional today. Things are just getting to me you know ?! Think its horemones or maybe just the way i am at the moment i dont know to be honest .

I have got my first true period you know after the miscarriage . up unill my consultant put me on the pill they put it down to the miscarriage as it was pretty much constant since i lost the baby . up until 2 and a hlaf months ago when i went on the pill i finnished it 3 weeks ago . I was begiinning to think my body was having a break but no fooling my stupid pathetic body .

STILL no shy im really getting worried about her now ecspecially seems she has just been spaded like the day before she went missing. God i love that cat so much  i just want her home, I can only hope she is safe.

My consultant and the laproscopic guy are both in tomorrow so hopefully i will find out when my operation is and if i need a MRI scan first . I say just tak the stupid thing out before i do it myslf . LOL .

Hope everyone had a great weekend xxx