Seems so strange to be taking flowers to the grave yard for you on this special day we should be having tea  & lunch together celebrating another year of your life . But instead im just dipping tea after tea wishing you were still by my side to guide me through . All that is left is sweet memories of you . But i know you are resting in peace and you are happy watching over us making sure we are safe .

I love you & miiss you forever more .

Well the last 4 weeks ive been getting bloated tummy right down low in the abdomen im having craqzy pains and i got some real nasty discharge, so i went doctors a few weeks back i did  a urine test with me she did a pregnancy test negative just like the 3 i did at home .PHEW!! She sent the rest of the urine off to the lab as it had white cells in it . They came back abnormality in it so then she suggested i did a smear.

Me and Barry have been having issues for   a while too so she did a few swabs for STI 's and everything else 5 swabs were taken altogether YUK . Well all came back clear so its back to the gynaecologist for me :( the doctor said if this is  the case and it is on the back of my right ovary then the ovary will need to be removed :(

Really exciting NOT !!

Give me a break alrerady for christ sake!!!!

Can you believe it !!!! What a joke really this is really gettingon my tits now. All the cases of abuse you hear have gone undetected , yet i do nothing apart from struggle to get through everyday. As much as I struggle NEVER would i dream of hurting my kids , NEVER have they gone without food , NEVER have they gone hungry , NEVER have they gone thirsty , NEVER  have they gone without love & guidance.

I cant take 1 more complaint or report . Apparantly my house is a mess and my children are skinny.  Now this has infuriated me !!!! My kids are not to get up untill they have finnished their meals and they do eat most of their meals they are good eaters and i give them whatever they want between meals as long as their meal was eaten and apart from chloe not liking potato which can be a bummer they eat healthily.

Im not exactly a big person myself at the moment im a size 6 but my highest ive ever been is a 12 but i try not to go over a10. I only weigh 75.5 kg . Plus their dad is6ft tall and too very boney. So really is there any suprise my children arnt obese ? Isnt that why we are all supposed to eat our 5 a day so we arnt over weight . I dont find anything wrong with my childrens weight they are perfect in fact 6 months back i was worried as she was a bit on the chubby side.

As for my house being a mess well no it isnt actually its cluttered . Its not as if i just leave my housework cos i dont i am always doing something either rnning round after the kids tidying up , doing washing ,cooking and there is only 24 hours in a day i am not superwoman and no i dont have magic powers either . Plus if i get into a depressiom it will take half a day to clean 1 room .

I really cant stomach any more complaints of false reports . I dont do anything wrong , im just trying to survive but with these constant bogus complaints is making it very difficult for me . Its not my fault her daugter died dont get me wrong i do feel sorry for her for that but getting my kids taking off me isnt going to bring her daughter back. Im blamed for everything and im sic k to death with it.

Anyways im off now its gone midnight dn i have got to be up early tomorrow Kylie needs stuff for her lunchbox . My night out tomorrow YAY cant  wait xxx

AND her name isnt rosery her name is PODGE !!!!!!!

ARGH I hate living here.

Someone is after my cat . Thing is this woman is in fairy land . She is a speed freak she got all her kids taken off her last year because of her addiction. Personally i dont have much time for her and if im honest she freaks me out. I will say hello but that is all.

Last week or so there has been a bowl down the road a bit with milk and the other day there ws cat biscuits in there . For those of you that dont know and arnt cat lovers my podge is ginger and a female if i hadnt got her done she would be worth quite a bit so that makes me anxious, i love my cayts.

Earlier it was confirmed i went to take pepsi up the lane for a wee and there she was calling come on rosery in you come come on and i looked andthere was my pdge ,,, so i called podgey baby come on and in she came and the woman totally disappeared!!!!

The cheek of it  , cant even let my cat out now. Fingers crossed i get 1 of the 4 houses i bidded on last week i really really need it. xxx

Sorry but you will have to excuse tthe spot hahahaha it wont go away its stress for you.

Anyway i got my teeth YAAY . I  feel a bit goofy right now but i can get used to that and they feel a bit weeird but i will get used to it i guess. Ive got enough saliva in my mouth to hydrate 5 dehydrated people i cant eat snowballs and its so hard to drink but i was to expect that anyway lol. Im just happy  that I HAVE TEETH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!